We tend to approach our growth and evolution in the same distorted way as an ambitious approach to achieve material wealth and success in the world. It is the very greed-fueled approach that seems to be so “normal”. Unfortunately you can’t use tools used in carpentry in a marble quarry. Therefore an old approach to understanding the depths of the Universe, mysteries and secrets beyond the apparent with our obsolete tools are going to be promoting an imaginary type of evolution which is only happening in our fantasy and ego.
It’s hard to convey in words what I realized within, but let the transmission of my realization reach out to all of you reading and may at some point reach the same realization if you haven’t done so already.
In order to realize things out of the box, we have to be out of the box. Exiting our “righteous” routines and ways to look at the experience are helping us to step out and have a broader understanding of the world and everything. The sailors on a sailboat can blow air into the sail as powerful as they can but the boat will stand unmoved regardless, as in order to exert the influence on that sail one has to be outside of the boat.
The path to “the out of the box” realm is by changing the way we see things, people and events. Whilst we still see those in very dual way, like: those are my friends and these are the enemies, you will still be blowing in your sail while standing on the boat.
Once we start stoicly accepting everything in our lives as ours to have and we stop perceiving people in a antagonistic way, realizing that everyone is a catalyst in our potential unfolding, life will start to look different, and even events and people will stop being so triggering for us.
It took me a lot of time to get here and I am still wondering if I can be able to mantain this level of perception tomorrow, as the Matrix tries to bring us back to its thralls but the heck with tomorrow, as it doesn’t exist.. I am here now and I can read this article tomorrow (if tomorrow comes), and I will remember today’s realization.
To come back to the title, when we stop wanting to become anything, and we start detangling from the bondage of all the ideas we have about ourselves, and everything else, practically unbecoming everything, the reality rushes in, and pompous words like “we are all One” really start to be perceived at their proper depth, as perceiving a level of reality that renders all previous ideas and concepts obsolete.
Everything that used to excite my imagination and look for in the future just stopped being appealing. I can and will still have some of those, but there’s no “need” or longing for any of those, a real level of detachment dawned onto me. And at first is so painful like you wake up and see all the fake, glitter and sparkling stuff falling off everything that we used to appreciate and look forward to getting, now showing its ugly, rusted and even unnecessary side.
If you are ready to abandon the pursuit of all those little things that used to give a meaning to life, then this is how it goes, but if not yet, no worries. I believe that this realization comes only after diving deep in the material plane (illusion) with awareness, when you realize that you are Sisyphus, and trying to push that boulder uphill will never work and you decide to just accept that hilltop without the boulder there. The boulder in this case is all that baggage of ideas and concepts that used to be the background ruler of everything happening in our lives.
When we stop wanting to be recognized as anything, and we allow people to misunderstand and wrongly assume that we are like this or like that, then we’ve walked a long way and our disillusionment is very close. There’s nothing to defend, or prove. Whoever is to get our true essence they will, whoever is not to grasp who and what are we about, they will not, regardless of us trying to convince or prove them otherwise.
When you unbecome all the ideas you had about yourself, then you become “I am”, and that is impossible to explain in words, you don’t need any quality attached to that “I am” as you are Everything and Nothing. That takes you out of the trap of souls: that makes you be in the world, yet not of the world; no longer wanting to save anyone or anything as you’ll start seeing the perfection of the world as it is, in its apparent imperfection.
Inspired by and dedicated to Jivanmukti and Siddha Param-Para 