Tag: Primordial Source

Being who you truly are

Not far away in the past, I used to believe that taking an extra step to show goodness and kindness to people was a very spiritual thing to do.

My perspective changed when I realized the amazing value of being myself fully. Being myself unapologetically will definitely trigger lots of people and make them classify me as selfish or even narcissistic, which at first glance may even seem to be the case. In fact, what changes is that I keep my kindness somewhat hidden, and stop being people’s doormat for the sake of being liked, loved or accepted.

I have the same heart filled with love and kindness, but I don’t look for ways to show that to people anymore, as I am not looking for recognition of those features, and as I am more and more self-sufficient..

I bless when I feel like în silence, so they’ll never know. I see people thriving when I am not explaining myself but letting them get to their right conclusions or even allowing them to go a bit astray, projecting what is not, without me trying to correct anyone, to each according to their vibration at that point in time.

I might explain myself when I feel humility and an honest desire to know, and I am asked in a non-entitled way, as we all deserve to have our questions asked if we know how to do it. But I am done trying to make others understand how great, honest, kind and trustworthy I am. I am fine with people believing whatever they choose about me

If people are throwing a tantrum and are being entitled, I do not have the desire to explain or excuse myself. But I make sure I question myself thoroughly and try to see where my actions and words are coming from, but that doesn’t mean that I will try to bring clarity to anyone against their will or capacity to understand, as I have to limit unnecessary waste of energy when there’s no possibility or will to fathom what’s going on.

We all get to clarity when we dare to question ourselves and our narratives. When we dare to ask ourselves “what if they are right? ” and flip the whole story from different perspectives, especially from the other person’s perspective.

Sometimes we are blinded by the mechanisms of coping that hide under layers of traumatic responses and programming, so I can definitely say that taking whatever whoever says and giving it a chance to be examined in a cool “what if?” way is the best one can do for their own evolution out of their own limitations.

I have pondered many times onto statements by people who accuse me of acting selfish, narcissistic or being unfair. And I realized that at that point they were right, and I wondered why I was doing that. And following the thread, I got to the point where I realized that the narcissist is a child who stopped evolving, stopped maturing and never left the house of their parents (metaphorically speaking). They’re entitled to things and people’s attention and energy, exactly as a child feels, and they’re failing to take full responsibility for anything they do or say, exactly like a child.

Even when they’re touched by love, all they care about is only the fulfillment of their own ideas of “happiness”, forgetting to take the other person into consideration, forgetting to give and serve selflessly, not knowing that they are just taking and taking and by not giving, they’re going to exhaust that person’s energy and good will and will eventually bring about rapture.

So, whenever someone says something to me, I might take time to assess their words, like I would ponder on specialist advice. This made me realize how much we can grow even just by being exposed to  people who might misjudge us.

The path to healing is honesty to self and others. But there’s a caveat to this: I used to be overly critical of myself (twisting and fully denying my own perspective), and I can easily see now that any of the extremes are wrong, as in any other situation. So, being fully dismissive of others is extreme and not beneficial, whereas being fully submissive is not the solution either.

The secret is always in the middle path, the path of balance. Balance is the Divine law inherent in everything and anyone. When we search for balance, we’re always on the right track to removing ourselves from the limitations of the existence of the human body.

So being ourselves is a huge step to seeing and acknowledging our shadow and the wounded child within, along with the Eternal Spirit of the Absolute, also is a chance to lose all the unnecessary people in our proximity, just by being aligned with ourselves instead of showing some “kinder” face in order to preserve relationships and things that were never ours to have. Therefore, after the shock of losing so many people, the newly discovered vibration of truth and self-sufficiency is going to start attracting similar or at least higher vibrating beings and situations, like ending high school clears the path to university.

Being fully ourselves when we are deeply wounded and traumatized may have as a direct consequence, the loss of the majority of people in our surroundings, and that can deepen the sense of crisis, but it’s not a mistake at all, because we can get a chance to see how our actions and words come from the desire to possess people and things and from very traumatic events from our early ages or even unresolved past life unsolved traumas and a misunderstanding of life and its purpose.

So a very narcissistic/mentally disturbed person, who doesn’t want to evolve, will be forced to reassess the whole thing/life one last time, by hitting rock bottom! Hitting the bottom is, when everyone leaves, everyone abandons them because of the atrocious behavior, or when life will force a deep traumatic event as a last chance, a last wake-up call. They’ll either realize that the only way is up, and see their flaws and genuine desire to heal, or they’re going to postpone the process for the next existence.

Now I dare say that not many are in that predicament, as I consider a severe mental health issue a karmic punishment or a spiritual jail. Yet undoubtedly, we all have traits coming from unresolved trauma that make us exhibit narcissistic, bipolar, borderline behavior or any other distorted abnormal features. So, while we are not full-fledged narcissists, there might be a chance to heal, as long as there is the acknowledgment of something being wrong with us.

Being ourselves is valuable in any situation, especially in learning to protect our own energy from people that only drain it. Being kind doesn’t mean you should allow spiritual vampires to suck you dry. Spiritual vampires are not necessarily obvious evil people, but most of the time they are family members, our spouses and friends that we may feed with our energy because of our lack of boundaries and because we try to please people. Also, being who we truly are Wil inspire others to accept and embrace themselves fully, which is, in the long term, planting the seeds for a better humanity.

About demons (part 2)

When we are young and ignorant, dark and evil humans and other entities can look scary and make us shake up with fear. But when we advance in  courage and perseverance, patience and purity, we are growing and expanding, hence the big bad demons and monsters are becoming less and less scary and terrible, and along with this observation, fear vanishes and the old foes are canceled and removed not by antagonistic forceful removal, which perpetuates the violence, and keeps one in a loop, but by sheer growth and broadening of our perspective, the old foes become redundant and obsolete as the entirety of the old perception.

Picture yourself as a child, surrounded by all those enemies and demons and whatever you ever feared. Then see the fearful child growing and matching the opposing force’s stature, and now it looks like a fairer fight, yet see yourself expanding further, outgrowing all the foes until they look like tiny little insects. And you can argue that insects can still sting or bite. True, yet see yourself growing further until they are just microscopic harmless beings. And yet the growth is eternal, and nothing can touch you because there’s nothing else existing at that level of expansion but You. And you finally understand what and how it is and feels to be One with it All, and you see the vanity and futility of trying to grasp its meaning before the time is right. Now smile and rejoice! You have been revealed the secret.

What you fight you become. So don’t fight anything, but transmute, transcend and outgrow. Let your effulgence burn all the old and unnecessary. May all the ideas of separation be removed by the pure realization of who and what you are. Know yourself as limitless and boundless. You are Everything that ever existed and will ever be. Yes You!  And I am telling that to you, because I am you.

Good and bad, angels and demons are interpretations and different aspects of the same thing. In reality, there is no separation and you can feel what I am saying because the real information will always click within you, so you know that all these separations are inexistent, created by the mind for enjoyment, like kids and their imagination creating an entire world out of toys and whatever else they have at hand for fun.

Demons and angels are the same wholesome existence taking a role in the creation of the biggest director that ever existed: You, the All, The primary Source, The One without beginning and end, and all the rest of the existence, and living beings and entities and the inert matter, which was never inert but playing a role in the greatest theatrical play from beyond times.

You might get the message and the image I portrayed as a reminder of what you already know, and still you might go back to old beliefs, your chores and responsibilities in this experience, seemingly forgetting it, but that powerful spark of your higher self, that knowledge and presence has been ignited and will remain with you and îs growing, dispeling whatever is not real.

Live your existence fully without refusing experience that life pushes onto you, check it and double check it to make sure it is Life itself pushing those experiences and then embrace them fully. But behind the curtain of the theater let there be always the awareness, as guardian of truth, and enjoy the game knowing that it is a giant game put into the scene for your growth, expansion and entertainment and remove the fear once and for all.

Letter from God

My dear,

I am That which you are too, only you don’t know yet. I am everything that ever existed and I have no end nor beginning. People call me many names but I need none since I am The All.

You are a self-writing script. When I allowed myself to split into many, I  permitted all those pieces of myself to have their own free will, with all that implies, and I allowed them to go as far away from me as they wanted. Therefore, that apparent separation and identification with the body they chose to inhabit created their forgetfulness and limitedness.

I need no worship nor acknowledgement since I am everything and all. I would rather have you worship  yourself my dear. Religions are made by people to control people, they have nothing to do with me, but I allow them because at incipient level of evoluution they can bring people to a straighter path, but as the child grows up to become an adult, he must abandon stories about monsters in their closets or under bed, just by realizing that there is nothing there. So, I am everywhere and I am everything, how can anyone mediate between us when we are not separate? Do you think you need to do anything to be my child and have my love? I love you exactly how you are, so you should love yourself too, because that’s the only way you will remove your veils of ignorance and and come back to Oneness.

Don’t ask me for things as your children don’t ask you for food, love, and other necessary things for sustenance and proper development. They’re just being provided. You may want things that you don’t need, therefore they’re not provided. You can still fight the natural order and try to get it regardless, but even when you get those things that are not supposed for you to have, the struggle to get there will be so great and the price so hefty that you might get disappointed. Try to flow with life, oppose as little as possible and everything that is yours will come to you. That doesn’t mean you shouldn’t do anything or become lazy, because if so, things will fail to come your way.

Everything and everyone is allowed to function and malfunction by their own free volition. But as a cell that doesn’t fulfill its appointed role in the system gets removed and expelled from it, as such the entire program of the existence in this plane applies to every single subatomic particle and Universes alike. Everything in this creation is moving and everything is subjected to creation and dissolution except I. Therefore, you being one with me, you are never at risk of harm or dissolution, but your material appearance is subjected to the natural laws, where everything is eternally changing. Embrace change and flow with life’s stream and you will experience what’s yours to have. I don’t promise you it will be easy or only pleasant, but it will empower you and strengthen you for your next adventure.

I am not guarding over the earth as I created rules and rulers, laws and enforcers and everything is abiding by those Divine laws. But rest assured that my awareness is omnipresent. Whilst you are limited in your understanding and ignorant as a child to the true reality of things, those rules and laws keep you bound to this plane, but when your veils are falling you will raise to a higher realm, where different laws and rules are in place.

There is free will, but there is retribution if the laws are not worked with. I empowered you with my full power but so far you are ignorant of it and limited by whatever living being you inhabit and by identifying yourself with it. Know that you have the power to free yourself from the fetters that bind you. Know that you are always free, but if you believe otherwise you create that by your own power and volition.

You created gods and idols hoping to appease me, yet I am just aware of you being a child in your limited understanding of everything and I am waiting for you to allow yourself to grow and see that you are already Everything and one with Everyone and you don’t need neither help nor saviors, no external tools whatsoever.

Why do you think that your archeology didn’t find flying machines from ancient times? Because people were powerful, aware of their rights and their powers, and unlimited in their capacity to do anything they wanted to. The more people distance themselves from that advanced state, the more they externalized their power outwards and removed their own. They created religions and dogma, they created moving and flying machines when for them there was no space-time boundary and were free to roam everywhere. Wake up and see for yourselves.

The greater the power you have, the greater your responsibility. When you are an ignorant child you are careless and responsibility-free, but adults are responsible for you instead. And you are responsible when you start waking up, responsible for your body you inhabit, and for the nature you interact with. Know that there is no inert matter, everything is living, since everything is Me. Respect and love yourself and you’ll be implicitly respect and love me and my infinite forms I take and we should be One. We are already that but your childish ignorance and limiting beliefs are keeping you forcefully separated.

Everything is limited and separated, consciousness that grows into Oneness, into The Consciousness. I love each and every one of you and I make no difference regardless of what you chose to do or not. Become like that and one day you will know Me, from within and then you will see everything that you missed.

Earth is a living being that you are part of. Earth is a small cell inside my infinite body, like a tiny little cell in your body. As above so below! I left you with all my power, tools, and knowledge, now remove the childlike vision and become a grown-up. You are responsible for everything you are aware of, as I am responsible for everything that exists. If you don’t try to take things out of context, you will realize that everything is always perfect in its apparent imperfection. Relax and smile and grow from being my child to be again One with the void and with the creation, One with the Primordial Source of Everything.

We are One!