I am still far

No matter how advanced we are and how much we worked our flaws out, we would definitely be still ignorants in different aspects or matters. This realization should make us very humble and should keep us in the mode of knowing that we are always going to remain students on the path of Light, regardless of the innumerable achievements and realizations.

I fell, without being aware, in the trap of feeling somewhat superior, believing that I know much, but I was totally incapable to really notice it until today. Oh what a lesson! What a great lesson and how disappointed I have been realizing how easy it is still to fall into past mistakes and ways, and how far I am from being through with my struggle with uprooting the past and the old unnecessary paradigms. 

I have been taught today that getting to have some spiritual experience and realization are truly nothing, if not fully integrated also into the material world that we call Matrix, Illusion, Maya, etc.. Similar to the assumption that we can jump straight into some advanced state without finishing our “dirty work”. 

Actually to be even more precise, I realized today that accumulation of spiritual information and having a well developed intuitive sense and having some time spent on the path might even become hindrances, if the old ways are not fully acknowledged and transcended, transmuted into higher level elements. I now understand how good people lost their path and minds and got astray, just by assuming that they can jump straight to some higher level disregarding the need to master the previous ones before that. It’s because of the hidden currents that they failed to acknowledge (their existence in their system) therefore, those hidden aspects, acted unimpeded under the surface, dragging one into the pit of righteousness and self-sabotage.

The so called “piousness” and righteousness is actually a sacrilege and in vain if one is not aware of whatever is useless and belongs to the old paradigm of being and is not worked out of the system.

Now the recommendation of all the scriptures and true perceptors and Teachers makes better sense:

” Exalt not thine heart above the children of men,

lest it be brought lower than the dust.

If thou be great among men,

be honoured for knowledge and gentleness.” 

– Excerpt from the Emarald Tablets of Thoth the Atlantean.

So if I would have understood this recommendation previously, I would have never been so proud, teaching and preaching something that I haven’t fully mastered and experienced myself. Therefore I come here in front of you all and humbly admit my mistakes and kindly warn you so that you can learn out of my ignorance and don’t rush into believing that you can save anyone before fully saving oneself. 

I came here to write in this late hour, because I am very grateful for the amazing lesson, where I realized that I still have lots of work to do with myself, to share my humble experience, and whatever I got to know was the work of Grace in my life and some exertion from my end too, yet there are so many things that I disregarded and thought that they must have vanished by themselves, yet they are still lurking in the shadows, like prey animals waiting for their victim to be vulnerable.

I am very grateful for being able to observe the trap of my own ego, of my own mind and I am grateful for the being that triggered this situation.