So many times I thought I got lost, that I lost my path to remembering who and what I truly am, yet in fact I was still on it, but my guilt and shame for “going astray” or going back to old paths of perdition, almost blocked my way back to it (the Path”).
There is no losing the path at all, it’s all just the eternal swinging pendulum of life pushing one back and forth, up and down,in and out of balance. Know that the ripe ones observe this movement, and the change of moods and tendencies, and are choosing the right action or not to action, without letting themselves to be influenced by the eternal pendular movement of everything in this paradigm.
Regain your faith and know that you didn’t do anything wrong, you just allowed yourself to be dragged back for a while by the force of the “low tide”, but you can easily step out of it whenever you desire to do so. And believe it or not, all of the previous Masters and realized beings have experienced the same issue and eventually overcome it. As they say: “the winner is just a loser who kept on trying” .
The law of free will is a divine mandate that no one can oppose or go against without huge repercussions. Therefore be certain that you know what you want and make sure you don’t trespass other’s freewill either. Many times we’re tricked by entities into guilt and shame and we accept “punishments” in all ways possible, believing that we deserve them. Hence we’re bound by our own free will, smartly manipulated by the forces of darkness, so eventually there’s no one punishing or inflicting harm to ourselves but ourselves.
Be aware of your power and become conscious of it, take full responsibility for everything and become a representative of the Divine Law instead of being a “victim” of it. The ignorant is like a leaf in the wind, moved from here to there by lack of proper higher vision and willpower.
We are always on the right path. The elliptical path starts from the Source, goes far away from it and then, while being quite afar, the remembrance of that spark that left the Source, and memory of its true essence is reignited, the longing for returning to the Light of its Being is revived, and the Path is initiated. Consequently the long road back home starts.
One of the hermetic principles declares: “as above so below”, So as, planets, stars, and even universes have their elliptical movements of going far and coming back, similarly, we souls are no different. Regardless of how far into the darkness a soul might have went, eventually it will steer back towards the source of everything, as another proof that there is nothing but Light out of which everything sprung out.
Like great Master Tilopa said to his student Naropa:
“The darkness of a thousand eons cannot dim the brilliant radiance that is the essence of the sun. Likewise, eons of samsara cannot dim the sheer clarity that is the essence of the mind.”
So all we need to remember is that purity of our essence that cannot be stained by anything we do. Although that shouldn’t be used as an excuse to act immoral or in any way that might be harmful or detrimental to other souls. The coming back path comes with huge responsibility. Now you know what needs to be done. We know the divine laws that we should abide by, now the ignorance of the child has been dispelled, therefore we have to embrace the responsibility of an adult and start shining in the world, silently, humbly, as the sun shines over weeds and good plants alike without need for anyone’s acknowledgement or praise, just doing the needful. .
Start giving in a selfless way, know all existence to be one with The All, embrace It as your own being and dwell in It forever.
It’s great that even when one goes unknowingly to “the other side”, falling again into old patterns of behavior, there’s always a stretched hand to pull one back onto the path of Truth, be it the Grace of the Guru, the call of the spiritual lineage, or whichever way it may manifest… all one needs is to be open, to listen, and nature itself will deliver one way or another the redemption message for the one that has ears to receive.
The weak will fall into victimization, into believing that there’s no return, hence wasting another incarnation as probably happened previously, but the one that reached maturity will once again raise from the ground, dust their clothes and walk on the eternal steep road ahead that eventually unites one with its Source.