Tag: humbleness

Being who you truly are

Not far away in the past, I used to believe that taking an extra step to show goodness and kindness to people was a very spiritual thing to do.

My perspective changed when I realized the amazing value of being myself fully. Being myself unapologetically will definitely trigger lots of people and make them classify me as selfish or even narcissistic, which at first glance may even seem to be the case. In fact, what changes is that I keep my kindness somewhat hidden, and stop being people’s doormat for the sake of being liked, loved or accepted.

I have the same heart filled with love and kindness, but I don’t look for ways to show that to people anymore, as I am not looking for recognition of those features, and as I am more and more self-sufficient..

I bless when I feel like în silence, so they’ll never know. I see people thriving when I am not explaining myself but letting them get to their right conclusions or even allowing them to go a bit astray, projecting what is not, without me trying to correct anyone, to each according to their vibration at that point in time.

I might explain myself when I feel humility and an honest desire to know, and I am asked in a non-entitled way, as we all deserve to have our questions asked if we know how to do it. But I am done trying to make others understand how great, honest, kind and trustworthy I am. I am fine with people believing whatever they choose about me

If people are throwing a tantrum and are being entitled, I do not have the desire to explain or excuse myself. But I make sure I question myself thoroughly and try to see where my actions and words are coming from, but that doesn’t mean that I will try to bring clarity to anyone against their will or capacity to understand, as I have to limit unnecessary waste of energy when there’s no possibility or will to fathom what’s going on.

We all get to clarity when we dare to question ourselves and our narratives. When we dare to ask ourselves “what if they are right? ” and flip the whole story from different perspectives, especially from the other person’s perspective.

Sometimes we are blinded by the mechanisms of coping that hide under layers of traumatic responses and programming, so I can definitely say that taking whatever whoever says and giving it a chance to be examined in a cool “what if?” way is the best one can do for their own evolution out of their own limitations.

I have pondered many times onto statements by people who accuse me of acting selfish, narcissistic or being unfair. And I realized that at that point they were right, and I wondered why I was doing that. And following the thread, I got to the point where I realized that the narcissist is a child who stopped evolving, stopped maturing and never left the house of their parents (metaphorically speaking). They’re entitled to things and people’s attention and energy, exactly as a child feels, and they’re failing to take full responsibility for anything they do or say, exactly like a child.

Even when they’re touched by love, all they care about is only the fulfillment of their own ideas of “happiness”, forgetting to take the other person into consideration, forgetting to give and serve selflessly, not knowing that they are just taking and taking and by not giving, they’re going to exhaust that person’s energy and good will and will eventually bring about rapture.

So, whenever someone says something to me, I might take time to assess their words, like I would ponder on specialist advice. This made me realize how much we can grow even just by being exposed to  people who might misjudge us.

The path to healing is honesty to self and others. But there’s a caveat to this: I used to be overly critical of myself (twisting and fully denying my own perspective), and I can easily see now that any of the extremes are wrong, as in any other situation. So, being fully dismissive of others is extreme and not beneficial, whereas being fully submissive is not the solution either.

The secret is always in the middle path, the path of balance. Balance is the Divine law inherent in everything and anyone. When we search for balance, we’re always on the right track to removing ourselves from the limitations of the existence of the human body.

So being ourselves is a huge step to seeing and acknowledging our shadow and the wounded child within, along with the Eternal Spirit of the Absolute, also is a chance to lose all the unnecessary people in our proximity, just by being aligned with ourselves instead of showing some “kinder” face in order to preserve relationships and things that were never ours to have. Therefore, after the shock of losing so many people, the newly discovered vibration of truth and self-sufficiency is going to start attracting similar or at least higher vibrating beings and situations, like ending high school clears the path to university.

Being fully ourselves when we are deeply wounded and traumatized may have as a direct consequence, the loss of the majority of people in our surroundings, and that can deepen the sense of crisis, but it’s not a mistake at all, because we can get a chance to see how our actions and words come from the desire to possess people and things and from very traumatic events from our early ages or even unresolved past life unsolved traumas and a misunderstanding of life and its purpose.

So a very narcissistic/mentally disturbed person, who doesn’t want to evolve, will be forced to reassess the whole thing/life one last time, by hitting rock bottom! Hitting the bottom is, when everyone leaves, everyone abandons them because of the atrocious behavior, or when life will force a deep traumatic event as a last chance, a last wake-up call. They’ll either realize that the only way is up, and see their flaws and genuine desire to heal, or they’re going to postpone the process for the next existence.

Now I dare say that not many are in that predicament, as I consider a severe mental health issue a karmic punishment or a spiritual jail. Yet undoubtedly, we all have traits coming from unresolved trauma that make us exhibit narcissistic, bipolar, borderline behavior or any other distorted abnormal features. So, while we are not full-fledged narcissists, there might be a chance to heal, as long as there is the acknowledgment of something being wrong with us.

Being ourselves is valuable in any situation, especially in learning to protect our own energy from people that only drain it. Being kind doesn’t mean you should allow spiritual vampires to suck you dry. Spiritual vampires are not necessarily obvious evil people, but most of the time they are family members, our spouses and friends that we may feed with our energy because of our lack of boundaries and because we try to please people. Also, being who we truly are Wil inspire others to accept and embrace themselves fully, which is, in the long term, planting the seeds for a better humanity.

Be flexible

The higher power doesn’t care about concepts and ideas, spiritual theories, or other human constructs of similar nature. Therefore, we shouldn’t try to defend any theory or understanding we may have reached, as in the end, they’re all incomplete and unsuitable to keep holding to. 

That’s why people who are rigid and crystallize themselves around such concepts are unfortunately condemning themselves to stagnation and sorrow, unaware of the continuous movement and evolution of Consciousness. If we hold onto anything we get stuck and start antagonizing the very energy of Everything we strive to realize within. 

When one has accepted any concept as immutable and undeniable, they have taken a break from the path of dissolution of what is not us. Therefore realize that any concept and understanding have their own expiry date and are just tools in the eternal evolution of the soul towards uniting with the Primary Source out of which we have all emerged. 

Continuously embrace flexibility and observe when the time has arrived to abandon what has become obsolete. Allow yourself to flow with Life’s teaching without opposition and you might be getting into the roller-coaster that shakes and turns one upside down in its purpose of removing every single unnecessary particle and information that it’s not You. 

All the bookish/ academic knowledge is a powerful barrier to the one that has acquired it to see deeper into the depths of their Being. But whoever has this huge baggage of  true-at-a-very-basic-level information and dares to empty their bucket, which is filled with stale water, and fill it up with the continuous stream coming from within and from without, has almost crossed “the ocean of Samsara “! (illusion) 

Even if you know much, know that everything is not applying at higher levels of consciousness and let go of the past information that brought you here, yet has to be abandoned for you to go forward, even though this linear description may be inaccurate. 

Similarly with scriptural knowledge, when I started realizing the truth hidden in scriptures, I was so proud that I discovered the truth, but lo and behold, the truth eternally evolves; it’s not a static element on which to hold on. So I learned to feel the knowledge that comes from within, which at points contradicts scriptural knowledge, not because whoever wrote it was corrupt or wrong, but because it passed through several editing and translating processes that corrupted the message. Even if a conjunction is changed in a very important writing transmission, the full understanding may go amiss, and the essence that was intended to be transmitted might be lost, not to say that the lower consciousness of those interfering with the text in their translation, interpretation, and editing is somewhat staining the original message. 

Therefore, keep an open mind and always ask yourself “What if the other is right and I might be wrong?! “ This is also a good way for those who are, in one way or another, experiencing any sort of mental issue, to step on the path of healing themselves. Once we allow humility to kick in and empty our bucket, we open ourselves for life to continuously replenish that water with a fresher and better one every day. 

Let all fetters of “knowledge “come and go on their own accord and see yourself embarking on the path of quantum disillusionment and Unity. 

Falsely enlighten people or second graders

I remember first grade at school, shy, incredulous, hopeful, happy, fearful, and all these mixed feelings, and when I finished it, I was like: “Wow, you’re almost a second grader”, and I was somewhat proud of myself, not that it was complicated or something like that, but because we are taught to be hunting and looking for the next level at all time.

When school started again and we were in the schoolyard and we observed those little ones about to start their first grade, wow we felt good, like we weren’t anymore the youngest and the dumbest. I remember that feeling and I identify that same feeling in the great majority of the so-called gurus, healers, self-denominated star seeds, teachers  or who knows what other names they call themselves. Yes, I kid you not, the greatest majority haven’t even finished the second grade, but they feel as they touched the greatness, and that they’re the king of the world like Leonardo in Titanic.

Some people are so deep into their karmic crap, so deep into their academic and bookish knowledge that as soon as they perceive there might be a slight better vibe about themselves, they get infatuated with themselves, drunk with their newly discovered charisma and limited power that they managed to get, and they decide that to be the enlightenment or they’ve reached some sort of Magnus Opus of their existence.

By believing that, they have chosen illusion and self-gratification, they become the blind that leads the blind to the precipice, not knowing that they have barely scratched the surface of the iceberg and most likely they will try to squeeze some money out of that niche they discovered.

Why is that happening? You may ask. Because their motives are not genuine, their motives for starting the whole thing were desire for powers, luxury, money, partnership/pair, fame, and charisma and when they were given a glimpse of the “second grade”, they decided that they are great and now they can teach people how to get enlighten themselves, occupying a niche in the so-called spiritual market, getting a piece of the cheese, while rendering them (the people they “teach”) useless, astray and attached to their being, and projected outside of themselves, after giving away their material possessions, and energy, making them filthy rich while they, the students are becoming poor and disempowered. Could that be right?

So, this army of thieves  self-called masters couldn’t have reached more than the second grade of this eternal school of souls, because they lacked flexibility, patience, and humbleness! (please observe them and see for yourself), and they are never empowering their students, as it should be, like a good father giving the boy a rifle and teaching him how to hunt, but they give predigested “food” ideas of the past, or words from old scriptures that they themselves fail to assimilate on a deeper basis and some logical basic one. They give distant promises of “enlightenment” where they maintain their upper hand and control over their “students”. So they will create people who are dependent on their being and personality and they will create a power distance so that will falsely create more value about themselves.

Some are not only ignorant second graders but malignant beings that were long ago captured and possessed by their demons of greed, lust, and hunger for power and they have become, some knowingly, some unknowingly tools of the Matrix to keep people captured here.

But, everything comes our way by the Divine Mandate of the power of resonance, we attract what we are! If you stumbled on some of these second graders and you gave them your money and your power, retract your power and be happy you managed to see the illusion and the trickery, know that as a sign of life that whatever you had to experience or pay for, was paid, otherwise you will be still blind and veiled and you will be feeding that entity’s charisma with your energy and money.

Each one of the people who have a God complex or assume that are great and they’ve reached the pinnacle of their evolution are going to be revealed by life that they are not so, they are going to be shown that they are not what they claim or believe themselves to be, they are going to be deprived of part or the entirety of their powers so they can easily know that they are not true leaders, healers nor gurus, they will be forced to see their limitedness and ignorance. This is their biggest test, where they choose their belonging to which side, because until here, although wrong and misleading, they were more or less ignorant of that reality, but now if they see that they are just second graders and pretend themselves to be masters and doctors, this is when they have truly chosen the path of deceit that takes them further and further away from truth, and that which every soul is searching, which is coming back home, to the primordial Source where we all left wandering and uniting with That being one with All and all with One!

Some will compensate for the loss of power, or charisma through complicated and sick magical sacrifices and ceremonies that will just dig their hole deeper and deeper.

It’s a very common occurrence with young souls to fall into the traps of power, fame, lust, riches, and creating or being part of cults, from the simple fact that old souls probably already experienced several times in their past lives by being both fake teachers and healers and their students. So I am not trying to diminish anyone, let everyone have their own chosen experience, because every single individual soul is following their hidden and unique path back to the Source, whether they are aware of it or not. Like Thoth said:  (I am paraphrasing) “look at them all and see children in different stages of their growth, as you were once a child yourself”.

In reality there’s nothing to judge or be afraid of, because even the naughtiest of the children, is brought by life itself back to the path of maturity, and knowing now that the more we advance through schools and grades, there’s still infinity and an eternal inner and outer expansion ahead of us. This realization should keep us humble and continue our walking aware that there’s no true end on this path of evolution and no matter what grade we’ve passed and how learned we’ve become, on the immediate higher plane of experience all the knowledge we have has to be abandoned for being obsolete for that place, so one of the best things we can do is to unlearn everything, especially mainstream ideas or we can not empty our vessel to receive better information on the next level since you can’t build a good, strong house on the foundation of the old straw hut.

There are very few that are genuine and that are sharing their true spiritual effulgence with the world, but they are mostly unknown, because the true knowledge and spiritual power can’t be a thing recognized by masses of people. Meeting one of them is a confirmation of the Eternal Grace being present in our lives. So I am very grateful for those who I met throughout my life and helped me in any form or manner.