I am

Today I feel perfect. There’s no special reason, no activity or food that might have stimulated the release of endorphins,… Not even feeling happy. I just feel complete, at ease, totally fine with what I have and what I lack in my life, hence there’s no missing feeling, no craving neither desire. I feel contentment. Of course due to the fact that there’s no disturbance, no drama we can say, that it’s kind of understandable. So the next target is to feel such feeling even during or after a less pleasant experience, during some emotional up or down.

I write this to remind myself who I truly am, devoid of needs and desires, devoid of interpretation. Life is not good neither bad, it just IS. As such we are neither good neither bad, neither happy nor unhappy. We just are!

Whatever life circumstance we’re in, we are exactly where we are supposed to be, so no need to be sad neither happy about it. What we definitely know for sure is that life is continuously changing, a continuous up and down game that we are supposed to master and when during both the currents we manage to stay still, then a certain evolutionary portal opens up and we find ourselves in a totally new dimension, a totally different paradigm.

I am single yet I don’t miss having someone, it’s not that I wouldn’t enjoy having a partner yet I no longer crave for having one, I am deeply surrendering to life and whatever experiences that I am supposed to be experiencing.

There’s definitely a lesson to be learned out of whatever life circumstance, hence I will enjoy and try to grasp the reason of being alone at the moment. I believe that it’s about self-love, truly selfless and non-narcissistic self-love that is based on the inner contentment that is the very foundation of the existence.

For me it’s a big breakthrough since my whole life I have been always the “doing” type of a person, so letting go of everything and learning to just be, accepting whatever circumstances was very hard. I have noticed that others are naturally less active more prone to inner peace and stillness, so I don’t know what their lesson is. But for my own experience, this is just the next step, the thing that I have to work for. As I realized that whenever we assume that we have reached a certain point of evolution from which we can never go back, the test arrive, exactly like in the schooling system where our knowledge assimilation is tested through exams.

I know from the experience that in the midst of the turmoil it’s very hard to remember that point of inner contentment, that inner peace that no one can take us out of. Therefore I write myself this article to be read in times of distress.

You are perfect, you are complete, you are at ease. Everything that happens is correct. Take full responsibility for whatever is happening and be happy that you are experiencing it. Acceptance and surrender are the requirements for the inner transformation of your perception. Perception(limited) is the very cancer of the spirit, we are continuously interpreting life events, people and whatever else through very limited tools like the 5 senses and previous experiences. It is time to accept everything. It is time to breathe slowly and remain calm, it is time to notice whatever happens from an external perspective as you would watch a movie. It is time to relax and be, instead of acting or reacting. Don’t say things, since when you say things during being angry, sad or under any other emotional effect you might tend to exaggerate and see the situation more acute than it really is. Know for a fact that whatever you experience it is mandatory for you to experience, it is part of the purging of the unnecessary out of your life. Rest right there experiencing fully whatever feelings you have at the moment, without associating your existence with those feelings. SMILE.

Life is testing your qualities in order to see if you resolved the issues that were bringing these situations to existence. Your calm, your patience, your forgiveness, your capacity to let go and to surrender to the life flow are deeply tested. Of course things might look like you are right and you are even right to take punitive actions against those who did “wrong” to you. This is one of the biggest tests that majority fail: the test of righteousness. In reality there’s nothing that entitles us to do harm in any way possible to another being, no matter what they did to us.

You’re in deep trouble? Don’t drag others with you even if you believe that they might deserve it. Let Life take care of everything, do not interfere. This is one of the first thing to be learned, not to interfere, to mind only our life and our choices.

Establishing proper boundaries is not considered wrong, because if we allow people to cross them, then we deserve the place on the evolutionary path that we are occupying. Don’t waste unnecessary time with people that you are not resonating with, just because you are too diplomatic or too educated to refuse them. Know what you want and what’s beneficial for you to do, or to say and act accordingly. If you dream about spirituality don’t separate life in different segments: in the morning when I wake up and meditate I am spiritual then I go to work and take a break from being spiritual.
Spirituality is everything, there’s no separation, let meditation permeate all of your being, may you become meditation no matter what are you doing. Stay aware the whole time and realize old patterns trying to drag you back to the “old” self. Realize that you are exposed over and over to similar situations so that you finally can realize that the same response will invariably bring back the same results that we are not happy with. Change the paradigm your mind is in, start seeing from different perspectives. Innovate with your behavior, try to implement the “spiritual” into the “mundane” and you will realize that there was never this separation, there is no separation between anything. We are all One and the same, we are made of same constituent elements, same energy of life is animating us, the differences are separation. We are Union(Yoga).


Author: The Writer

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