I am

Today I feel perfect. There’s no special reason, no activity or food that might have stimulated the release of endorphins,… Not even feeling happy. I just feel complete, at ease, totally fine with what I have and what I lack in my life, hence there’s no missing feeling, no craving neither desire. I feel contentment. Of course due to the fact that there’s no disturbance, no drama we can say, that it’s kind of understandable. So the next target is to feel such feeling even during or after a less pleasant experience, during some emotional up or down.

I write this to remind myself who I truly am, devoid of needs and desires, devoid of interpretation. Life is not good neither bad, it just IS. As such we are neither good neither bad, neither happy nor unhappy. We just are!

Whatever life circumstance we’re in, we are exactly where we are supposed to be, so no need to be sad neither happy about it. What we definitely know for sure is that life is continuously changing, a continuous up and down game that we are supposed to master and when during both the currents we manage to stay still, then a certain evolutionary portal opens up and we find ourselves in a totally new dimension, a totally different paradigm.

I am single yet I don’t miss having someone, it’s not that I wouldn’t enjoy having a partner yet I no longer crave for having one, I am deeply surrendering to life and whatever experiences that I am supposed to be experiencing.

There’s definitely a lesson to be learned out of whatever life circumstance, hence I will enjoy and try to grasp the reason of being alone at the moment. I believe that it’s about self-love, truly selfless and non-narcissistic self-love that is based on the inner contentment that is the very foundation of the existence.

For me it’s a big breakthrough since my whole life I have been always the “doing” type of a person, so letting go of everything and learning to just be, accepting whatever circumstances was very hard. I have noticed that others are naturally less active more prone to inner peace and stillness, so I don’t know what their lesson is. But for my own experience, this is just the next step, the thing that I have to work for. As I realized that whenever we assume that we have reached a certain point of evolution from which we can never go back, the test arrive, exactly like in the schooling system where our knowledge assimilation is tested through exams.

I know from the experience that in the midst of the turmoil it’s very hard to remember that point of inner contentment, that inner peace that no one can take us out of. Therefore I write myself this article to be read in times of distress.

You are perfect, you are complete, you are at ease. Everything that happens is correct. Take full responsibility for whatever is happening and be happy that you are experiencing it. Acceptance and surrender are the requirements for the inner transformation of your perception. Perception(limited) is the very cancer of the spirit, we are continuously interpreting life events, people and whatever else through very limited tools like the 5 senses and previous experiences. It is time to accept everything. It is time to breathe slowly and remain calm, it is time to notice whatever happens from an external perspective as you would watch a movie. It is time to relax and be, instead of acting or reacting. Don’t say things, since when you say things during being angry, sad or under any other emotional effect you might tend to exaggerate and see the situation more acute than it really is. Know for a fact that whatever you experience it is mandatory for you to experience, it is part of the purging of the unnecessary out of your life. Rest right there experiencing fully whatever feelings you have at the moment, without associating your existence with those feelings. SMILE.

Life is testing your qualities in order to see if you resolved the issues that were bringing these situations to existence. Your calm, your patience, your forgiveness, your capacity to let go and to surrender to the life flow are deeply tested. Of course things might look like you are right and you are even right to take punitive actions against those who did “wrong” to you. This is one of the biggest tests that majority fail: the test of righteousness. In reality there’s nothing that entitles us to do harm in any way possible to another being, no matter what they did to us.

You’re in deep trouble? Don’t drag others with you even if you believe that they might deserve it. Let Life take care of everything, do not interfere. This is one of the first thing to be learned, not to interfere, to mind only our life and our choices.

Establishing proper boundaries is not considered wrong, because if we allow people to cross them, then we deserve the place on the evolutionary path that we are occupying. Don’t waste unnecessary time with people that you are not resonating with, just because you are too diplomatic or too educated to refuse them. Know what you want and what’s beneficial for you to do, or to say and act accordingly. If you dream about spirituality don’t separate life in different segments: in the morning when I wake up and meditate I am spiritual then I go to work and take a break from being spiritual.
Spirituality is everything, there’s no separation, let meditation permeate all of your being, may you become meditation no matter what are you doing. Stay aware the whole time and realize old patterns trying to drag you back to the “old” self. Realize that you are exposed over and over to similar situations so that you finally can realize that the same response will invariably bring back the same results that we are not happy with. Change the paradigm your mind is in, start seeing from different perspectives. Innovate with your behavior, try to implement the “spiritual” into the “mundane” and you will realize that there was never this separation, there is no separation between anything. We are all One and the same, we are made of same constituent elements, same energy of life is animating us, the differences are separation. We are Union(Yoga).


Are we spiritual seekers?

There are 3 types of paths chosen by souls looking for spirituality nowadays:

The first group, the power hungry (into the occult), are young souls (inexperienced – therefore they try everything) that want power and control over life and people and are mesmerized by the promise to rule over the matter. People hunger for power are weak and victimized beings that hope to be finally in control, after being controlled in the past. 

The second group, the “flower power”, are full of hope for a better world where pink clouds and unicorns are dancing with angels, aliens and other “benevolent” entities,  in other words hoping of a utopia where there’s nothing but “good” and love and so on and the negative side is minimized and sweeped under the rug. What they’re really ignorant is that in a world of polarities they can never have white without the black, happiness without unhappiness, love without hate and having (something/someone) without loosing that eventually. Their choice of spirituality comes also from a deep sense of feeling victims of life and of other beings. The majority of the mainstream religions are included in this group because they’re all emphasizing the need to reach out to the positive (paradise) without acknowledging the existence of both within and without ourselves. 

The third group, are old souls mainly which probably have tried the above mentioned trends and fell into it for lives and lives, and eventually got fed up with their failures and decided to try the real thing this life. They are all victimised to a certain degree, yet here, they realize that they are the creators of own life events and circumstances hence the need to take full responsibility for whatever happens without blaming or accusing others in the process. But they can always fall into the trap of going to one of the previously mentioned groups as being a familiar place to go and due to the hardships met. This group towards the end of their journey know that it’s futile to have any hope, and they have no desire towards any outcome whatsoever anymore,they are just living life consciously and working hard without any expectation towards achieving the fruits of their work, equally accepting whatever outcome and knowing that the true life lessons might come from unexpected and/or unwanted outcomes. 

The PH are ready to do whatever to see their hunger for power satiated, therefore most of the times they fall for worshipping entities, performing all kinds of rituals and sacrifices to appease those entities. What they’re not aware of, is the fact that the price for the short-lived moment of power(even if it might last for a lifetime) is extremely high and eventually they will end up being consumed by that very power that were harnessing and manipulating. Some of them feel the danger and try to escape from their cults or habits yet they will have to be very courageous and strong to be able to do that. Even when they get out of the trap, they might fall into another one the trap of overpositivity which transfers them to the “Flower power” group. 

Another trick of the illusion is that they might feel too guilty for everything that they’ve done and they prefer to sink further instead of exiting the trap they’re in. But once the person realizes the mistakes made and takes action towards changing the path, if they’re truly sincere in their quest, the Grace will support them. The support never comes in the way we might project or expect it to come, that’s why full trust in one’s Higher Self and the Highest Power has to be there. 

Both groups, the flower power and the power hungry have chosen their paths because of ignorance, because of not having a clue about what they want to get, why and what are the repercussions for their ignorance. But at any point the true path can be found, and that’s within, it’s the path of no procrastination, no wasting their time, the path of work with oneself and their distortions that veil then and obstruct their clarity. 

The third group is a very small group of souls, mostly migrating from previous groups and risking to go back to one of those groups at any point. Therefore awareness has to be there all the time and decision to never go back no matter what is another key element. Their job is a very tedious one, and they are supposed to face all their inner demons that are veiling their true nature. They are supposed to face their fears, their desires, their anger, their jealousy, their guilt, their wish to control, their victimization and so many other viruses and programs that keep them bound to the self created illusion. 

This is not the path to better, not the path to love or to “heights”. It’s just the path within, the path towards nothingness, which is the very fabric of everything. The real information is almost impossible to conceptualize, to verbalize and try to explain, it is beyond our logical capabilities, it’s an unbelievable, non-linear journey in which we jump back and forth, we are going to hell and back with such speed that majority feel like quitting and their strength and willpower is big time tested. 

Since the true path is beyond duality, we know that both currents are to be worked with and transformed and neutrality should be the only goal for the soul wanting to find out all the answers to their questions. Whatever you might project and expect, toss it away since we are just unable to grasp what true evolution might look like. Forget about hope, any hope is throwing you back into one of the first two groups. Let Life surprise you, work hard with yourself and your distortions, realize that you are not the body, but Consciousness experiencing the body and the game we’re in. No need to worship anything or anyone like the first 2 groups are doing, true worship is being fully aware of own existence, actions and words and the outcomes of them in our existences and making the decisions that are necessary and suitable for our each individual situation. 

Hope, the biggest trap! 

I am sure that the majority of you reading this article are going to scratch your heads in disbelief. So I will try to explain my perspective. 

When we hope that something is going to happen in a certain way or the outcome of our actions is going to be the one that we want, we pave the way to diving deeper into the illusion and into misery. 

Before taking birth into this life we’ve seen the things that we are supposed to experience and we agreed with them, believing that it will be like a walk in the park. Unfortunately the problem is that when the soul is not being bound to any physical vehicle (body) we can’t realize how much the pain would be felt in the body, how overwhelmed we might become by emotional pain and traumas, and we’re also unaware of how addictive is everything in this experience. Besides being out of the body means a certain higher level of freedom and a clearer vision of the world and the game that we are about to enter. Most of us fail over and over, because of hope doubled by ignorance. We are just unable to accept things the way they are. We are unable to realize that whatever happens is correct for us and there’s a big realization behind any trauma and “bad” or unpleasant event. I know this myself, yet it’s so hard to break free out of this extremely well-built game we’re living in. 

Hope is the very desire to control, to manipulate life events towards a desired outcome. But what if being in this game with almost no awareness about who we truly are, and what is the purpose of us being here is impossible to grasp? What if surrendering to life and its flow is all we can do? It’s scary, because people are afraid, afraid of the unknown, afraid of events that will shake their lives. But if you are ready to go whatever way life comes, with a smile on your face, then you are definitely on the right track.

Hope is emphasized over and over again by mass-media, and the society in general. It is the warden of our invisible walls jail that we’re inhabiting. Hope is our very strong will and imposition onto ourselves. “I hope that I will get that job”, “I hope that my wife will love me forever “… The silly thing is that we are attached to things and people and by hoping, praying for something to happen we are influencing the outcome of life how it was planned before incarnating this time and we are missing the point hundreds and thousands of lives. 

“I hope that I will get that nice job” . Maybe it’s a dead-end for you, maybe it’s some warm unnecessary stop from the evolution. Maybe by concentrating our creative energy towards achieving that goal we’re missing something better. 

“I hope that my wife and I will be forever together”. 

We are just trying to stop the time and it’s just a laughable idea. What if you don’t project any willpower, you are happy with the wife you are having, yet you are not dependent and you accept that nothing lasts forever and you are surrendering to life and the events that you chose to experience. I am not advocating lacking of vision or promiscuity,.. The things that I am talking about are subtle, they’re happening under the gross aspect of life, so we can enjoy life and its beauty, but recommended not to attach to anything due to the continuously changing characteristic of life.

 We are powerful(without knowing it) and this is the downfall in the illusion, because we are trying to manipulate the game to achieve some minor comfort and we forget that our plan was to experience and expand our limited perspective about life. By praying or hoping towards achieving something, we are lost, we wasted another life and it will happen so until we relax and accept the ride (life) as it comes, without hopes or desire to manipulate events or the outcomes. 

Now there’s this coronavirus fear all over. This makes us automatically infected by hope. We hope that we are not going to catch the virus, or if we catch it we hope that we won’t die,.. The illusion is getting stronger and stronger in its grip by hope. Accept the “reality” as it is, but employ your maximum awareness and flow in life with awareness. If so, you will always know what to do in a certain situation, you will know if and what to do, if and what to say. Just accept this ever-changing nature of life and your existential drama will fail to shake you.

 Hope carries with it desire for a better life, better future, preservation of what we have.. Again attachment. By not being able to fully accept what we’re going through and what we are experiencing at the moment, we are blocking the possibility towards extracting the right essence, the right knowledge out of the situation so we are doomed to repeat the process in this life or the next until the lesson is learned and the true knowledge is extracted and imprinted into our beings. 

Give up hope and build inside yourself acceptance towards whatever life brings and once in many thousands of lives we will start realizing our being and the purpose of our existence in here. 

Perceiving life as it is

We, people are so ignorant about everything. We are perceiving everything through a very tiny opening through which we peek into the so called reality, yet we are literally unable to grasp the existence. So we are prone to misinterpret continuously the reality we’re living in by projecting old beliefs and understanding from past experiences into the present, so that the present is not at all “present” but some new experience with “past” flavors. Hence, the evolution is getting more and more limited as time goes by, that being the very reason why we perish.

Let’s take a look at our problems and things that we are not so happy about. It seems like we are in deep trouble, yet if we take a moment to contemplate about it, we might be surprised to find out that more than half of the planet’s population have worse experiences, and yet they might take it easier. 

It is all about the inner perception about the world. So 2 people experiencing same experience will always feel it and interpret it in different ways. 

I found something on the internet that said: “I was sad that I didn’t have shoes until I met a person without legs.” So it’s all about the way we perceive life and mostly we perceive life not only through past distortions and experiences but through comparison with others. Eventually we are living a terrible experience just because of our expectations and hopes. We are just unable to accept whatever comes our way with calm and taking everything as a new opportunity of inner growth and experience. 

We are doomed, just because we are dreaming about pleasure and happiness. Because we are slaves to the senses, we are continuously looking for ways to entertain and “enjoy”, yet true enjoyment is in each moment of “Now”, each moment carries embedded the inner contentment, or the happiness that we are foolishly looking for outside. We are already there. Even in the moment of distress, if we manage to look at the things far from above, like watching a movie, we will realize that there’s nothing so tragic, nothing so traumatic. It’s just life, and the more there’s struggle, the more we are pushed by life towards understanding what life is about. 

True spirituality is in the conscious experience of each moment of NOW, perceiving the most traumatic and the most pleasurable alike, as pure neutrality. Know that life is a continuous roller-coaster, a perpetual up and down cycle which we can’t stop or control. The only thing that we can change is ourselves and our wrong perception about life, a perception from the victimized and /or entitlement point of view. 

Feel life deep inside yourself because there’s nothing outside of us which is not already existing inside. Flow with life, embrace challenges! Let your existence become a flow of your Being and the veils hiding Yourself from yourself will slowly vanish. 

The middle point, where there is stillness

How many times have I been there?! Knowing what I have to do or say, I was happy to get a glimpse of the Immortal Knowledge through my own realizations, yet the ego and mind eventually tricked me, once again, into forgetfulness. I have no doubt that everything is known in my core, yet the ego occults the Truth, along with the limited mind’s giving of reasons and logical explanations to this and that and the avoidance of the right “path”. Oh, what a waste of time! since the righteousness is the very root of ignorance and there are no “better tools” to use to help one lose one’s soul than ignorance and righteousness. Each are born of the other.

Since everything is but illusion, is there anything to be righteous about? Since everything is but creation of the mind (like a dream), is there anything to run for, to crave? Are we able to take an object back from our dreams into the so-called “reality”? Then how can we fall prey to greed? Everything is but a dream. Is there any benefit in cheating people or in mistreating them even for the most “righteous”of reasons?


Even so, it’s extremely difficult to apply what we read and understand into our lives, since it goes against everything that we have ever known.

Many times, we think that we’ve changed, that we’ve improved… It’s just another trick of the ego. Real change is sometimes mind-blowing; it’s a giant leap out of the plain, tridimensional world that we “see”, and into the quantum world. Yet first the change may so gradual and looking like we are not evolving at all, but by looking back at how we used to be, we realize that we are no longer the same, that we are aware, we KNOW, we are not acting upon the reactions, upon the old programs the way we used to. Slowly slowly we are realizing who we are and what is the point of all of this.

Real change comes by Grace, along with huge amounts of courage to go against everything that we’ve stood by our entire lives (which is no longer suitable). Actually, lives upon lifetimes we have wasted in perpetually “missing the point”. But now, it is time to gather all the pain and become immersed in it fully with the joy of knowing that I am doing the right thing – what I had avoided for eons. And that pain, devoid of explanation, emotion and any righteousness or guilt, creates the shift that I couldn’t possibly have dreamt of before. The same pain that had bound me before, if experienced with full awareness and attention, will open my eyes ever more and oh! when I “open” my eyes I realize that everything is worthless. Everything that is dual is just a smart way to bind me to even more affectations of illusion. Remove yourself from the “dream”! Stop creating a meaning for the illusion, or the illusion will devour you as it has done, over and over again, in our past existences. I do everything dispassionately, regardless of the results because passion is no longer for the “I”. When there is no “I”or “mine” or “me” there is Being. And when I do, I do as the Being – Awareness. In removing expectations and hopes, the sorrow will be one with joy, neither Ying nor Yang, but an incorporation of them all.

I cannot entertain thoughts or emotions, because I am beyond those, like the butterfly that is above the caterpillar. But, when I entertain them, although I am already the butterfly, I see myself (and am seen by others) as a maggot. By giving into instincts and entertaining lower thoughts, the Divinity is blocked since That (the Absolute) is the untouched – pure Blissful Being – Existence.

I entertain only the ideas that benefit me the most. I remember that there’s no good or bad choice, only my choice, that I can change when I dislike the fruits of such choice.

Whatever is already lost and gone, I don’t waste my tears on since that loss had a reason. The reason was to wake me up. In learning the lesson, new opportunities emerge since once we stop being the victims of illusion, whilst still in it, it can only serve us.

Be aware of both polarities since they are both as wrong as they can be. The violin teacher said to the child, “You see, my dear, the secret lies in the middle, since if you tighten the strings too much, they are going to snap, or if they are left too loose, the sound may be improper or missing.” So the teaching can only happen on the middle path where there is no exaggeration or extreme. Like a pendulum which is still, immovable in the 0 point.

May the Grace that gave me these realizations be the driving force of our further evolution, and may it pull us out of self-created misery.

It’s something that I have been searching for my whole life, but only now am I ready to receive it, so here it is, self-manifested, exactly in the right moment.

Aren’t we all One?

The awakened being finds a teaching under each stone, under the most trivial of life experiences. But for the awakened being the old, logical mind is not making the decisions anymore, since it proved its obsolescence. Logical mind it’s still useful for navigating silently in this illusion since it’s made of the same fabric, yet for those intending to raise above the illusion, the tool must be out of the illusion. That tool gets perfected through a lot of trial and error, a lot of falling and rising again, dusting off the clothes and starting all over again.

For such being, there’s no winning or failing, since everything is just experience. Everything is pushing that being to recognize the temporary quality of all the manifested, so automatically that being is heading towards the Eternal, the recognition of one’s own Essence and the fact that this essence is all pervading, all knowing, and it’s inseparable from any bit and piece of the manifested.

Every small thing has a meaning and no meaning whatsoever. Everything is just a huge game of the Eternal playing with Self, separating Itself in tiny bits and pieces of matter, removing the omniscience from Self so that the show is: the struggle towards the removal of the ignorance of that separated, now-materialized (crystallized) Self, and the fight in the process with other pieces and bits of the same Existence that we all are. So, we are continuously facing ourselves in the struggle of getting rid of ourselves. Sounds silly, and it is silly because we can’t escape from ourselves.

The secret is the incorporation, not in the separation. We are all One. We can all feel vibration inside such a blunt and resounding Truth, yet it is too abstract for us, it removes our “uniqueness”, our “specialness”, and we don’t like that. The mind immediately removes whatever is too abstract, afraid we are that we might free ourselves from its influence. That’s the very Ego, and this is why it’s so hard to overcome, because getting rid of it means separation from any ambition or desire that we might have; we let the other Self have it, knowing that whatever is ours, can’t be lost, and that that other Self is still us.

Embrace the enemies and struggles; embrace the pains because they are the ultimate friends of Your True Self. Happiness is the blue pill from the Matrix; you may feel like you’re taking it, yet it slips through the fingers all the time until thousands of lives go wasted like that, and we feel deep inside the futility of going on the same old paths which eventually bring us back to the same old result: misery.

Let go of the idea of happiness since it’s just a trick; it’s like running in the desert for a mirage. The true happiness is within, and it’s there when we experience the “good” and the “bad” alike. Stop crying for what you don’t have and be thankful for what you have. We, the souls experiencing the human experience are the most ungrateful and forgetful beings. We are programed to want something and when that something is acquired, a new desire is born, so we can never experience happiness from the very design of this reality. If so, there wouldn’t be any billionaire and neither  would there be poor, since they would all stop at some moment enjoying their happiness which is always there, no matter how much they have or what are their titles.

Drop the ambition and in an instant you’ll experience “happiness”. True happiness is true existence, enjoying the sweet-scented and the stink alike, not bothered by any of them and not craving for anything either. It’s the moment when the whole Universe and its secrets get unlocked, and they reveal themselves to that Being, because They are that Being.

This process is the process in which we discover, not who, but What we truly are, since we are Everything and Nothing at the same time.

The “Out of the box” realm

We are scared when one exposes the way life functions and doesn’t promise anything, knowing the unpredictability of life, not knowing that maybe that’s our best chance to be on the path of truth and surrender to what life has for us.

We are mostly afraid to step out of the box, to make decisions that may throw us into life, we are lacking the courage to make steps that might take us onto the path of discovering ourselves and the truth about this “reality”. We are very “conservative”. We like to preserve old beliefs which look safer, which are keeping our understanding (the misconception?) of the world together. Because we know that if we choose to step out of the box, there’s a lot of responsibility, a lot of work with one self and not so many people nowadays are even ready to accept that things might be this way.

It’s so easy to go to the old self, the old patterns of behavior.. So easy because it’s something we know, something familiar. It’s the very Stockholm syndrome manifested in our lives, captive in the hands of self-imposed fear and the ego. It’s a decision to fall for laziness and “comfort” since the other choice implies disillusionment; waking up realizing that we know nothing; implies accepting things that we prefer to pretend that are inexistent. That doesn’t mean that stepping outside is only bad, or there’s no comfort. On the contrary, it may become smoother and better with time, because after the negative is failing to deviate us from the path of self-discovery, the positive current is taking over, one of the last trick of the illusion to keep us captive. 

There’s always a risk on this path, the risk of returning to the old self. I still risk going back sometimes to that “safe zone” which is the forgetfulness of the soul. It is a constant struggle, a battle of our Higher Self and the old self, a battle in which the prize is either remembrance of who and what we are, or the sweet forgetfulness. It is exactly like in the first movie of Matrix when the traitor from Neo’s crew chose to betray his team and live in a fantasy world knowing that everything was experiencing was just fake, yet it was so appealing to him and the reality was so cruel so full of responsibility and work. Same with us, we are constantly exposed to the right information yet we are very afraid, we want to stay longer in the sweet and warm pool of oblivion, because we know that outside might be chilling, might be work that we have to do, might be that our entire system of values will be turned upside down and I get it, it’s a very hard perspective to face for those who are not ready.

I have been there. I delayed 20 years my “stepping out of the box” because I wanted to explore the illusion, to dive deep into it, and almost got consumed by it. Probably it wasn’t the time at that point so I don’t go back trying to blame myself that I should have started earlier, how I may be tempted to do. 

I know your doubts and your fears because you are me. I had them. I still have some, yet much less than previously. I am still caught off-guard, but I blocked myself outside of the box, knowing that there was a risk of going back in moments of weakness. So I drew a line under which I am unable to go anymore, I can’t go under a certain level and I am very grateful for the Grace that is with me in form of dear friends and Beings in my life,and in the form of books and information that I come across, that enforces and reinforces the already existing decision.

People and things are coming and going with huge speed in our lives, once “out of the box”, we should realize the futility of clinging or hoping, controlling or pushing a certain agenda onto anyone… We have to respect their choices and wish them all the best.

Be the “out of the box” being and you will be one of the very few who are doing it. By doing this courageous move, you will inspire others, without preaching without teaching, just by automatically spreading this beautiful scent of freedom through your very existence.