I am

Today I feel perfect. There’s no special reason, no activity or food that might have stimulated the release of endorphins,… Not even feeling happy. I just feel complete, at ease, totally fine with what I have and what I lack in my life, hence there’s no missing feeling, no craving neither desire. I feel contentment. Of course due to the fact that there’s no disturbance, no drama we can say, that it’s kind of understandable. So the next target is to feel such feeling even during or after a less pleasant experience, during some emotional up or down.

I write this to remind myself who I truly am, devoid of needs and desires, devoid of interpretation. Life is not good neither bad, it just IS. As such we are neither good neither bad, neither happy nor unhappy. We just are!

Whatever life circumstance we’re in, we are exactly where we are supposed to be, so no need to be sad neither happy about it. What we definitely know for sure is that life is continuously changing, a continuous up and down game that we are supposed to master and when during both the currents we manage to stay still, then a certain evolutionary portal opens up and we find ourselves in a totally new dimension, a totally different paradigm.

I am single yet I don’t miss having someone, it’s not that I wouldn’t enjoy having a partner yet I no longer crave for having one, I am deeply surrendering to life and whatever experiences that I am supposed to be experiencing.

There’s definitely a lesson to be learned out of whatever life circumstance, hence I will enjoy and try to grasp the reason of being alone at the moment. I believe that it’s about self-love, truly selfless and non-narcissistic self-love that is based on the inner contentment that is the very foundation of the existence.

For me it’s a big breakthrough since my whole life I have been always the “doing” type of a person, so letting go of everything and learning to just be, accepting whatever circumstances was very hard. I have noticed that others are naturally less active more prone to inner peace and stillness, so I don’t know what their lesson is. But for my own experience, this is just the next step, the thing that I have to work for. As I realized that whenever we assume that we have reached a certain point of evolution from which we can never go back, the test arrive, exactly like in the schooling system where our knowledge assimilation is tested through exams.

I know from the experience that in the midst of the turmoil it’s very hard to remember that point of inner contentment, that inner peace that no one can take us out of. Therefore I write myself this article to be read in times of distress.

You are perfect, you are complete, you are at ease. Everything that happens is correct. Take full responsibility for whatever is happening and be happy that you are experiencing it. Acceptance and surrender are the requirements for the inner transformation of your perception. Perception(limited) is the very cancer of the spirit, we are continuously interpreting life events, people and whatever else through very limited tools like the 5 senses and previous experiences. It is time to accept everything. It is time to breathe slowly and remain calm, it is time to notice whatever happens from an external perspective as you would watch a movie. It is time to relax and be, instead of acting or reacting. Don’t say things, since when you say things during being angry, sad or under any other emotional effect you might tend to exaggerate and see the situation more acute than it really is. Know for a fact that whatever you experience it is mandatory for you to experience, it is part of the purging of the unnecessary out of your life. Rest right there experiencing fully whatever feelings you have at the moment, without associating your existence with those feelings. SMILE.

Life is testing your qualities in order to see if you resolved the issues that were bringing these situations to existence. Your calm, your patience, your forgiveness, your capacity to let go and to surrender to the life flow are deeply tested. Of course things might look like you are right and you are even right to take punitive actions against those who did “wrong” to you. This is one of the biggest tests that majority fail: the test of righteousness. In reality there’s nothing that entitles us to do harm in any way possible to another being, no matter what they did to us.

You’re in deep trouble? Don’t drag others with you even if you believe that they might deserve it. Let Life take care of everything, do not interfere. This is one of the first thing to be learned, not to interfere, to mind only our life and our choices.

Establishing proper boundaries is not considered wrong, because if we allow people to cross them, then we deserve the place on the evolutionary path that we are occupying. Don’t waste unnecessary time with people that you are not resonating with, just because you are too diplomatic or too educated to refuse them. Know what you want and what’s beneficial for you to do, or to say and act accordingly. If you dream about spirituality don’t separate life in different segments: in the morning when I wake up and meditate I am spiritual then I go to work and take a break from being spiritual.
Spirituality is everything, there’s no separation, let meditation permeate all of your being, may you become meditation no matter what are you doing. Stay aware the whole time and realize old patterns trying to drag you back to the “old” self. Realize that you are exposed over and over to similar situations so that you finally can realize that the same response will invariably bring back the same results that we are not happy with. Change the paradigm your mind is in, start seeing from different perspectives. Innovate with your behavior, try to implement the “spiritual” into the “mundane” and you will realize that there was never this separation, there is no separation between anything. We are all One and the same, we are made of same constituent elements, same energy of life is animating us, the differences are separation. We are Union(Yoga).


Are we spiritual seekers?

There are 3 types of paths chosen by souls looking for spirituality nowadays:

The first group, the power hungry (into the occult), are young souls (inexperienced – therefore they try everything) that want power and control over life and people and are mesmerized by the promise to rule over the matter. People hunger for power are weak and victimized beings that hope to be finally in control, after being controlled in the past. 

The second group, the “flower power”, are full of hope for a better world where pink clouds and unicorns are dancing with angels, aliens and other “benevolent” entities,  in other words hoping of a utopia where there’s nothing but “good” and love and so on and the negative side is minimized and sweeped under the rug. What they’re really ignorant is that in a world of polarities they can never have white without the black, happiness without unhappiness, love without hate and having (something/someone) without loosing that eventually. Their choice of spirituality comes also from a deep sense of feeling victims of life and of other beings. The majority of the mainstream religions are included in this group because they’re all emphasizing the need to reach out to the positive (paradise) without acknowledging the existence of both within and without ourselves. 

The third group, are old souls mainly which probably have tried the above mentioned trends and fell into it for lives and lives, and eventually got fed up with their failures and decided to try the real thing this life. They are all victimised to a certain degree, yet here, they realize that they are the creators of own life events and circumstances hence the need to take full responsibility for whatever happens without blaming or accusing others in the process. But they can always fall into the trap of going to one of the previously mentioned groups as being a familiar place to go and due to the hardships met. This group towards the end of their journey know that it’s futile to have any hope, and they have no desire towards any outcome whatsoever anymore,they are just living life consciously and working hard without any expectation towards achieving the fruits of their work, equally accepting whatever outcome and knowing that the true life lessons might come from unexpected and/or unwanted outcomes. 

The PH are ready to do whatever to see their hunger for power satiated, therefore most of the times they fall for worshipping entities, performing all kinds of rituals and sacrifices to appease those entities. What they’re not aware of, is the fact that the price for the short-lived moment of power(even if it might last for a lifetime) is extremely high and eventually they will end up being consumed by that very power that were harnessing and manipulating. Some of them feel the danger and try to escape from their cults or habits yet they will have to be very courageous and strong to be able to do that. Even when they get out of the trap, they might fall into another one the trap of overpositivity which transfers them to the “Flower power” group. 

Another trick of the illusion is that they might feel too guilty for everything that they’ve done and they prefer to sink further instead of exiting the trap they’re in. But once the person realizes the mistakes made and takes action towards changing the path, if they’re truly sincere in their quest, the Grace will support them. The support never comes in the way we might project or expect it to come, that’s why full trust in one’s Higher Self and the Highest Power has to be there. 

Both groups, the flower power and the power hungry have chosen their paths because of ignorance, because of not having a clue about what they want to get, why and what are the repercussions for their ignorance. But at any point the true path can be found, and that’s within, it’s the path of no procrastination, no wasting their time, the path of work with oneself and their distortions that veil then and obstruct their clarity. 

The third group is a very small group of souls, mostly migrating from previous groups and risking to go back to one of those groups at any point. Therefore awareness has to be there all the time and decision to never go back no matter what is another key element. Their job is a very tedious one, and they are supposed to face all their inner demons that are veiling their true nature. They are supposed to face their fears, their desires, their anger, their jealousy, their guilt, their wish to control, their victimization and so many other viruses and programs that keep them bound to the self created illusion. 

This is not the path to better, not the path to love or to “heights”. It’s just the path within, the path towards nothingness, which is the very fabric of everything. The real information is almost impossible to conceptualize, to verbalize and try to explain, it is beyond our logical capabilities, it’s an unbelievable, non-linear journey in which we jump back and forth, we are going to hell and back with such speed that majority feel like quitting and their strength and willpower is big time tested. 

Since the true path is beyond duality, we know that both currents are to be worked with and transformed and neutrality should be the only goal for the soul wanting to find out all the answers to their questions. Whatever you might project and expect, toss it away since we are just unable to grasp what true evolution might look like. Forget about hope, any hope is throwing you back into one of the first two groups. Let Life surprise you, work hard with yourself and your distortions, realize that you are not the body, but Consciousness experiencing the body and the game we’re in. No need to worship anything or anyone like the first 2 groups are doing, true worship is being fully aware of own existence, actions and words and the outcomes of them in our existences and making the decisions that are necessary and suitable for our each individual situation. 

When the hell breaks loose

The true evolution is continuous change. All life circumstances and events are in continuous movement. Karma is fastly paid and tests are arising more and more. When the yogi is close, the whole “hell” breaks loose..yet don’t be scared, it is only the inner negativity which comes to the surface to be worked with and eventually transcended. 

On this path towards remembering who we are there’s no longer stability, whole worlds are created, and destroyed in minutes the entire Creation is revealed in front of us. The victimized will feel like doomed. The true seeker will realize that he’s learning so fast that the whole world is moving faster for him only.

The price of evolution is continuous movement and “letting go”. 

We are like in a cosmic washing machine, continuously spinning faster and faster until we either succumb to the trials and go back to the old or we find our inner peace which eventually will override the external turmoil. 

The worst of the storms is the biggest blessing. The hecticness of life is a test of the level of inner contentment, acceptance and true surrender. 

Life seems more and more like a movie and the realization of its illusory nature is more and more revealed through the almost chaotic, intense ups and downs that push our boundaries to the very limit. In the midst of drama there’s a chance to realize that we are just too involved in the “movie” although we are the spectator, the actor, the director and the movie itself. Once this realization is taking place, the whole illusion collapses like a mask from own face and the true nature of self and the external world can be grasped. 

Although this realization is very powerful and has the chance to totally shift our perspective about things, if the time is not yet right we might continue to wonder around to exhaust whatever we came here to exhaust. But that true realization is a seed of destruction that will grow more and more. It’s the very destruction of the ignorance, the disillusionment that we’ve been searching our entire existence and although we might waste some time on things that are not part of the newer paradigm growing inside of us, eventually we will wake up to realize the futility of chasing chimeras and decide to follow what’s eternal and true. 

Cheer up dear souls, there’s not even one which eventually won’t come back to the Source, even after hundreds and hundreds of lives. 

After all it’s nothing but a combination of determination, courage, simplicity, selflessness and inner purity that lead us to the real inner-contentment, the stillness that who we truly are. We are all One, the only difference is timing which exists only in this experience. We are all perfect already, yet each individual has a different goal and that determines the length of the journey. And it’s all happening only in this dimension, in other dimensions we are That already. 

The desires are still keeping us prisoners to the duality, the very pleasure has in it embedded the pain. Hence love has in it the pain of loss, enjoyment of food, the hunger, and so on. Once we let go of everything the true eyes are slowly opening and we are allowed to see the illusion unfolding and its mechanisms are revealed. 

We might still love, eat and enjoy life, but there will be no desire and no attachment that were keeping us from Being. Now everything will happen through Beingness, everything will come from the inner contentment that will annihilate the “good” or “bad” outcomes of our actions since there will be just a pure flow of your Being, unobstructed by desire to control this flow. 

Perceiving life as it is

We, people are so ignorant about everything. We are perceiving everything through a very tiny opening through which we peek into the so called reality, yet we are literally unable to grasp the existence. So we are prone to misinterpret continuously the reality we’re living in by projecting old beliefs and understanding from past experiences into the present, so that the present is not at all “present” but some new experience with “past” flavors. Hence, the evolution is getting more and more limited as time goes by, that being the very reason why we perish.

Let’s take a look at our problems and things that we are not so happy about. It seems like we are in deep trouble, yet if we take a moment to contemplate about it, we might be surprised to find out that more than half of the planet’s population have worse experiences, and yet they might take it easier. 

It is all about the inner perception about the world. So 2 people experiencing same experience will always feel it and interpret it in different ways. 

I found something on the internet that said: “I was sad that I didn’t have shoes until I met a person without legs.” So it’s all about the way we perceive life and mostly we perceive life not only through past distortions and experiences but through comparison with others. Eventually we are living a terrible experience just because of our expectations and hopes. We are just unable to accept whatever comes our way with calm and taking everything as a new opportunity of inner growth and experience. 

We are doomed, just because we are dreaming about pleasure and happiness. Because we are slaves to the senses, we are continuously looking for ways to entertain and “enjoy”, yet true enjoyment is in each moment of “Now”, each moment carries embedded the inner contentment, or the happiness that we are foolishly looking for outside. We are already there. Even in the moment of distress, if we manage to look at the things far from above, like watching a movie, we will realize that there’s nothing so tragic, nothing so traumatic. It’s just life, and the more there’s struggle, the more we are pushed by life towards understanding what life is about. 

True spirituality is in the conscious experience of each moment of NOW, perceiving the most traumatic and the most pleasurable alike, as pure neutrality. Know that life is a continuous roller-coaster, a perpetual up and down cycle which we can’t stop or control. The only thing that we can change is ourselves and our wrong perception about life, a perception from the victimized and /or entitlement point of view. 

Feel life deep inside yourself because there’s nothing outside of us which is not already existing inside. Flow with life, embrace challenges! Let your existence become a flow of your Being and the veils hiding Yourself from yourself will slowly vanish. 

The middle point, where there is stillness

How many times have I been there?! Knowing what I have to do or say, I was happy to get a glimpse of the Immortal Knowledge through my own realizations, yet the ego and mind eventually tricked me, once again, into forgetfulness. I have no doubt that everything is known in my core, yet the ego occults the Truth, along with the limited mind’s giving of reasons and logical explanations to this and that and the avoidance of the right “path”. Oh, what a waste of time! since the righteousness is the very root of ignorance and there are no “better tools” to use to help one lose one’s soul than ignorance and righteousness. Each are born of the other.

Since everything is but illusion, is there anything to be righteous about? Since everything is but creation of the mind (like a dream), is there anything to run for, to crave? Are we able to take an object back from our dreams into the so-called “reality”? Then how can we fall prey to greed? Everything is but a dream. Is there any benefit in cheating people or in mistreating them even for the most “righteous”of reasons?


Even so, it’s extremely difficult to apply what we read and understand into our lives, since it goes against everything that we have ever known.

Many times, we think that we’ve changed, that we’ve improved… It’s just another trick of the ego. Real change is sometimes mind-blowing; it’s a giant leap out of the plain, tridimensional world that we “see”, and into the quantum world. Yet first the change may so gradual and looking like we are not evolving at all, but by looking back at how we used to be, we realize that we are no longer the same, that we are aware, we KNOW, we are not acting upon the reactions, upon the old programs the way we used to. Slowly slowly we are realizing who we are and what is the point of all of this.

Real change comes by Grace, along with huge amounts of courage to go against everything that we’ve stood by our entire lives (which is no longer suitable). Actually, lives upon lifetimes we have wasted in perpetually “missing the point”. But now, it is time to gather all the pain and become immersed in it fully with the joy of knowing that I am doing the right thing – what I had avoided for eons. And that pain, devoid of explanation, emotion and any righteousness or guilt, creates the shift that I couldn’t possibly have dreamt of before. The same pain that had bound me before, if experienced with full awareness and attention, will open my eyes ever more and oh! when I “open” my eyes I realize that everything is worthless. Everything that is dual is just a smart way to bind me to even more affectations of illusion. Remove yourself from the “dream”! Stop creating a meaning for the illusion, or the illusion will devour you as it has done, over and over again, in our past existences. I do everything dispassionately, regardless of the results because passion is no longer for the “I”. When there is no “I”or “mine” or “me” there is Being. And when I do, I do as the Being – Awareness. In removing expectations and hopes, the sorrow will be one with joy, neither Ying nor Yang, but an incorporation of them all.

I cannot entertain thoughts or emotions, because I am beyond those, like the butterfly that is above the caterpillar. But, when I entertain them, although I am already the butterfly, I see myself (and am seen by others) as a maggot. By giving into instincts and entertaining lower thoughts, the Divinity is blocked since That (the Absolute) is the untouched – pure Blissful Being – Existence.

I entertain only the ideas that benefit me the most. I remember that there’s no good or bad choice, only my choice, that I can change when I dislike the fruits of such choice.

Whatever is already lost and gone, I don’t waste my tears on since that loss had a reason. The reason was to wake me up. In learning the lesson, new opportunities emerge since once we stop being the victims of illusion, whilst still in it, it can only serve us.

Be aware of both polarities since they are both as wrong as they can be. The violin teacher said to the child, “You see, my dear, the secret lies in the middle, since if you tighten the strings too much, they are going to snap, or if they are left too loose, the sound may be improper or missing.” So the teaching can only happen on the middle path where there is no exaggeration or extreme. Like a pendulum which is still, immovable in the 0 point.

May the Grace that gave me these realizations be the driving force of our further evolution, and may it pull us out of self-created misery.

It’s something that I have been searching for my whole life, but only now am I ready to receive it, so here it is, self-manifested, exactly in the right moment.

Is world going to end? Part II

When we believe that world is going to be ending soon, we’re adding on top of the fear that we’re already fed with, since early childhood. It is not going to kill us but it’s going to be another promoter for bad decisions in our lives, because there are no worse decisions than those taken in the midst of emotional turmoil and when the fear is at its peak.

I have been there. I believed that the world was living its last days and all kind of mistakes but I learned out of it. I learned not to worry anymore about any potential incoming cataclysmic event.
For some people cataclysmic events happen every single day. They die, so for them the end of the world already happened. People die in such ways that at the end of the day you realize that it really doesn’t matter anymore how one dies. The funny thing is I was close to die while working in an office as an IT assistant. A desktop computer with two sources and 2 graphic cards, weighing close to 10 kilos fell straight with one of the corners on my head from 1,5-2 meters height. Who would have thought that there is such a hazard while having an IT job, right? It seems that my time wasn’t yet due. So be sure that when the time is right death is but inevitable. Be ready at any point to surrender to it. Live like there’s no tomorrow, from the point of view of making peace with everyone and everything and taking each extra day as a blessing, an extension in which you have to cherish the life and count your blessings.

Embrace death consciously and you will evolve, because one of the biggest fears is the fear of death.

Don’t be afraid, sit back and enjoy death if it’s your turn. Because death is the ultimate experience which helps one evolve. The way we receive this last experience already shape the future life.

Ancient civilizations were preparing for death their entire life. Egyptians for instance no matter if they were poor, middle class or royalty, all were preparing themselves for the departure since their early life.
Thracians, my ancestors, were crying when someone was born in their family and they were partying when one was dying. Because they knew the essence of this life and what’s all about.
The Spartans won battles where they were outnumbered at least 10:1 because they weren’t at all afraid of dying.

Once we realize that we’re not the body(only) and we are immortal souls, the whole self improvement will make sense. Just by being ignorant about our soul immortality and divine essence, makes us live in fear and allows us to behave in a selfish, not caring way for the other, because we are not aware that we are cells of the same body and we are One and it’s silly to hurt ourselves (by hurting others).

Although we seem to understand the last parable about being all cells of the same body, the real depth of it however, is very rarely grasped since it takes a free human being, to fully realize that inside their core.

Is World going to end? Part I

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Good question. Yes, at some point it definitely will, since nothing is forever existing in this dimension. Do we need to worry? It depends on the standpoint that were having, if we know that we already had lots of previous incarnations, ending of this world wouldn’t scare us at all, there will always be a different world/dimension to go after this end, so why worrying? If we know that we are not bodies but fully capable spiritual beings, having a lower experience in this realm, can we worry or be sad that this world is ending?

But at least in this life time, the world is not going to end! I promise you, there may be natural cataclysms or wars, whatever but earth as realm and planet is not going to end too soon.

This is just distraction, from our own goals, the most important one , to evolve out of past mistakes and distortions. To become a better version of ourselves, this is the path to “heal the world”, by becoming the change ourselves. Because if the majority of individuals would have this vision in their mind, that they want to evolve, to thrive, then everyone else will do too, because the majority dictates the normality. Unfortunately nowadays, the majority is deeply immersed in lust and perverted idea of sexuality, in desire to control the other, in selfishness, jealousy, comparison, drugs, alcohol, tobacco and what not. So what is the “normality” nowadays? Destruction! Yes so on this path we will self-sabotage our own house(planet) and the very existence of humanity. But planet will outlive us, no worries, the planet will get rid of the cancer(human kind), if the cancer doesn’t go into recession(by decision of individuals to become more aware) and to change already the way they are living, by abiding to the higher morale and to abide to the Ahimsa way(non violence). The planet is a living being, in which we are acting now as parasites, destroying the very host that keeps us alive, by being too greedy and insensitive to the surroundings and to our fellow beings coexisting on this planet.

Let’s take our body as an example. What would you think if your cells from the liver will start attacking the neurons? Sounds silly isn’t it? But even worse: what would you think if the cells from the skin would start attacking one another? Unthinkable isn’t it? Then why we, a superior(we think) specie on this planet are behaving worst than viruses and bacteria. Why we want someone else’s wife, house, car? Can a skin cell be jealous on a neuron that the last one is having a better position? Nonsense. Well now, you must have realized already how silly and selfish our behavior is. How about the superiority, we believe that we’re entitled to hurt “lower” beings just because we consider them inferior and lacking soul. We can use animals for painful jobs, scientific trials, for eating them… But for sure human kind would be united in believing that aliens are malefic if they would come, put us to work for their own benefit only, having us as slaves, or they would discover that our flesh is tasting good, and start growing us for the flesh. What a disgraceful race of aliens…Booooo. Yet we’re doing exactly that ourselves, only we fail to see it clearly because we lack awareness and we live in fear!

So this can be one of the reasons one can become vegetarian(at least), there’s plenty of vegetarian food available and from the point of view of sustainability, the world is able to withstand 10 times the actual population if the population would be correctly using resources and the growing of animals for food would stop. Plus the human being doesn’t resemble a carnivore animal, not even an omnivore one. Both are having claws, big canine teeth to tear the flesh apart and straight intestines, so that the very toxic, poisonous resulting feces from the meat would be expelled very fast so there would be no risk for the body. Human beings are having a very long and twisted intestine, specific to the plant eating animals, because by having a big twisted intestine, extra nutrients are extracted by the intestines while the food matter passes through on the way out.

I got a bit carried away and I am a bit off topic, but this was so I can answer to some people who were asking me why did I become vegan(vegetarian).

So to come back to the main questions and the leitmotiv of this blog, yes the world is going to flush us out(like the body is creating diarrhea to flush out unnecessary substances) if we continue disregarding the natural order of things. Or we are going to do that before the earth does, through stupid wars which are going to make few wealthier but which have a very destructive potential for the humankind.

But some people may misinterpret and try to protest against cruelty towards animal, becoming green activists and so on…but again a trap, which deflects the attention from our being and our response towards stimuli and giving us a new “righteous” bone to chew. Stop it, no need to fight, to protest and so on, be perfect yourself and see after, if there’s a need for you to do that. But you may realize that you can’t save anyone while your not safe yourself. Is like in the planes, they recommend to put your own oxygen mask first before you put the child mask on! So become change yourself, and world will salute you and will change miraculously around you. So you see, dear reader, it’s futile to try to change governments when the cell of the government is made of individuals, the great majority of individuals are below animal, lacking any morale, or care for someone else but their own family or their own person. So by making the decision to change yourself you create a movement that provokes changing of cells(humans) and automatically the governments will have those fresh, healthy cells replacing the old poisonous ones!

To be continued…