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The game you came to play

Not so long ago, I started realizing that dismissing information just because I wasn’t agreeing or liking the source through which was coming was ignorance.  Since then, if I am being sent a video or article, I go through it and look for bits and pieces that resonate within me, that can add value to me deciphering life’s puzzle.

Since then, when people are disagreeing with me, I don’t mind, I no longer get upset or try to change their minds, but I just know that they’re not resonating with that information that I was giving them. That doesn’t mean that they’re wrong, or they’re missing anything, as we all have our own different paths in life, and no matter how different we are, and our paths are, eventually we will all be meeting back to the very Source we sprung out of.

I remember telling my friend Pedro: “Why do you need to try to fight me for things we disagree on, when we can both take from each other’s discourses whatever resonates within and forget about the rest?” Since then, our interaction is less difficult, no friction and neither being like rams slamming our heads, against each other trying to impose our “truths” onto the other.

Sometimes we ignore valuable information just because we dislike/despise or don’t consider the messenger as an authority figure. That is how, at points, pieces and bits that Life is hiding in places that most would dismiss and ignore, might get lost unless we stop judging and dividing, but accept and unite, we will be missing those valuable puzzle pieces that will be hidden where we would never search for or be interested in.

Therefore, my realization is that instead of limiting our views and isolating ourselves from life, we should open our hearts, eyes and ears to always perceive everything without judgement, and picking those useful bits of information that will complete the picture.

It’s good to establish your energy first in the highest place you can possibly get and then explore things and places that you consider as being low or bad, with your new perspective, looking for clues and previously disregarded particles that you could have missed by believing that from the dirt nothing good can come out. Yet look at the beautiful orchids sometimes sprouting out of dirt we wouldn’t dare touch. Or look at the beauty of a lotus flower that came piercing through a considerable amount of mud and then grew its stem through the muddy water all the way up to the surface where it blooms and spreads its petals and releases its scented emanation in the light whilst thoroughly being anchored in the mud, passing through water. Isn’t it a bit like our journeys?

We start with ignorance and predigested information and slowly navigate through learning to pick what’s useful and leave aside what’s not, but with love, knowing that everything is always right, flowing through life with the least opposition from ourselves, always smiling and filtering all that unnecessary out, whilst carefully assimilating the needed. Similarly, a whale absorbs huge quantities of water and retains small fish and other nutritious elements it needs, while water is returned to the ocean it came from.

This is how entire nature and everything always talks to us. We should learn to read between the lines, learn to filter everything through our very Being and see how sometimes there are gems hidden where we least expect, and how even a homeless person may say something that, if you don’t disregard, it may give you a perspective you would have never got the chance to get from elsewhere.

Be always open, because life talks to you through everything, be always ready to absorb missing pieces of the puzzle while maintaining your gratitude for the knowledge and the means through which it reached you. Gratitude is the most essential element we always have to be full of, as by being ungrateful, whatever we have got will eventually be lost because we haven’t fully acknowledged it, and we take it for granted.

Make sure you always do your utmost to give and serve selflessly, a way of giving back to Life, bringing the needed where it lacks in other people’s lives, an eternal circle of give and take. By giving, you empty a bit of your filled bucket and make space for better things or information to come replace that recently emptied space in your “bucket”. It shouldn’t be a calculative move, “I give because I will get better”, because when we approach life from such a cunning material pragmatism, thinking we can outsmart it, we should prepare ourselves for a rough awakening.

Establish your roots in the mud, embracing it, then grow your stem through the muddy waters of ignorance, steadily freeing yourself from the unnecessary and learning to discern and discover valuable knowledge that serves you and pierce those waters of ignorance and bloom when reaching the surface and let the sun of the Existence illuminate you further into deeper levels of knowledge and realizations. This is the game you came to play!

Experience it all

One of the tricks through which souls are maneuvered into returning to this experience is the idea of unfinished businesses, things and events that we refused to have, or we were too scared to dare facing.

Attachments are the other trick, and it can be any type of attachment: to an idea, to a lover, to a family member, friend, pet, belonging or all of them together. Another attachment is the religious/ spiritual one that can be used against us.

Ideally, every single day we should accept whatever is laid in front of us, without rejecting or denying it, just fully accepting whatever is given, as we accept a movie plot at the cinema, knowing that we can’t change the direction of the events in the projected movie. But through the experience we have, we have the potential to change things. Unfortunately, we mostly have the power to get more lost rather than grow out of it. Everything is made addictive, so we get hooked onto each experience and crave for more. That’s when the game gets a grip on the player instead of the situation being otherwise.

You came to have this experience, have it fully, embracing each particle of it, while trying not to get captured in its snare. “Be in the world but not of the world”.

Have everything but make sure you don’t crave anything, make sure you make peace with the idea of you potentially leaving this game tomorrow and be ready not to look back, either at family, lover or any other potential trap to bring you back.

Do not get stuck in the movie you just finished, but continue to let go of it, and every experience and be ready for the next one. The capacity to let go of everything, anything and anyone at any point is the key to successfully escaping the trap of being stuck in the game.

There’s no debt you owe to anyone and nobody owes you anything. If you know this, you’ll be safe. Our kindness is used against us when we are leaving, as a manipulation tactic. Guilt and shame and even the sense of duty will be used against us. Beings reminiscing religious figures of our choice will be employed to keep us in the loop. 

Promises of evolution, enlightenment and the achievement of perfection will try to trick one into coming back. But you should know that we are already all-knowingly, perfect and enlightened.

There are no stairs to climb, no place to reach, nothing to achieve. You’re just a being that has it all, yet wants to explore lower, and rather limited realms. It’s like a wealthy person having planes, helicopters and other vehicles yet enjoying the thrill of riding an old bike or skateboard and eventually becoming oblivious of his previous belongings. You can always get back to your vehicles and not remain stuck with the skateboard. The trick here is that, in the game we play, we can become forgetful of all those flying vehicles and allow ourselves to identify with the skateboard and get tricked into repeating the experience with the promise of a car, when, in reality, we are not even bound to time and space, hence even planes or helicopters are not really necessary.

If you are Everything that ever was, is and will be, which we all are, how can you owe anything to anyone, or how can anyone be indebted to you?

Even though the sun is hidden for days and weeks by clouds, that doesn’t mean it disappeared. As such, although you’re unaware of the Divine essence within you, that doesn’t mean that its existence is canceled by your unawareness of it.

Playing it safe in life is avoidance of the experience and, although many assume greatness or even sanctity in playing it safe, they are just deluding themselves. They’re deluded by their one-sided perspective. Whereas those who traveled deep within the hellish realms and yet traveled back through the obstacles and opposition, back to wholesomeness, those are the true unrecognized heroes.

So make sure you experience it all, whatever is yours to have, finish everything on your plate, or you might get tricked into return by your own unfulfilled desires and experiences and unfinished businesses and attachments.

Don’t make a big deal out of anything, forget, forgive and love unconditionally, be kind and selflessly giving, live courageously and know that you are already perfect, wise and enlightened. You just forgot! Now remember!

Being who you truly are

Not far away in the past, I used to believe that taking an extra step to show goodness and kindness to people was a very spiritual thing to do.

My perspective changed when I realized the amazing value of being myself fully. Being myself unapologetically will definitely trigger lots of people and make them classify me as selfish or even narcissistic, which at first glance may even seem to be the case. In fact, what changes is that I keep my kindness somewhat hidden, and stop being people’s doormat for the sake of being liked, loved or accepted.

I have the same heart filled with love and kindness, but I don’t look for ways to show that to people anymore, as I am not looking for recognition of those features, and as I am more and more self-sufficient..

I bless when I feel like în silence, so they’ll never know. I see people thriving when I am not explaining myself but letting them get to their right conclusions or even allowing them to go a bit astray, projecting what is not, without me trying to correct anyone, to each according to their vibration at that point in time.

I might explain myself when I feel humility and an honest desire to know, and I am asked in a non-entitled way, as we all deserve to have our questions asked if we know how to do it. But I am done trying to make others understand how great, honest, kind and trustworthy I am. I am fine with people believing whatever they choose about me

If people are throwing a tantrum and are being entitled, I do not have the desire to explain or excuse myself. But I make sure I question myself thoroughly and try to see where my actions and words are coming from, but that doesn’t mean that I will try to bring clarity to anyone against their will or capacity to understand, as I have to limit unnecessary waste of energy when there’s no possibility or will to fathom what’s going on.

We all get to clarity when we dare to question ourselves and our narratives. When we dare to ask ourselves “what if they are right? ” and flip the whole story from different perspectives, especially from the other person’s perspective.

Sometimes we are blinded by the mechanisms of coping that hide under layers of traumatic responses and programming, so I can definitely say that taking whatever whoever says and giving it a chance to be examined in a cool “what if?” way is the best one can do for their own evolution out of their own limitations.

I have pondered many times onto statements by people who accuse me of acting selfish, narcissistic or being unfair. And I realized that at that point they were right, and I wondered why I was doing that. And following the thread, I got to the point where I realized that the narcissist is a child who stopped evolving, stopped maturing and never left the house of their parents (metaphorically speaking). They’re entitled to things and people’s attention and energy, exactly as a child feels, and they’re failing to take full responsibility for anything they do or say, exactly like a child.

Even when they’re touched by love, all they care about is only the fulfillment of their own ideas of “happiness”, forgetting to take the other person into consideration, forgetting to give and serve selflessly, not knowing that they are just taking and taking and by not giving, they’re going to exhaust that person’s energy and good will and will eventually bring about rapture.

So, whenever someone says something to me, I might take time to assess their words, like I would ponder on specialist advice. This made me realize how much we can grow even just by being exposed to  people who might misjudge us.

The path to healing is honesty to self and others. But there’s a caveat to this: I used to be overly critical of myself (twisting and fully denying my own perspective), and I can easily see now that any of the extremes are wrong, as in any other situation. So, being fully dismissive of others is extreme and not beneficial, whereas being fully submissive is not the solution either.

The secret is always in the middle path, the path of balance. Balance is the Divine law inherent in everything and anyone. When we search for balance, we’re always on the right track to removing ourselves from the limitations of the existence of the human body.

So being ourselves is a huge step to seeing and acknowledging our shadow and the wounded child within, along with the Eternal Spirit of the Absolute, also is a chance to lose all the unnecessary people in our proximity, just by being aligned with ourselves instead of showing some “kinder” face in order to preserve relationships and things that were never ours to have. Therefore, after the shock of losing so many people, the newly discovered vibration of truth and self-sufficiency is going to start attracting similar or at least higher vibrating beings and situations, like ending high school clears the path to university.

Being fully ourselves when we are deeply wounded and traumatized may have as a direct consequence, the loss of the majority of people in our surroundings, and that can deepen the sense of crisis, but it’s not a mistake at all, because we can get a chance to see how our actions and words come from the desire to possess people and things and from very traumatic events from our early ages or even unresolved past life unsolved traumas and a misunderstanding of life and its purpose.

So a very narcissistic/mentally disturbed person, who doesn’t want to evolve, will be forced to reassess the whole thing/life one last time, by hitting rock bottom! Hitting the bottom is, when everyone leaves, everyone abandons them because of the atrocious behavior, or when life will force a deep traumatic event as a last chance, a last wake-up call. They’ll either realize that the only way is up, and see their flaws and genuine desire to heal, or they’re going to postpone the process for the next existence.

Now I dare say that not many are in that predicament, as I consider a severe mental health issue a karmic punishment or a spiritual jail. Yet undoubtedly, we all have traits coming from unresolved trauma that make us exhibit narcissistic, bipolar, borderline behavior or any other distorted abnormal features. So, while we are not full-fledged narcissists, there might be a chance to heal, as long as there is the acknowledgment of something being wrong with us.

Being ourselves is valuable in any situation, especially in learning to protect our own energy from people that only drain it. Being kind doesn’t mean you should allow spiritual vampires to suck you dry. Spiritual vampires are not necessarily obvious evil people, but most of the time they are family members, our spouses and friends that we may feed with our energy because of our lack of boundaries and because we try to please people. Also, being who we truly are Wil inspire others to accept and embrace themselves fully, which is, in the long term, planting the seeds for a better humanity.

When the silence talks

Throughout the years of my life, I have had experiences that could have easily been spread over several lifetimes, such concentrated lessons in a succession of events that seemed at points to be the very end of the experience in this body. That’s how strongly their pain has been felt.

An external observer would be unable to assess the true vastness and range of experiences, as many of the recent events that touched me were mostly internal battles, inner struggles and processes of transmutation. I am amazed by the fact that I am still here, back again from my inner infernal places, able to write about it all.

I have risen and fallen so many times. I have reached heights of understanding and realizations that I am still surprised I managed to grasp, and at points I was deprived (I forgot) of all that knowledge and wisdom, and even been pushed again to plunge so deep back into the very depths of my shadowy self, to the very abyss that we are all trying to pretend it exists not within our hidden chambers. And yet here I am, all scarred, dusty and almost lost, found again with a true smile on my face and unlimited gratitude to the Grace of the Eternal that manifested through people, events and the entire movements of the gears of Life and its incredible stories and twists.

Such an amazing game of hide and seek we’re playing with ourselves. Such a great example of the living paradox that is a Soul exploring the lower material plane, such a trap, so cunning this construct and so incredibly booby-trapped at every step. Everything yells for our attention and energy, everything is doing its utmost to steal some juice(energy) from us one way or another, to keep us blind, stumbling in mediocrity. It’s indeed a war, but not with any external forces, but with internal self-created demons who are fighting to preserve and defend the status quo, to try and ensure the survival of the old paradigms of control and their self-preservation.

I am living a true miracle, but only now do I recognize it as such. My old self would scoff and roll his eyes in disbelief and hopelessness, as probably the reaction of the majority of people who ever met me. My “miracle” may look like nothing or even like a scary thing for the unadvised. The simplicity of it all is almost impossible to grasp by the overcomplicated reasoning mechanism of the limited mind bound to old concepts. Even I have fallen back to old paradigms so many times, unable to hold onto the realization of the truth.

I am! I truly feel that these 2 words and 3 letters are all encompassing, like the primordial particle out of which everything sprouted out. “I am” is realized in silence.

The silence and its power are often times misunderstood and disregarded. Yet when you dare facing it, embracing it, it’ll talk to you and you will Know! When you embrace the “boredom” of staying in silence with yourself, the whole Universe will reveal its hidden song, the song of Life and Love, the song that reminds us that we are One, that we are enough, and it is in every single moment of Now that we are always wholesome and perfect.

When we embrace what we used to run away from, we will be able to get all the missing parts of the puzzle that we were searching for only in our comfort zone. Such a fallacy, to look for knowledge and wisdom only where we expect it to be, as silly as being on a bridge and losing a precious object in the river, yet deciding to look for it on the bridge to avoid wetting our clothes.

Truth and pieces of it are found in the places that we least expect. One of this “places” is the silence. What’s ignored, and disregarded, has hidden in it some juice that can’t be found elsewhere. Dare to turn each stone in your life upside down with courage and determination, and you will hear the silence that speaks, that sings and that guides.

My deepest gratitude to my Guru and the entire Higher realm that protects and guides us!

Become fearless

For a long period of time, I thought that fearlessness was a state of total lack of fear, as thoughtlessness is lack of thoughts, yet I came to realize that although it might eventually be possible to be so, there’s an intermediary state that has to be integrated in order for that potential to become true.

There are embedded fears programmed in our body for the sake of preserving life and bodily integrity, but other fears, more insidious, are just to keep us bound and limited, fully identified with the ephemeral existence of the human body. When aware, these can be easily spotted, identified and worked with.

I have noticed that I have moments when the body automatically reacts to a certain stimulus like a powerful noise in the middle of the night, and the heart starts racing and adrenaline rushes through the blood stream and even cold shivers happen. But I observed myself, from the soul and the mind’s perspective. I am not afraid at all, as I am ready to leave this realm at any point. But the body is programmed to respond to those stimuli, and therefore reacts.

I believe that in order to become fearless and be unmoved by anything, we are supposed to face all our fears  to realize their fallacy, as a scared little child dares to open the closet and look under the bed, and then through training like this the body is deprogrammed, hence true fearlessness dawns.

Similarly, to achieve thoughtlessness, I many times used to replace at the beginning the malignant or detrimental thoughts with thoughts which are rather on the positive side. It is somewhat rudimentary, yet it works, but it requires being continuously aware of the body and mind and observing the thought process.

The next level is when we realize that in reality no thoughts are or were ever ours, and we train ourselves to disregard them all together unless we are solicited in the material world, and we have to employ the thought process.

At this stage, thoughts are still coming, yet if aware, we give them no attention, no energy. Therefore, they have no power to create emotions which will change into more thoughts and push us to action. That’s when thoughts become malignant, yet if they’re disregarded, they’re just like wild animals behind a thick glass wall in a zoo. You see them, yet they have no power to distract or disturb you, unless you allow them to.

The most advanced state which I have experienced a few times is when deep meditative absorption is canceling the thought creation, and they seem inexistent, and I would dare to assume that it is because the high vibration of the person in deep meditation doesn’t allow the lower level where thoughts are born, to appear and rush into the mind.

So to conclude, becoming fearless is a long and tedious process that requires discipline and perseverance and facing all possible fears while trying to maintain a higher vibration level. And probably all I say is known, yet my realization of the body having an instant reaction, whereas the mind is not in fear I haven’t found anywhere. So, ideally, when we surprise our body experiencing fear, we should first check our hearts and minds and realize that we are eternal, immortal consciousness, so there’s nothing to be afraid of and the bodily reaction will subside immediately as the mind rules over the bodily functions when we are aware, and we know that we can exert this type of control even over the unconscious reflex-like programming which is deeply rooted within it.

True happiness

Our idea of happiness, whilst associated with a person, an object, a place or time, is doomed to flip into unhappiness.

As long as we project the idea of happiness and associate it with anything or anyone outside of us, it will inevitably create and bring about the opposite of what we want, hope, and expect.

Let’s say that we associate our happiness with our loving wife or husband, with whom we share a beautiful relationship. Eventually, that relationship will end one way or another, be it separation, death or any other possible reason; the certain thing is that it is going to end. So happiness being rooted in the external world (outside of us) is always prone to failure.

True happiness is when we finally reside fully within our body, untouched by any external event, people or anything, always bathing in the blissful light of our Being. That happiness is the only true happiness that is worth searching for. It’s the coming-home feeling, the ultimate love found in the union of the Divine Feminine and Masculine inside our very Being, Yin and Yang, and Yoga (Union).

While writing this, I am bathing in that inner happiness that relies on nothing outside of me, and, therefore, it is not bound to vanish ever, even in the moments of distress when I am called outside my being, or when I am distracted and separated from it; that inner peace is still there silently shining, like an inner sun dazzling from within, just for me to remember to return to after the outside incursion.

This true happiness that I am talking about is the very essence of our Being, the Love of the primordial Source hidden in the center of all those particles that separated from It, one day to return home, called by the Highest Vibration of Love and Bliss that is reunification with the Eternal.

The message I am trying to convey is rather abstract and hard, almost impossible to put into words, but without a doubt can be felt and accessed within your very Self. Therefore, dare to look inside yourself and find that most intimate, deepest connection and Love that is always closer to you and your heart than anything and that was patiently waiting for you to remember to listen to that inner silence that sings, to touch that inner peace that can change not only our bodies and proximity but the very world we’re experiencing and everything that we bring into our active consciousness.

Once we get even a glimpse of this true Happiness, we will not put all the eggs into one (external) basket; we won’t be easily distracted by the external calls of the Illusion to capture our attention and energy, but we will calmly step outside (into the world – matrix) with that unshakeable determination and playful attitude that being established in our own Essence can give us.

We were never unhappy, just disconnected from the Source, that Source that is within us and all over outside of us, and there’s nothing that is not That.

What we avoid should be embraced

People in their majority, and here I also include myself, are programed to avoid certain feelings, people, and experiences altogether, although in reality, I have noticed that valuable information and lessons are hidden where we least expect and implicitly in what we avoid.

I can give a very mundane example in which my entire life I was trying to keep myself comfortable especially when coming to extreme temperatures, be it cold or hot. I was always shaking uncontrollably when exposed to cold and suffering greatly when exposed to heat.

One day I went to the sauna with my girlfriend at that time and usually I like warm shower even after the sauna, even if the majority may use a cold shower to create resilience both of the body as of character.

My girlfriend went straight into the cold water which was probably no more than couple of degrees, and was just sitting there without whining or shaking. That was the moment when I was in awe with her stoic resilience and realized that I was weak in this particular matter.

Some years after I was talking to a friend online and said that I am not going out because it was very cold and I I would rather stay in the warmth of my home.

She laughed and said that men sometimes can be so weak, and that she prefers pushing her limits to build her character. Again I felt I was doing something wrong. Since that moment I started taking cold showers after the hot one. The first ones were probably less than 5 seconds 😁, but slowly I increased the time until I reached the moment when I can easily take only cold shower in the morning, and also in the pools I started using the cold water pools which are 0 degrees, and I stay there 2 to 3 minutes at a time.

As a beneficial result I see that my resilience to extreme temperatures increased several fold, as to the point that this winter I haven’t been using a hat despite very cold days. But my point is not in emphasizing the physiological benefits but rather to point out my realization of the fact that when we avoid something and try to force into our lives just the pleasant or comfortable, then we force life to push onto us those gathered small inconvenient events that we avoid snowballed into a big “negative” event to restore the balance.

As I stated in previous articles, I feel life as a continuous ebbing and flowing, a continuous change from Yin to Yang and vice-versa into a perpetual movement of the polarities.

So to get to the theory I propose to my readers to observe:

If we don’t embrace the negative aspects and events, which in reality are not only not “negative” at all, but teaching and enhancing our awareness and forcing us to reason, observe and ponder on the experience, then the choice is that we will have life, or consciousness forcing onto us the gathered accumulated negative charge which can be too much for us to bear.

So just by having a cold shower we embrace the discomfort that at first we experience whilst having it, although later the whole negative aspect of it flips into positive. Just by extrapolation, you can realize inside your own life whenever you try to avoid the discomfort and hoping for the opposite, and choose to change the approach.

As such, when we avoid certain type of people or/and experiences that life is pushing onto us over and over again, we fail to examine the reason behind that, as nothing in life just happens, as I don’t believe anymore in that neither in the existence of sheer luck.

So there are several benefits as I have noticed in embracing what we usually tend to reject or run away from. And those benefits are multidimensional. And once we realize that just by embracing and facing what we used to try to escape from, life will become smoother and more balanced.

With gratitude for Anna (the friend I talked about above ) , who unknowingly inspired me to face the harsh weather and implicitly life’s challenges.