The middle point, where there is stillness

How many times have I been there?! Knowing what I have to do or say, I was happy to get a glimpse of the Immortal Knowledge through my own realizations, yet the ego and mind eventually tricked me, once again, into forgetfulness. I have no doubt that everything is known in my core, yet the ego occults the Truth, along with the limited mind’s giving of reasons and logical explanations to this and that and the avoidance of the right “path”. Oh, what a waste of time! since the righteousness is the very root of ignorance and there are no “better tools” to use to help one lose one’s soul than ignorance and righteousness. Each are born of the other.

Since everything is but illusion, is there anything to be righteous about? Since everything is but creation of the mind (like a dream), is there anything to run for, to crave? Are we able to take an object back from our dreams into the so-called “reality”? Then how can we fall prey to greed? Everything is but a dream. Is there any benefit in cheating people or in mistreating them even for the most “righteous”of reasons?

Even so, it’s extremely difficult to apply what we read and understand into our lives, since it goes against everything that we have ever known.

Many times, we think that we’ve changed, that we’ve improved… It’s just another trick of the ego. Real change is sometimes mind-blowing; it’s a giant leap out of the plain, tridimensional world that we “see”, and into the quantum world. Yet first the change may so gradual and looking like we are not evolving at all, but by looking back at how we used to be, we realize that we are no longer the same, that we are aware, we KNOW, we are not acting upon the reactions, upon the old programs the way we used to. Slowly slowly we are realizing who we are and what is the point of all of this.

Real change comes by Grace, along with huge amounts of courage to go against everything that we’ve stood by our entire lives (which is no longer suitable). Actually, lives upon lifetimes we have wasted in perpetually “missing the point”. But now, it is time to gather all the pain and become immersed in it fully with the joy of knowing that I am doing the right thing – what I had avoided for eons. And that pain, devoid of explanation, emotion and any righteousness or guilt, creates the shift that I couldn’t possibly have dreamt of before. The same pain that had bound me before, if experienced with full awareness and attention, will open my eyes ever more and oh! when I “open” my eyes I realize that everything is worthless. Everything that is dual is just a smart way to bind me to even more affectations of illusion. Remove yourself from the “dream”! Stop creating a meaning for the illusion, or the illusion will devour you as it has done, over and over again, in our past existences. I do everything dispassionately, regardless of the results because passion is no longer for the “I”. When there is no “I”or “mine” or “me” there is Being. And when I do, I do as the Being – Awareness. In removing expectations and hopes, the sorrow will be one with joy, neither Ying nor Yang, but an incorporation of them all.

I cannot entertain thoughts or emotions, because I am beyond those, like the butterfly that is above the caterpillar. But, when I entertain them, although I am already the butterfly, I see myself (and am seen by others) as a maggot. By giving into instincts and entertaining lower thoughts, the Divinity is blocked since That (the Absolute) is the untouched – pure Blissful Being – Existence.

I entertain only the ideas that benefit me the most. I remember that there’s no good or bad choice, only my choice, that I can change when I dislike the fruits of such choice.

Whatever is already lost and gone, I don’t waste my tears on since that loss had a reason. The reason was to wake me up. In learning the lesson, new opportunities emerge since once we stop being the victims of illusion, whilst still in it, it can only serve us.

Be aware of both polarities since they are both as wrong as they can be. The violin teacher said to the child, “You see, my dear, the secret lies in the middle, since if you tighten the strings too much, they are going to snap, or if they are left too loose, the sound may be improper or missing.” So the teaching can only happen on the middle path where there is no exaggeration or extreme. Like a pendulum which is still, immovable in the 0 point.

May the Grace that gave me these realizations be the driving force of our further evolution, and may it pull us out of self-created misery.

It’s something that I have been searching for my whole life, but only now am I ready to receive it, so here it is, self-manifested, exactly in the right moment.