Beingness – Inspired by and dedicated to Jivanmukti and Siddha Param-Para

Let the fear go

When we look at the ocean or the sea, we observe waves coming and going, rising and falling. Do you think you can capture a wave? Even with the best technology and human resources, we cannot really capture a wave. Whatever we would have taken out of the ocean would be just water which, when taken from the ocean, doesn’t rise and fall as it is disconnected from the huge mass of water which has its own power by sheer quantity and vastness, besides the consciousness which is inherent and permeates everything that exists, visible or invisible.

We are waves of the ocean. We appear as being separate from our ocean, yet we are not. We feel like waves that separated from the main body of water, and now we tremble in fear of dissolution. We have forgotten our origin. “The ocean” is the Source of everything, and by ignorance we forgot our belonging to the Source, we forgot about the game we came to play.

We ought to raise our heads and try to see the larger picture. The higher the outlook, the more objective the vantage point becomes. The wider the perspective grows, the more correct everything appears.

Let’s try to recall a certain event that, whilst experiencing, we assumed was terrible, overwhelming, life-threatening even, etc. The further back in the past it was, the more insignificant it looks and our previous perspective of it may now appear exaggerated or even outright laughable. Now extrapolate this realization onto everything you have experienced and will experience.

Realize that you are in a sequence onto which you have zero to very little influence or control. Whenever forceful control is applied, all we do is just postpone or/and accumulate that energy that was ours to deal with. That’s why people try to force life into being comfortable and free from unwanted events, unaware that by forcing life into that unnatural dynamic, the avoided events are just piling up under the rug where they were swept, and will eventually burst into an unnecessary, huge conflagration, possibly even life-threatening.

It is as futile and unnecessary as trying to stop a river from flowing. Even if blocked, it will always find a way to push and pierce through any obstacle. So, don’t be afraid to experience life and its ups and downs, as you, as a soul, are never at risk of being truly annihilated, as no one can annihilate water taken from the ocean, but it can only be temporarily separated. Even though this separation is merely apparent, we’re never truly apart, as the Source of everything contains in it the material worlds and the very Nothingness that holds all created worlds, dimensions and universes and fills everything that appears empty.

There is nothing separated from Life, nothing that is not alive, everything is in eternal movement, everything is eternal experience changing from one form to another, no real drama happens, only pure undivided experience, Yin and Yang continuously flowing from one to another in an eternal cosmic dance.

The drama is just on the screen of the Existence, in the eyes of the one watching. Real and unreal at the same time. Why would you be afraid of anything if you are Source experiencing itself through fragmentation and separation? An eternal game of hide-and-seek, a movie so well-made that we forgot it’s just a movie.

Coming back to the waves and the person trying to control life’s currents, our of sheer fear of discomfort, fear of dissolution, fear of pain and whatnot. Let’s see our experience in this body as being waves, allow yourself to explore the rise and fall, know that you are not in danger at any point (since you are not the mortal human body), allow yourself to embrace everything that’s thrown in your “movie” and enjoy. Don’t forget that the Yin Yang symbol has equal parts of black and white which harmoniously merge one with another. As such, your experiences can’t naturally be only positive. Embrace both currents, let the cold touch you and the hot, and you will realize that both are amazing. Let yourself stay in deep darkness as well as light, see the beauty of the sun-shining days as well as of the overcast and rainy ones.

Know that whatever you run away from will chase you and eventually get you. So how about stopping the eternal running away? How about embracing and loving everything and everyone indiscriminately? How about when you feel fear, you just surrender to the moment and allow yourself to see that there’s no boogieman under the bed?

By knowing that you are one with God, the Source, the Absolute, fear vanishes. There’s no antagonizing force to the Source, as everything flows out of it. If the antelope knew that it was also the lion, the hyena, the vultures, the worms, the river, the ocean, the sky and the entire forest, it wouldn’t fear, but it would still run if the lion is chasing as it’s the game it came to play. The result is always unknown, but also always correct from the higher most perspective. Both possibilities still nurture the Existence. If the antelope is caught, it will feed the lions and their cubs, the insects, hyenas and vultures, and it will participate in the eternal dance of creation and dissolution. If it survives, it will teach its progenies how to avoid being caught, enhancing their survival skills and passing that information for generations to come, maintaining the balance.

Everything is always correct. There are no enemies or friends, there’s only One which we all are. If we understand this deeply, fear will forever vanish as an invented boogieman that never existed. What can happen? Changing form? Like switching dreams. It’s just experience and the least tragic we see the experience the more we will start grasping the secret behind it all and the reason we are having all these experiences.

Let yourself experience the uncomfortable, the dark, the cold, and everything you used to run away from with courage and then, the good, comfortable, pleasant and tasty will rush into your life on its own accord. Don’t try to keep people longer than the assigned time, don’t try to suspend and capture pleasant moments as you might unknowingly deprive yourself of even better ones.

Let your fear be gone, and you will experience your life as being a continuous miracle. Embrace life as it comes and do your due diligence with dedication and determination, and you shall remember who and what you truly are!

The game you came to play

Not so long ago, I started realizing that dismissing information just because I wasn’t agreeing or liking the source through which was coming was ignorance. Since then, if I am being sent a video or article, I go through it and look for bits and pieces that resonate within me, that can add value to me deciphering life’s puzzle.

Since then, when people are disagreeing with me, I don’t mind, I no longer get upset or try to change their minds, but I just know that they’re not resonating with that information that I was giving them. That doesn’t mean that they’re wrong, or they’re missing anything, as we all have our own different paths in life, and no matter how different we are, and our paths are, eventually we will all be meeting back to the very Source we sprung out of.

I remember telling my friend Pedro: “Why do you need to try to fight me for things we disagree on, when we can both take from each other’s discourses whatever resonates within and forget about the rest?” Since then, our interaction is less difficult, no friction and neither being like rams slamming our heads, against each other trying to impose our “truths” onto the other.

Sometimes we ignore valuable information just because we dislike/despise or don’t consider the messenger as an authority figure. That is how, at points, pieces and bits that Life is hiding in places that most would dismiss and ignore, might get lost unless we stop judging and dividing, but accept and unite, we will be missing those valuable puzzle pieces that will be hidden where we would never search for or be interested in.

Therefore, my realization is that instead of limiting our views and isolating ourselves from life, we should open our hearts, eyes and ears to always perceive everything without judgement, and picking those useful bits of information that will complete the picture.

It’s good to establish your energy first in the highest place you can possibly get and then explore things and places that you consider as being low or bad, with your new perspective, looking for clues and previously disregarded particles that you could have missed by believing that from the dirt nothing good can come out. Yet look at the beautiful orchids sometimes sprouting out of dirt we wouldn’t dare touch. Or look at the beauty of a lotus flower that came piercing through a considerable amount of mud and then grew its stem through the muddy water all the way up to the surface where it blooms and spreads its petals and releases its scented emanation in the light whilst thoroughly being anchored in the mud, passing through water. Isn’t it a bit like our journeys?

We start with ignorance and predigested information and slowly navigate through learning to pick what’s useful and leave aside what’s not, but with love, knowing that everything is always right, flowing through life with the least opposition from ourselves, always smiling and filtering all that unnecessary out, whilst carefully assimilating the needed. Similarly, a whale absorbs huge quantities of water and retains small fish and other nutritious elements it needs, while water is returned to the ocean it came from.

This is how entire nature and everything always talks to us. We should learn to read between the lines, learn to filter everything through our very Being and see how sometimes there are gems hidden where we least expect, and how even a homeless person may say something that, if you don’t disregard, it may give you a perspective you would have never got the chance to get from elsewhere.

Be always open, because life talks to you through everything, be always ready to absorb missing pieces of the puzzle while maintaining your gratitude for the knowledge and the means through which it reached you. Gratitude is the most essential element we always have to be full of, as by being ungrateful, whatever we have got will eventually be lost because we haven’t fully acknowledged it, and we take it for granted.

Make sure you always do your utmost to give and serve selflessly, a way of giving back to Life, bringing the needed where it lacks in other people’s lives, an eternal circle of give and take. By giving, you empty a bit of your filled bucket and make space for better things or information to come replace that recently emptied space in your “bucket”. It shouldn’t be a calculative move, “I give because I will get better”, because when we approach life from such a cunning material pragmatism, thinking we can outsmart it, we should prepare ourselves for a rough awakening.

Establish your roots in the mud, embracing it, then grow your stem through the muddy waters of ignorance, steadily freeing yourself from the unnecessary and learning to discern and discover valuable knowledge that serves you and pierce those waters of ignorance and bloom when reaching the surface and let the sun of the Existence illuminate you further into deeper levels of knowledge and realizations. This is the game you came to play!

It’s a matter of perspective

Each time we complain about our experience, it’s because our expectations are set on “high”. If there’s no expectation or hope neither addiction to a certain outcome, then whatever is given by life is fully received and embraced, and the true lesson of each experience is fully grasped and transcended.

From the perspective of the person who hopes that life should be “good “, each small stumble, each unexpected turn is perceived as very painful and becomes a vicious circle of trying to escape pain and change the outcome and even a intent to manipulate life to flow our way is initiated, and even if with great struggles, we manage to push the outcomes to fit our hopes, we will just postpone and pile up the events that we are so eagerly running away from.

I have been there myself, wondering why life was so difficult and painful. When I started accepting whatever comes my way with the least opposition, Life started flowing like a gentle river, bringing about debris of past rejected elements that I avoided and experiences of all kinds, but although unexpected events still take place, they’re just boulders in the river over which the water flows with ease.

Sometimes it feels like a miraculous way, the manner in which everything unfolds; how if I take time to accept whatever happens; whatever is offered, even if it feels unpleasant, as soon as I accept and embrace that event, it’s like it gets canceled by the very Existence, or one way or another the whole thing gets adjusted, sometimes to an even better situation than previously.

This reminds me of a quote from Tao Te Ching: “Do you have the patience to wait ’till your mud settles and the water is clear?
Can you remain unmoving’ till the right action arises by itself?”

Let’s say, if we are aware that this is a very low-vibration material existence, although not the lowest, and each emotion has to be experienced fully, (as this is the only purpose that we came to fulfill: to have a low experience without losing oneself), then it all start to make sense, and in the worst situations, remembering the nature of this existence, you will find the possibility to relax and even smile.

When we fall into sorrow, guilt, shame, comparison, jealousy, vengeance and other very low feelings, then we feed the very system that we are trying to escape.

As soon as an emotion is ignited, we should feel it deeply, so as not to try to escape the feeling that we came here to have, but we shouldn’t employ any escapist or coping mechanism, or allow thoughts and actions to drag us deeper into the depths of victimization.

Let’s say we are rejected: at first every one of us will have a painful reaction as we are programmed to look for good experiences and run for those who are taking us out of our comfort zone. I feel it, it first comes like a huge overwhelming wave that tries to create an immediate response, trying to drag me under the water, blinded by emotions and reacting in an inappropriate way. But I have learned to stay there with the feeling, accepting it, and trying not to react or think about it, just be with the feeling. And whenever I am aware, and I do not react to it, the whole tempest is showing itself for what it truly is: just a storm in a glass of water.

If we knew we were in hell whilst having this exact experience, we would be dancing and rejoicing every single day, remembering to see the blessings that we have in our lives and how this version of hell is quite OK, especially compared to other people’s experience, as soon as we stop antagonizing it. But if we project some sort of idea of a place of pleasure, hope and joy, we are bound for a rough awakening. So you see, it’s all about the perspective. Depends on the angle from which we see everything, and the expectations or lack thereof.

Don’t you see how our own expectations and projections are binding us even more? Transforming a neutral experience that a godlike being came to have, into a belief of being trapped, doomed, tricked, punished, and eventually bringing us back to the same place, less and less aware of the nature of this paradigm, when in reality nothing can bind us and everything is just a projected experience based on mistaken beliefs and assumptions.

I am not able to do it all the time, as many times I am caught off-guard by the waves of life, acting from past distortions and programming, but each time I take my time and allow life to flow at its own accord, I am so happy I managed to do it. The more we do it, we become free from projections, and the world will fail to look neither good nor bad, but it will just flow like the ocean’s waves: one day roughly, one day calm and joyful, another day it may look like they want to destroy and annihilate and other days they’re still as a lake in a painting.

If you watch the ocean through the window or the TV screen, no storm will scare you, but you will enjoy its dynamism and continuous change and unpredictability. Similarly, if you grasp the nature of this existence, you’ll feel like watching it through a screen, and the tremendous show that it puts into scene will inspire and put you in awe, but it will no longer scare you or catch you off guard.

This is how we are gradually spiritually maturing, slowly growing, enhanced by our trust in life and by the Grace that flows from within us, not separate from the Life that flows equally from within, as everything that we experience outside of us.

How can then be someone to punish or reward us if everything is just us? But because we believe in that predicament, we create a life that will fit our idea of it. Change your perspective and life will feel easier, the power is always in our hands.

Being who you truly are

Not far away in the past, I used to believe that taking an extra step to show goodness and kindness to people was a very spiritual thing to do.

My perspective changed when I realized the amazing value of being myself fully. Being myself unapologetically will definitely trigger lots of people and make them classify me as selfish or even narcissistic, which at first glance may even seem to be the case. In fact, what changes is that I keep my kindness somewhat hidden, and stop being people’s doormat for the sake of being liked, loved or accepted.

I have the same heart filled with love and kindness, but I don’t look for ways to show that to people anymore, as I am not looking for recognition of those features, and as I am more and more self-sufficient..

I bless when I feel like în silence, so they’ll never know. I see people thriving when I am not explaining myself but letting them get to their right conclusions or even allowing them to go a bit astray, projecting what is not, without me trying to correct anyone, to each according to their vibration at that point in time.

I might explain myself when I feel humility and an honest desire to know, and I am asked in a non-entitled way, as we all deserve to have our questions asked if we know how to do it. But I am done trying to make others understand how great, honest, kind and trustworthy I am. I am fine with people believing whatever they choose about me

If people are throwing a tantrum and are being entitled, I do not have the desire to explain or excuse myself. But I make sure I question myself thoroughly and try to see where my actions and words are coming from, but that doesn’t mean that I will try to bring clarity to anyone against their will or capacity to understand, as I have to limit unnecessary waste of energy when there’s no possibility or will to fathom what’s going on.

We all get to clarity when we dare to question ourselves and our narratives. When we dare to ask ourselves “what if they are right? ” and flip the whole story from different perspectives, especially from the other person’s perspective.

Sometimes we are blinded by the mechanisms of coping that hide under layers of traumatic responses and programming, so I can definitely say that taking whatever whoever says and giving it a chance to be examined in a cool “what if?” way is the best one can do for their own evolution out of their own limitations.

I have pondered many times onto statements by people who accuse me of acting selfish, narcissistic or being unfair. And I realized that at that point they were right, and I wondered why I was doing that. And following the thread, I got to the point where I realized that the narcissist is a child who stopped evolving, stopped maturing and never left the house of their parents (metaphorically speaking). They’re entitled to things and people’s attention and energy, exactly as a child feels, and they’re failing to take full responsibility for anything they do or say, exactly like a child.

Even when they’re touched by love, all they care about is only the fulfillment of their own ideas of “happiness”, forgetting to take the other person into consideration, forgetting to give and serve selflessly, not knowing that they are just taking and taking and by not giving, they’re going to exhaust that person’s energy and good will and will eventually bring about rapture.

So, whenever someone says something to me, I might take time to assess their words, like I would ponder on specialist advice. This made me realize how much we can grow even just by being exposed to people who might misjudge us.

The path to healing is honesty to self and others. But there’s a caveat to this: I used to be overly critical of myself (twisting and fully denying my own perspective), and I can easily see now that any of the extremes are wrong, as in any other situation. So, being fully dismissive of others is extreme and not beneficial, whereas being fully submissive is not the solution either.

The secret is always in the middle path, the path of balance. Balance is the Divine law inherent in everything and anyone. When we search for balance, we’re always on the right track to removing ourselves from the limitations of the existence of the human body.

So being ourselves is a huge step to seeing and acknowledging our shadow and the wounded child within, along with the Eternal Spirit of the Absolute, also is a chance to lose all the unnecessary people in our proximity, just by being aligned with ourselves instead of showing some “kinder” face in order to preserve relationships and things that were never ours to have. Therefore, after the shock of losing so many people, the newly discovered vibration of truth and self-sufficiency is going to start attracting similar or at least higher vibrating beings and situations, like ending high school clears the path to university.

Being fully ourselves when we are deeply wounded and traumatized may have as a direct consequence, the loss of the majority of people in our surroundings, and that can deepen the sense of crisis, but it’s not a mistake at all, because we can get a chance to see how our actions and words come from the desire to possess people and things and from very traumatic events from our early ages or even unresolved past life unsolved traumas and a misunderstanding of life and its purpose.

So a very narcissistic/mentally disturbed person, who doesn’t want to evolve, will be forced to reassess the whole thing/life one last time, by hitting rock bottom! Hitting the bottom is, when everyone leaves, everyone abandons them because of the atrocious behavior, or when life will force a deep traumatic event as a last chance, a last wake-up call. They’ll either realize that the only way is up, and see their flaws and genuine desire to heal, or they’re going to postpone the process for the next existence.

Now I dare say that not many are in that predicament, as I consider a severe mental health issue a karmic punishment or a spiritual jail. Yet undoubtedly, we all have traits coming from unresolved trauma that make us exhibit narcissistic, bipolar, borderline behavior or any other distorted abnormal features. So, while we are not full-fledged narcissists, there might be a chance to heal, as long as there is the acknowledgment of something being wrong with us.

Being ourselves is valuable in any situation, especially in learning to protect our own energy from people that only drain it. Being kind doesn’t mean you should allow spiritual vampires to suck you dry. Spiritual vampires are not necessarily obvious evil people, but most of the time they are family members, our spouses and friends that we may feed with our energy because of our lack of boundaries and because we try to please people. Also, being who we truly are Wil inspire others to accept and embrace themselves fully, which is, in the long term, planting the seeds for a better humanity.

When the silence talks

Throughout the years of my life, I have had experiences that could have easily been spread over several lifetimes, such concentrated lessons in a succession of events that seemed at points to be the very end of the experience in this body. That’s how strongly their pain has been felt.

An external observer would be unable to assess the true vastness and range of experiences, as many of the recent events that touched me were mostly internal battles, inner struggles and processes of transmutation. I am amazed by the fact that I am still here, back again from my inner infernal places, able to write about it all.

I have risen and fallen so many times. I have reached heights of understanding and realizations that I am still surprised I managed to grasp, and at points I was deprived (I forgot) of all that knowledge and wisdom, and even been pushed again to plunge so deep back into the very depths of my shadowy self, to the very abyss that we are all trying to pretend it exists not within our hidden chambers. And yet here I am, all scarred, dusty and almost lost, found again with a true smile on my face and unlimited gratitude to the Grace of the Eternal that manifested through people, events and the entire movements of the gears of Life and its incredible stories and twists.

Such an amazing game of hide and seek we’re playing with ourselves. Such a great example of the living paradox that is a Soul exploring the lower material plane, such a trap, so cunning this construct and so incredibly booby-trapped at every step. Everything yells for our attention and energy, everything is doing its utmost to steal some juice(energy) from us one way or another, to keep us blind, stumbling in mediocrity. It’s indeed a war, but not with any external forces, but with internal self-created demons who are fighting to preserve and defend the status quo, to try and ensure the survival of the old paradigms of control and their self-preservation.

I am living a true miracle, but only now do I recognize it as such. My old self would scoff and roll his eyes in disbelief and hopelessness, as probably the reaction of the majority of people who ever met me. My “miracle” may look like nothing or even like a scary thing for the unadvised. The simplicity of it all is almost impossible to grasp by the overcomplicated reasoning mechanism of the limited mind bound to old concepts. Even I have fallen back to old paradigms so many times, unable to hold onto the realization of the truth.

I am! I truly feel that these 2 words and 3 letters are all encompassing, like the primordial particle out of which everything sprouted out. “I am” is realized in silence.

The silence and its power are often times misunderstood and disregarded. Yet when you dare facing it, embracing it, it’ll talk to you and you will Know! When you embrace the “boredom” of staying in silence with yourself, the whole Universe will reveal its hidden song, the song of Life and Love, the song that reminds us that we are One, that we are enough, and it is in every single moment of Now that we are always wholesome and perfect.

When we embrace what we used to run away from, we will be able to get all the missing parts of the puzzle that we were searching for only in our comfort zone. Such a fallacy, to look for knowledge and wisdom only where we expect it to be, as silly as being on a bridge and losing a precious object in the river, yet deciding to look for it on the bridge to avoid wetting our clothes.

Truth and pieces of it are found in the places that we least expect. One of this “places” is the silence. What’s ignored, and disregarded, has hidden in it some juice that can’t be found elsewhere. Dare to turn each stone in your life upside down with courage and determination, and you will hear the silence that speaks, that sings and that guides.

My deepest gratitude to my Guru and the entire Higher realm that protects and guides us!

Become fearless

For a long period of time, I thought that fearlessness was a state of total lack of fear, as thoughtlessness is lack of thoughts, yet I came to realize that although it might eventually be possible to be so, there’s an intermediary state that has to be integrated in order for that potential to become true.

There are embedded fears programmed in our body for the sake of preserving life and bodily integrity, but other fears, more insidious, are just to keep us bound and limited, fully identified with the ephemeral existence of the human body. When aware, these can be easily spotted, identified and worked with.

I have noticed that I have moments when the body automatically reacts to a certain stimulus like a powerful noise in the middle of the night, and the heart starts racing and adrenaline rushes through the blood stream and even cold shivers happen. But I observed myself, from the soul and the mind’s perspective. I am not afraid at all, as I am ready to leave this realm at any point. But the body is programmed to respond to those stimuli, and therefore reacts.

I believe that in order to become fearless and be unmoved by anything, we are supposed to face all our fears to realize their fallacy, as a scared little child dares to open the closet and look under the bed, and then through training like this the body is deprogrammed, hence true fearlessness dawns.

Similarly, to achieve thoughtlessness, I many times used to replace at the beginning the malignant or detrimental thoughts with thoughts which are rather on the positive side. It is somewhat rudimentary, yet it works, but it requires being continuously aware of the body and mind and observing the thought process.

The next level is when we realize that in reality no thoughts are or were ever ours, and we train ourselves to disregard them all together unless we are solicited in the material world, and we have to employ the thought process.

At this stage, thoughts are still coming, yet if aware, we give them no attention, no energy. Therefore, they have no power to create emotions which will change into more thoughts and push us to action. That’s when thoughts become malignant, yet if they’re disregarded, they’re just like wild animals behind a thick glass wall in a zoo. You see them, yet they have no power to distract or disturb you, unless you allow them to.

The most advanced state which I have experienced a few times is when deep meditative absorption is canceling the thought creation, and they seem inexistent, and I would dare to assume that it is because the high vibration of the person in deep meditation doesn’t allow the lower level where thoughts are born, to appear and rush into the mind.

So to conclude, becoming fearless is a long and tedious process that requires discipline and perseverance and facing all possible fears while trying to maintain a higher vibration level. And probably all I say is known, yet my realization of the body having an instant reaction, whereas the mind is not in fear I haven’t found anywhere. So, ideally, when we surprise our body experiencing fear, we should first check our hearts and minds and realize that we are eternal, immortal consciousness, so there’s nothing to be afraid of and the bodily reaction will subside immediately as the mind rules over the bodily functions when we are aware, and we know that we can exert this type of control even over the unconscious reflex-like programming which is deeply rooted within it.

True happiness

Our idea of happiness, whilst associated with a person, an object, a place or time, is doomed to flip into unhappiness.

As long as we project the idea of happiness and associate it with anything or anyone outside of us, it will inevitably create and bring about the opposite of what we want, hope, and expect.

Let’s say that we associate our happiness with our loving wife or husband, with whom we share a beautiful relationship. Eventually, that relationship will end one way or another, be it separation, death or any other possible reason; the certain thing is that it is going to end. So happiness being rooted in the external world (outside of us) is always prone to failure.

True happiness is when we finally reside fully within our body, untouched by any external event, people or anything, always bathing in the blissful light of our Being. That happiness is the only true happiness that is worth searching for. It’s the coming-home feeling, the ultimate love found in the union of the Divine Feminine and Masculine inside our very Being, Yin and Yang, and Yoga (Union).

While writing this, I am bathing in that inner happiness that relies on nothing outside of me, and, therefore, it is not bound to vanish ever, even in the moments of distress when I am called outside my being, or when I am distracted and separated from it; that inner peace is still there silently shining, like an inner sun dazzling from within, just for me to remember to return to after the outside incursion.

This true happiness that I am talking about is the very essence of our Being, the Love of the primordial Source hidden in the center of all those particles that separated from It, one day to return home, called by the Highest Vibration of Love and Bliss that is reunification with the Eternal.

The message I am trying to convey is rather abstract and hard, almost impossible to put into words, but without a doubt can be felt and accessed within your very Self. Therefore, dare to look inside yourself and find that most intimate, deepest connection and Love that is always closer to you and your heart than anything and that was patiently waiting for you to remember to listen to that inner silence that sings, to touch that inner peace that can change not only our bodies and proximity but the very world we’re experiencing and everything that we bring into our active consciousness.

Once we get even a glimpse of this true Happiness, we will not put all the eggs into one (external) basket; we won’t be easily distracted by the external calls of the Illusion to capture our attention and energy, but we will calmly step outside (into the world – matrix) with that unshakeable determination and playful attitude that being established in our own Essence can give us.

We were never unhappy, just disconnected from the Source, that Source that is within us and all over outside of us, and there’s nothing that is not That.

Radical self-acceptance

Radical self-acceptance is true self-love. It’s hard, and it doesn’t come easy, as we were told since early childhood that we are not enough, unless we do this or that, look or behave in a certain way.

I train myself in embodying this self-acceptance by allowing myself to say or do stupid things without trying to save face, without defending. I see myself wanting to write a message to someone and, either while writing it or right after, I see it being incomplete, insufficient, silly or outright stupid or just too revealing. Although I am tempted to delete it or edit it I am leaving it there as it is, most of the time, as I am not trying to create a good image of myself anymore. I am more and more allowing people to perceive me as they want, and I sometimes enjoy observing myself and that inner struggle I have in which I force myself not to defend or correct people’s impressions of me.

Of course, I am still work in progress, so I am at points catching myself trying to repair it and I even do it sometimes. But I am heading there.

How can we truly accept someone else in our lives fully when we haven’t yet done that in our cases? How can we accept someone else’s flaws and differences unless we’ve at least started to do that about ourselves.

Radical self-acceptance is a mandatory step on the path to remembering and embracing who we truly are. And self acceptance is not about all the bright features and characteristics, but wholesomely and fully incorporating every single aspect especially the undesirable ones courageously.

I am many times writing something to a girl that I fancy, and after I sent the message I go back and read it again and I see all the things I can improve, I should delete or edit… Most of the time I leave it as it is, offering an off-ramp, a possibility to see this part of mine which can help them run away. Why walking on eggshells? I am what I am, and I will definitely continue to do or say things that are less than perfect. Why would I try to create a fake image about myself when I like people to see me as I am?, so in case they like me, they will like the real me, and not some fancy image that I created, and that I assume would be better than the real me.

This is where we are wrong and hence we keep unnecessary people in our proximity through the fake image we project, enforce, and we keep our true soul-family and potential suitable partners apart because of our fear of not being “perfect” or enough by failure to fully embracing our own expression.

I am enough! For myself at least, therefore in my life, and with my apparent flawed version that I dare to expose to the outside world now a miracle happens: People are reacting different to me, people who used to like me (the mask) are not anymore interested and people who are more genuine and are as unapologetically themselves as I am learning to be are attracted to me. It’s beautiful. Finally, not trying to please anyone, nor playing roles, not trying to save face or force a certain perception onto people, but radical self-acceptance.

If you haven’t tried it, I recommend you to give it a shot. Yes, you’ll lose some unnecessary acquaintances in the process, but you can’t lose what’s yours, so be happy, as a more real life is being shaped and you’re slowly removing unnecessary debris from the old idea of how you ought to be and you start discovering who you truly are.

Once you start loving yourself for who you are, others will be more open to accepting and loving you for that. Isn’t that amazing?

In order to become Something, unbecome everything

We tend to approach our growth and evolution in the same distorted way as an ambitious approach to achieve material wealth and success in the world. It is the very greed-fueled approach that seems to be so “normal”. Unfortunately you can’t use tools used in carpentry in a marble quarry. Therefore an old approach to understanding the depths of the Universe, mysteries and secrets beyond the apparent with our obsolete tools are going to be promoting an imaginary type of evolution which is only happening in our fantasy and ego.

It’s hard to convey in words what I realized within, but let the transmission of my realization reach out to all of you reading and may at some point reach the same realization if you haven’t done so already.

In order to realize things out of the box, we have to be out of the box. Exiting our “righteous” routines and ways to look at the experience are helping us to step out and have a broader understanding of the world and everything. The sailors on a sailboat can blow air into the sail as powerful as they can but the boat will stand unmoved regardless, as in order to exert the influence on that sail one has to be outside of the boat.

The path to “the out of the box” realm is by changing the way we see things, people and events. Whilst we still see those in very dual way, like: those are my friends and these are the enemies, you will still be blowing in your sail while standing on the boat.

Once we start stoicly accepting everything in our lives as ours to have and we stop perceiving people in a antagonistic way, realizing that everyone is a catalyst in our potential unfolding, life will start to look different, and even events and people will stop being so triggering for us.

It took me a lot of time to get here and I am still wondering if I can be able to mantain this level of perception tomorrow, as the Matrix tries to bring us back to its thralls but the heck with tomorrow, as it doesn’t exist.. I am here now and I can read this article tomorrow (if tomorrow comes), and I will remember today’s realization.

To come back to the title, when we stop wanting to become anything, and we start detangling from the bondage of all the ideas we have about ourselves, and everything else, practically unbecoming everything, the reality rushes in, and pompous words like “we are all One” really start to be perceived at their proper depth, as perceiving a level of reality that renders all previous ideas and concepts obsolete.

Everything that used to excite my imagination and look for in the future just stopped being appealing. I can and will still have some of those, but there’s no “need” or longing for any of those, a real level of detachment dawned onto me. And at first is so painful like you wake up and see all the fake, glitter and sparkling stuff falling off everything that we used to appreciate and look forward to getting, now showing its ugly, rusted and even unnecessary side.

If you are ready to abandon the pursuit of all those little things that used to give a meaning to life, then this is how it goes, but if not yet, no worries. I believe that this realization comes only after diving deep in the material plane (illusion) with awareness, when you realize that you are Sisyphus, and trying to push that boulder uphill will never work and you decide to just accept that hilltop without the boulder there. The boulder in this case is all that baggage of ideas and concepts that used to be the background ruler of everything happening in our lives.

When we stop wanting to be recognized as anything, and we allow people to misunderstand and wrongly assume that we are like this or like that, then we’ve walked a long way and our disillusionment is very close. There’s nothing to defend, or prove. Whoever is to get our true essence they will, whoever is not to grasp who and what are we about, they will not, regardless of us trying to convince or prove them otherwise.

When you unbecome all the ideas you had about yourself, then you become “I am”, and that is impossible to explain in words, you don’t need any quality attached to that “I am” as you are Everything and Nothing. That takes you out of the trap of souls: that makes you be in the world, yet not of the world; no longer wanting to save anyone or anything as you’ll start seeing the perfection of the world as it is, in its apparent imperfection.

Be flexible

The higher power doesn’t care about concepts and ideas, spiritual theories, or other human constructs of similar nature. Therefore, we shouldn’t try to defend any theory or understanding we may have reached, as in the end, they’re all incomplete and unsuitable to keep holding to.

That’s why people who are rigid and crystallize themselves around such concepts are unfortunately condemning themselves to stagnation and sorrow, unaware of the continuous movement and evolution of Consciousness. If we hold onto anything we get stuck and start antagonizing the very energy of Everything we strive to realize within.

When one has accepted any concept as immutable and undeniable, they have taken a break from the path of dissolution of what is not us. Therefore realize that any concept and understanding have their own expiry date and are just tools in the eternal evolution of the soul towards uniting with the Primary Source out of which we have all emerged.

Continuously embrace flexibility and observe when the time has arrived to abandon what has become obsolete. Allow yourself to flow with Life’s teaching without opposition and you might be getting into the roller-coaster that shakes and turns one upside down in its purpose of removing every single unnecessary particle and information that it’s not You.

All the bookish/ academic knowledge is a powerful barrier to the one that has acquired it to see deeper into the depths of their Being. But whoever has this huge baggage of true-at-a-very-basic-level information and dares to empty their bucket, which is filled with stale water, and fill it up with the continuous stream coming from within and from without, has almost crossed “the ocean of Samsara “! (illusion)

Even if you know much, know that everything is not applying at higher levels of consciousness and let go of the past information that brought you here, yet has to be abandoned for you to go forward, even though this linear description may be inaccurate.

Similarly with scriptural knowledge, when I started realizing the truth hidden in scriptures, I was so proud that I discovered the truth, but lo and behold, the truth eternally evolves; it’s not a static element on which to hold on. So I learned to feel the knowledge that comes from within, which at points contradicts scriptural knowledge, not because whoever wrote it was corrupt or wrong, but because it passed through several editing and translating processes that corrupted the message. Even if a conjunction is changed in a very important writing transmission, the full understanding may go amiss, and the essence that was intended to be transmitted might be lost, not to say that the lower consciousness of those interfering with the text in their translation, interpretation, and editing is somewhat staining the original message.

Therefore, keep an open mind and always ask yourself “What if the other is right and I might be wrong?! “ This is also a good way for those who are, in one way or another, experiencing any sort of mental issue, to step on the path of healing themselves. Once we allow humility to kick in and empty our bucket, we open ourselves for life to continuously replenish that water with a fresher and better one every day.

Let all fetters of “knowledge “come and go on their own accord and see yourself embarking on the path of quantum disillusionment and Unity.

About demons (part 2)

When we are young and ignorant, dark and evil humans and other entities can look scary and make us shake up with fear. But when we advance in courage and perseverance, patience and purity, we are growing and expanding, hence the big bad demons and monsters are becoming less and less scary and terrible, and along with this observation, fear vanishes and the old foes are canceled and removed not by antagonistic forceful removal, which perpetuates the violence, and keeps one in a loop, but by sheer growth and broadening of our perspective, the old foes become redundant and obsolete as the entirety of the old perception.

Picture yourself as a child, surrounded by all those enemies and demons and whatever you ever feared. Then see the fearful child growing and matching the opposing force’s stature, and now it looks like a fairer fight, yet see yourself expanding further, outgrowing all the foes until they look like tiny little insects. And you can argue that insects can still sting or bite. True, yet see yourself growing further until they are just microscopic harmless beings. And yet the growth is eternal, and nothing can touch you because there’s nothing else existing at that level of expansion but You. And you finally understand what and how it is and feels to be One with it All, and you see the vanity and futility of trying to grasp its meaning before the time is right. Now smile and rejoice! You have been revealed the secret.

What you fight you become. So don’t fight anything, but transmute, transcend and outgrow. Let your effulgence burn all the old and unnecessary. May all the ideas of separation be removed by the pure realization of who and what you are. Know yourself as limitless and boundless. You are Everything that ever existed and will ever be. Yes You! And I am telling that to you, because I am you.

Good and bad, angels and demons are interpretations and different aspects of the same thing. In reality, there is no separation and you can feel what I am saying because the real information will always click within you, so you know that all these separations are inexistent, created by the mind for enjoyment, like kids and their imagination creating an entire world out of toys and whatever else they have at hand for fun.

Demons and angels are the same wholesome existence taking a role in the creation of the biggest director that ever existed: You, the All, The primary Source, The One without beginning and end, and all the rest of the existence, and living beings and entities and the inert matter, which was never inert but playing a role in the greatest theatrical play from beyond times.

You might get the message and the image I portrayed as a reminder of what you already know, and still you might go back to old beliefs, your chores and responsibilities in this experience, seemingly forgetting it, but that powerful spark of your higher self, that knowledge and presence has been ignited and will remain with you and îs growing, dispeling whatever is not real.

Live your existence fully without refusing experience that life pushes onto you, check it and double check it to make sure it is Life itself pushing those experiences and then embrace them fully. But behind the curtain of the theater let there be always the awareness, as guardian of truth, and enjoy the game knowing that it is a giant game put into the scene for your growth, expansion and entertainment and remove the fear once and for all.

Letter from God

My dear,

I am That which you are too, only you don’t know yet. I am everything that ever existed and I have no end nor beginning. People call me many names but I need none since I am The All.

You are a self-writing script. When I allowed myself to split into many, I permitted all those pieces of myself to have their own free will, with all that implies, and I allowed them to go as far away from me as they wanted. Therefore, that apparent separation and identification with the body they chose to inhabit created their forgetfulness and limitedness.

I need no worship nor acknowledgement since I am everything and all. I would rather have you worship yourself my dear. Religions are made by people to control people, they have nothing to do with me, but I allow them because at incipient level of evoluution they can bring people to a straighter path, but as the child grows up to become an adult, he must abandon stories about monsters in their closets or under bed, just by realizing that there is nothing there. So, I am everywhere and I am everything, how can anyone mediate between us when we are not separate? Do you think you need to do anything to be my child and have my love? I love you exactly how you are, so you should love yourself too, because that’s the only way you will remove your veils of ignorance and and come back to Oneness.

Don’t ask me for things as your children don’t ask you for food, love, and other necessary things for sustenance and proper development. They’re just being provided. You may want things that you don’t need, therefore they’re not provided. You can still fight the natural order and try to get it regardless, but even when you get those things that are not supposed for you to have, the struggle to get there will be so great and the price so hefty that you might get disappointed. Try to flow with life, oppose as little as possible and everything that is yours will come to you. That doesn’t mean you shouldn’t do anything or become lazy, because if so, things will fail to come your way.

Everything and everyone is allowed to function and malfunction by their own free volition. But as a cell that doesn’t fulfill its appointed role in the system gets removed and expelled from it, as such the entire program of the existence in this plane applies to every single subatomic particle and Universes alike. Everything in this creation is moving and everything is subjected to creation and dissolution except I. Therefore, you being one with me, you are never at risk of harm or dissolution, but your material appearance is subjected to the natural laws, where everything is eternally changing. Embrace change and flow with life’s stream and you will experience what’s yours to have. I don’t promise you it will be easy or only pleasant, but it will empower you and strengthen you for your next adventure.

I am not guarding over the earth as I created rules and rulers, laws and enforcers and everything is abiding by those Divine laws. But rest assured that my awareness is omnipresent. Whilst you are limited in your understanding and ignorant as a child to the true reality of things, those rules and laws keep you bound to this plane, but when your veils are falling you will raise to a higher realm, where different laws and rules are in place.

There is free will, but there is retribution if the laws are not worked with. I empowered you with my full power but so far you are ignorant of it and limited by whatever living being you inhabit and by identifying yourself with it. Know that you have the power to free yourself from the fetters that bind you. Know that you are always free, but if you believe otherwise you create that by your own power and volition.

You created gods and idols hoping to appease me, yet I am just aware of you being a child in your limited understanding of everything and I am waiting for you to allow yourself to grow and see that you are already Everything and one with Everyone and you don’t need neither help nor saviors, no external tools whatsoever.

Why do you think that your archeology didn’t find flying machines from ancient times? Because people were powerful, aware of their rights and their powers, and unlimited in their capacity to do anything they wanted to. The more people distance themselves from that advanced state, the more they externalized their power outwards and removed their own. They created religions and dogma, they created moving and flying machines when for them there was no space-time boundary and were free to roam everywhere. Wake up and see for yourselves.

The greater the power you have, the greater your responsibility. When you are an ignorant child you are careless and responsibility-free, but adults are responsible for you instead. And you are responsible when you start waking up, responsible for your body you inhabit, and for the nature you interact with. Know that there is no inert matter, everything is living, since everything is Me. Respect and love yourself and you’ll be implicitly respect and love me and my infinite forms I take and we should be One. We are already that but your childish ignorance and limiting beliefs are keeping you forcefully separated.

Everything is limited and separated, consciousness that grows into Oneness, into The Consciousness. I love each and every one of you and I make no difference regardless of what you chose to do or not. Become like that and one day you will know Me, from within and then you will see everything that you missed.

Earth is a living being that you are part of. Earth is a small cell inside my infinite body, like a tiny little cell in your body. As above so below! I left you with all my power, tools, and knowledge, now remove the childlike vision and become a grown-up. You are responsible for everything you are aware of, as I am responsible for everything that exists. If you don’t try to take things out of context, you will realize that everything is always perfect in its apparent imperfection. Relax and smile and grow from being my child to be again One with the void and with the creation, One with the Primordial Source of Everything.

We are One!

Enough

Has anyone wondered how does it feel to reach a wider perspective while in the human body? Some may assume it should look glorious, majestic and flamboyant. That’s why they miss it. Everyone expects shine and sparkle and glory, yet it feels like vain. It feels like disappointment from the human perspective.

That’s why we can’t really see it. The diamond is in the dirt, light comes from the primordial darkness, which is neither this nor that. It is in the monotonous and boring layers of life that we’ll find that peace and fulfillment we’re searching for. By accepting the disappointment, and not seeing it anymore as such we will find Love. By seeing it in people and actions where everyone else sees something else, we’ll see ourselves as Love without a doubt and it will feel enough.

Oh, it feels so lonely and painful at first, but the background is always made of peace and quiet. I am no longer afraid of death and neither afraid of life. I am no longer striving for happiness since I have found it by embracing its opposite. If I no longer want anything, how would I taste disappointment?

My life all of the sudden makes sense in its apparent lack of it. I am no longer running and neither looking for anything. Even a curse might be turned into a blessing when you are accepting life just as it comes, with least interference yet doing everything that is to be done. Everything is part of the great cosmic play that emerged from within us.

I won’t be afraid no more, even if when I wake up tomorrow, the poison ivy of the world would have already brought me back, even though it happens every day. We are daily brought back to the very matrix, and to the previous understanding that kept us bound. Bound to a certain outcome and hopes for “something that is good”, back to the thralls of illusion.

In me now is the blooming truth that grows and that expands eternally, once revealed, never to be covered. And each time I will get back to the illusion, its power weakens, a scary tsunami in a painting on the wall that fails to hurt anyone but the fearful, hence prepare your trust to life and in yourself, let’s all go back to knowing who and what we are.

I am diving in pain and suffering and even vice, yet I am not stained by any, I see it all for what it is. No power should prevail over the one who is aware, but his only power of the Self. The wholesomeness that we project and expect as a reward for the struggle, it doesn’t feel like what we would expect to feel. Yet it is a reward in itself. It’s a brand new understanding and perception, that enriches us and pushes us forth.

We’re all projecting positivity onto it and therefore we are missing it. But once we’ve seen it, we will know. Things that used to be so heavy, are just mild jokes that faded throughout clouds of time and space.

I have lost everything so many times: people, things and even timeliness, yet I am past that, although it may look like I am not. A cuckoo bird for everyone else, or maybe a Phoenix bird born again out of its remaining ashes for myself. I look the same, yet I am not, and I am not scared of what is not, since I am all, and all is One. I am indeed my God, the one that created everything for my experience and sport, and you’re your own God and yet we’re all One. Do you see how what seems antagonistic and opposing in fact is One and nothing else exists but That?

Through pain and loss and sorrow I have discovered joy, but joy that does not look like joy but rather emptiness, an emptiness that’s full of everything and nothing, a wholesomeness that you will feel once you had your share of everything, and you will understand that running for something, chasing a selfish goal, is taking you far away from Self. So Self is found where you least expect it, within and in all the other places also, under the most boring stone of disappointment, under the unfulfilled desire when you realize its vanity.

Enough with running, enough with chasing, I have nothing to achieve or to repair since everything is right and it is “good”, even the worst of the worst is nothing but That, yourself and nothing else but That encapsulating all, a movie that now looks old in black and white, that was created for your entertainment and experience and at points you took it for real. Let us wake up and head towards Reality .