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When the silence talks

Throughout the years of my life, I have had experiences that could have easily been spread over several lifetimes, such concentrated lessons in a succession of events that seemed at points to be the very end of the experience in this body. That’s how strongly their pain has been felt.

An external observer would be unable to assess the true vastness and range of experiences, as many of the recent events that touched me were mostly internal battles, inner struggles and processes of transmutation. I am amazed by the fact that I am still here, back again from my inner infernal places, able to write about it all.

I have risen and fallen so many times. I have reached heights of understanding and realizations that I am still surprised I managed to grasp, and at points I was deprived (I forgot) of all that knowledge and wisdom, and even been pushed again to plunge so deep back into the very depths of my shadowy self, to the very abyss that we are all trying to pretend it exists not within our hidden chambers. And yet here I am, all scarred, dusty and almost lost, found again with a true smile on my face and unlimited gratitude to the Grace of the Eternal that manifested through people, events and the entire movements of the gears of Life and its incredible stories and twists.

Such an amazing game of hide and seek we’re playing with ourselves. Such a great example of the living paradox that is a Soul exploring the lower material plane, such a trap, so cunning this construct and so incredibly booby-trapped at every step. Everything yells for our attention and energy, everything is doing its utmost to steal some juice(energy) from us one way or another, to keep us blind, stumbling in mediocrity. It’s indeed a war, but not with any external forces, but with internal self-created demons who are fighting to preserve and defend the status quo, to try and ensure the survival of the old paradigms of control and their self-preservation.

I am living a true miracle, but only now do I recognize it as such. My old self would scoff and roll his eyes in disbelief and hopelessness, as probably the reaction of the majority of people who ever met me. My “miracle” may look like nothing or even like a scary thing for the unadvised. The simplicity of it all is almost impossible to grasp by the overcomplicated reasoning mechanism of the limited mind bound to old concepts. Even I have fallen back to old paradigms so many times, unable to hold onto the realization of the truth.

I am! I truly feel that these 2 words and 3 letters are all encompassing, like the primordial particle out of which everything sprouted out. “I am” is realized in silence.

The silence and its power are often times misunderstood and disregarded. Yet when you dare facing it, embracing it, it’ll talk to you and you will Know! When you embrace the “boredom” of staying in silence with yourself, the whole Universe will reveal its hidden song, the song of Life and Love, the song that reminds us that we are One, that we are enough, and it is in every single moment of Now that we are always wholesome and perfect.

When we embrace what we used to run away from, we will be able to get all the missing parts of the puzzle that we were searching for only in our comfort zone. Such a fallacy, to look for knowledge and wisdom only where we expect it to be, as silly as being on a bridge and losing a precious object in the river, yet deciding to look for it on the bridge to avoid wetting our clothes.

Truth and pieces of it are found in the places that we least expect. One of this “places” is the silence. What’s ignored, and disregarded, has hidden in it some juice that can’t be found elsewhere. Dare to turn each stone in your life upside down with courage and determination, and you will hear the silence that speaks, that sings and that guides.

My deepest gratitude to my Guru and the entire Higher realm that protects and guides us!

Falsely enlighten people or second graders

I remember first grade at school, shy, incredulous, hopeful, happy, fearful, and all these mixed feelings, and when I finished it, I was like: “Wow, you’re almost a second grader”, and I was somewhat proud of myself, not that it was complicated or something like that, but because we are taught to be hunting and looking for the next level at all time.

When school started again and we were in the schoolyard and we observed those little ones about to start their first grade, wow we felt good, like we weren’t anymore the youngest and the dumbest. I remember that feeling and I identify that same feeling in the great majority of the so-called gurus, healers, self-denominated star seeds, teachers  or who knows what other names they call themselves. Yes, I kid you not, the greatest majority haven’t even finished the second grade, but they feel as they touched the greatness, and that they’re the king of the world like Leonardo in Titanic.

Some people are so deep into their karmic crap, so deep into their academic and bookish knowledge that as soon as they perceive there might be a slight better vibe about themselves, they get infatuated with themselves, drunk with their newly discovered charisma and limited power that they managed to get, and they decide that to be the enlightenment or they’ve reached some sort of Magnus Opus of their existence.

By believing that, they have chosen illusion and self-gratification, they become the blind that leads the blind to the precipice, not knowing that they have barely scratched the surface of the iceberg and most likely they will try to squeeze some money out of that niche they discovered.

Why is that happening? You may ask. Because their motives are not genuine, their motives for starting the whole thing were desire for powers, luxury, money, partnership/pair, fame, and charisma and when they were given a glimpse of the “second grade”, they decided that they are great and now they can teach people how to get enlighten themselves, occupying a niche in the so-called spiritual market, getting a piece of the cheese, while rendering them (the people they “teach”) useless, astray and attached to their being, and projected outside of themselves, after giving away their material possessions, and energy, making them filthy rich while they, the students are becoming poor and disempowered. Could that be right?

So, this army of thieves  self-called masters couldn’t have reached more than the second grade of this eternal school of souls, because they lacked flexibility, patience, and humbleness! (please observe them and see for yourself), and they are never empowering their students, as it should be, like a good father giving the boy a rifle and teaching him how to hunt, but they give predigested “food” ideas of the past, or words from old scriptures that they themselves fail to assimilate on a deeper basis and some logical basic one. They give distant promises of “enlightenment” where they maintain their upper hand and control over their “students”. So they will create people who are dependent on their being and personality and they will create a power distance so that will falsely create more value about themselves.

Some are not only ignorant second graders but malignant beings that were long ago captured and possessed by their demons of greed, lust, and hunger for power and they have become, some knowingly, some unknowingly tools of the Matrix to keep people captured here.

But, everything comes our way by the Divine Mandate of the power of resonance, we attract what we are! If you stumbled on some of these second graders and you gave them your money and your power, retract your power and be happy you managed to see the illusion and the trickery, know that as a sign of life that whatever you had to experience or pay for, was paid, otherwise you will be still blind and veiled and you will be feeding that entity’s charisma with your energy and money.

Each one of the people who have a God complex or assume that are great and they’ve reached the pinnacle of their evolution are going to be revealed by life that they are not so, they are going to be shown that they are not what they claim or believe themselves to be, they are going to be deprived of part or the entirety of their powers so they can easily know that they are not true leaders, healers nor gurus, they will be forced to see their limitedness and ignorance. This is their biggest test, where they choose their belonging to which side, because until here, although wrong and misleading, they were more or less ignorant of that reality, but now if they see that they are just second graders and pretend themselves to be masters and doctors, this is when they have truly chosen the path of deceit that takes them further and further away from truth, and that which every soul is searching, which is coming back home, to the primordial Source where we all left wandering and uniting with That being one with All and all with One!

Some will compensate for the loss of power, or charisma through complicated and sick magical sacrifices and ceremonies that will just dig their hole deeper and deeper.

It’s a very common occurrence with young souls to fall into the traps of power, fame, lust, riches, and creating or being part of cults, from the simple fact that old souls probably already experienced several times in their past lives by being both fake teachers and healers and their students. So I am not trying to diminish anyone, let everyone have their own chosen experience, because every single individual soul is following their hidden and unique path back to the Source, whether they are aware of it or not. Like Thoth said:  (I am paraphrasing) “look at them all and see children in different stages of their growth, as you were once a child yourself”.

In reality there’s nothing to judge or be afraid of, because even the naughtiest of the children, is brought by life itself back to the path of maturity, and knowing now that the more we advance through schools and grades, there’s still infinity and an eternal inner and outer expansion ahead of us. This realization should keep us humble and continue our walking aware that there’s no true end on this path of evolution and no matter what grade we’ve passed and how learned we’ve become, on the immediate higher plane of experience all the knowledge we have has to be abandoned for being obsolete for that place, so one of the best things we can do is to unlearn everything, especially mainstream ideas or we can not empty our vessel to receive better information on the next level since you can’t build a good, strong house on the foundation of the old straw hut.

There are very few that are genuine and that are sharing their true spiritual effulgence with the world, but they are mostly unknown, because the true knowledge and spiritual power can’t be a thing recognized by masses of people. Meeting one of them is a confirmation of the Eternal Grace being present in our lives. So I am very grateful for those who I met throughout my life and helped me in any form or manner.

Vasanas

Our lives are under the spell of past deeds and old patterns, crystallized into the so-called Vasanas which are patterns of behavior, predispositions, karmic and emotional responses. Seeking pleasure, running from pains, laziness, promiscuity, desire for/and addiction to objects, to people and emotions, craving for happiness, desire to get rid of pain through escapism and blaming others rather than taking full responsibility for own actions or reactions and events that happen to us. All these are the effects of Vasanas. These are all boulders chained to our ankles, not allowing us to walk freely, neither allowing us to see things for what they truly are.

Reading scriptures or writings of people on the path or writings of people that have achieved liberation are understood by each individual very differently. According to the stage of their evolution everyone has a certain mind setting and heart opening to understand certain aspects of the writings and the message embedded in them by the authors. Some very advanced books or writings may seem like gibberish, or boring, even unintelligible or of a too abstract nature… probably because they may be read too soon or the person is yet too engrossed in Samsara (the “material” world). But no worries, as the child is first learning to stand and only afterwards to walk, in the same way we are unable to force things to go faster, ahead of their time or in a different sequence rather than that which is suitable for us. But the intelligence of Life itself is beyond our comprehension at the moment. 

At first we are all just hungry for information. Some good information was coming mixed with the unnecessary one, but it’s all part of the learning process. So at first the desire for true knowledge is aroused, and I say without fear of mistaking that this is the very beginning of the Path. We may “waste time” reading books or articles, watching YouTube videos which maybe have no relevance now maybe, but it’s just a piece of the whole puzzle. How can you appreciate the Truth if you don’t notice (first) the illusion? How can you notice the illusion before being deeply immersed into it? How can we understand what the Vasanas are unless we allow them(at first) to spin us around and show us what is NOT the way. How sturdy will we be on the path of truth if we haven’t seen the lie?

Everything is correct in each moment of Now. We are in the perfect place, perfect timing and perfect circumstances. One may argue that it’s not so. I am not saying from the “normality” point of view, I am saying from a spiritual perspective. If we were even able to imagine it, we would have been There already.

How can you tell in the midst of drama (if?) what happens has a true and beneficial potential for your growth, when all we can see and feel is just pain and the suffering that makes us forget ourselves?

If in these moments of distress, we are able to withstand the old urges of acting or reacting, Vasanas lose their power onto us. Slowly, slowly,by not taking over and over again [the] same steps as we did in the past, we overcome and transcend old patterns of behavior which are obstructing our free flow on the road to Self-Mastery.

Do you think that you can achieve better results in applying once again the same “remedy” that was proven inefficient for lifetimes? If you try to solve the problems with the same mathematics, you will invariably get the same distorted result and fail again and again. If you really want to evolve, to break through all your limitations, find [a] solution “outside of the box”, outside of the comfort zone that you were using as a refuge each time you were in trouble. Don’t use the limited, logical mind in those situations, it’s going to be taking you back into the same loops that you are trying to escape. Take the leap of faith, jump into the unknown and know that you are protected by Life itself and even more, if you have found the true Guru, that lineage is going to be protecting you. Trust, surrender, jump. Mind(rudimentary/logical/unrefined mind), Ego, Vasanas, all are old friends that you have to part with for a chance to a new beginning, otherwise old friends are enforcing old habits and the old habits are pulling us back to the perpetual loop of mediocrity and suffering.

Surrender yourself to the Guru. Guru is Shiva. Remember Guru in time[s] of distress and forget everything else, and Guru will save you. Trust beyond trust, put all your life force and dedication into the process, because there’s no other more important endeavor than to uprooting the old, in order to be born anew. Lose all the attachments for objects, for enjoyment or for people whoever they may be, or you’ll be spinning in the big centrifuge of Samsara. Know what is eternal and what is illusion and choose wisely.

The blissful equinamous Being is eternal, everything else is illusion. Neutrality is the point of resting of a pendulum. So try to bring yourself to rest in the 0 point of existence. Stay in the 0 point of neither suffering nor enjoying, neither good nor bad, although people from outside may interpret the situation you’re in as good or bad, yet you are there without interpretation, without story. That’s the eternal chalice of Immortality, the Holy Grail of Everything, the Ultimate, the Absolute, Brahman. That is the point of no return, the point of enlightenment. We are already There, yet we’re unaware, so don’t even try to use your mind, desire and ambition to reach there, because mind, desire and ambition are again a very smart trick to pull you back into the Matrix. Establish yourself in a natural moral code, remove logic and logical analysis because they are Vasanas, just surrender to life and remain untarnished by whatever you are experiencing. Be free from cravings, desires, ambition, comparison, addictions and thoughts. Experience whatever comes in neutrality and you have freed yourself from the shackles of illusion. Remember that one of the Sun’s rays, by reaching out to a very remote and dark area, enlightens and warms up that area, transforming it, bringing it to life. The same with the Guru; once you open your heart and soul to the Guru’s Grace, you will transform as the arid dark and icy land that was hidden from the sun’s face becomes a prosperous, warm and fertile land.

There are good and bad predispositions. The good ones are the achievements from past lives, beneficial programs, high moral standards, imprinted into the soul to counter the effects of the bad ones. Eventually they are all to be transcended into pure Beingness, devoid of characteristics or qualities.

May all the readers have the chance to discover the true Guru within that will create the possibility of meeting the outer Guru and once you find the True Guru, may you never let go of that True Guru’s Lotus feet, because they are your Divine link to finding your inner Divinity.

Contemplating about this experience

All the teachers, scriptures, knowledge, the Guru and any other way to disentangle ourselves from what’s not real, converge eventually in the very Essence, the Source out of which everything sprung out, the mother hen calling back her chicks.

There is something that tricks us, it’s us, our very (lower-) mind, that we are constantly falling for,.. thoughts and feelings that are not even ours. They’re constantly demanding something, wanting something, continuously judging , defending, fighting, struggling for something or someone. That is definitely not us, it’s a shadow of darkness that plays our roles and because we are too lazy and ignorant to take control we let it rule us. It’s the thing called the ego, the shadow self, the lower mind, the demon within.

Our entire life we’re just watching this entity tricking us into a belief that it is our true self, and we fall for its needs, desires and suggestions, diving deeper and deeper into the darkness, falling more and more into the pit of forgetfulness, surrendering more and more our free will and allowing this entity full control over our bodies, lives and destinies.

Our true essence is the very Light that illuminates the sun, the spark of fire that ignited all fire, the Primordial One, the Eternal and Absolute One. Since That is within us, is there anything else worth fighting for, looking for, craving for, other than finding and remembering our true Essence?

Is there any worth in ephemeral pursuits that even when acquired instead of satiating us, they’re only igniting more and more desires and push us for more struggle and misery? Isn’t it obvious that we are just a squirrel running in a wheel, stupidly believing that will reach some distant point by running faster?

Desires promote more desires and fulfillment of one will open several other doors for other desires to be created. Altruistic desires are the first level to becoming selfless and getting rid of the fetters of the shadow self. Eventually all desires should subside, and the identification with “me” and “mine” should dizolve too, then we open up to realizing that we are not limited to this ephemeral body that we’re inhabiting, but we are indeed infinite and everything is within us.

When we lose the Path

So many times I thought I got lost, that I lost my path to remembering who and what I truly am, yet in fact I was still on it, but my guilt and shame for “going astray” or going back to old paths of perdition, almost blocked my way back to it (the Path”).

There is no losing the path at all, it’s all just the eternal swinging pendulum of life pushing one back and forth, up and down,in and out of balance. Know that the ripe ones observe this movement, and the change of moods and tendencies, and are choosing the right action or not to action, without letting themselves to be influenced by the eternal pendular movement of everything in this paradigm. 

Regain your faith and know that you didn’t do anything wrong, you just allowed yourself to be dragged back for a while by the force of the “low tide”, but you can easily step out of it whenever you desire to do so. And believe it or not, all of the previous Masters and realized beings have experienced the same issue and eventually overcome it. As they say: “the winner is just a loser who kept on trying” . 

The law of free will is a divine mandate that no one can oppose or go against without huge repercussions. Therefore be certain that you know what you want and make sure you don’t trespass other’s freewill either. Many times we’re tricked by entities into guilt and shame and we accept “punishments” in all ways possible, believing that we deserve them. Hence we’re bound by our own free will, smartly manipulated by the forces of darkness, so eventually there’s no one punishing or inflicting harm to ourselves but ourselves. 

Be aware of your power and become conscious of it, take full responsibility for everything and become a representative of the Divine Law instead of being a “victim” of it. The ignorant is like a leaf in the wind, moved from here to there by lack of proper higher vision and willpower. 

We are always on the right path. The elliptical path starts from the Source, goes far away from it and then, while being quite afar, the remembrance of that spark that left the Source, and memory of its true essence is reignited, the longing for returning to the Light of its Being is revived, and the Path is initiated. Consequently the long road back home starts. 

One of the hermetic principles declares: “as above so below”, So as, planets, stars, and even universes have their elliptical movements of going far and coming back, similarly, we souls are no different. Regardless of how far into the darkness a soul might have went, eventually it will steer back towards the source of everything, as another proof that there is nothing but Light out of which everything sprung out. 

Like great Master Tilopa said to his student Naropa:

“The darkness of a thousand eons cannot dim the brilliant radiance that is the essence of the sun.  Likewise, eons of samsara  cannot dim the sheer clarity that is the essence of the mind.” 

So all we need to remember is that purity of our essence that cannot be stained by anything we do. Although that shouldn’t be used as an excuse to act immoral or in any way that might be harmful or detrimental to other souls. The coming back path comes with huge responsibility. Now you know what needs to be done. We know the divine laws that we should abide by, now the ignorance of the child has been dispelled, therefore we have to embrace the responsibility of an adult and start shining in the world, silently, humbly, as the sun shines over weeds and good plants alike without need for anyone’s acknowledgement or praise, just doing the needful. . 

Start giving in a selfless way, know all existence to be one with The All, embrace It as your own being and dwell in It forever. 

It’s great that even when one goes unknowingly to “the other side”, falling again into old patterns of behavior, there’s always a stretched hand to pull one back onto the path of Truth, be it the Grace of the Guru, the call of the spiritual lineage, or whichever way it may manifest… all one needs is to be open, to listen, and nature itself will deliver one way or another the redemption message for the one that has ears to receive. 

The weak will fall into victimization, into believing that there’s no return, hence wasting another incarnation as probably happened previously, but the one that reached maturity will once again raise from the ground, dust their clothes and walk on the eternal steep road ahead that eventually unites one with its Source. 

Face yourself!

A beautiful, scented flower is not yelling: “Here,.. I am here! “, but it’s discovered and recognized by its beauty and its beautifully scented emanation. As such, truly evolved beings share their Being with everyone and everything they come into contact with, selflessly and without announcing anything.

Daily we might be touched by the Grace of such beings, but because they are not looking for recognition, the touch of Grace does its work in silence. As long as we look for approval and confirmation, we are just played by the ego, which might play this time a “saintly” role and might easily pass for the (higher) Self, yet it is not.

Best way to see if we are selfless and humble and not looking for recognition is to take a bill of 50 or 100 euros/dollars or according to the country we live in (a substantial amount of money or at least a big bill) and put it inside someone’s pocket or purse or hide it in their house without being seen, and leave without knowing if that person is going to find it, if they are grateful or not, or anything else, and without even thinking about it anymore… It’s a good test to humble ourselves down…and check and realize that we have a hidden desire to be recognized and praised or acknowledged.

This is one way of checking our ego level and training the mind not to attach itself anymore to the outcomes of our actions. When mind detaches itself from desires, objects, people, expectations and entitlements, the ego wanes more and more… And when the little ego is no longer there (in full control of us) , the true realization of “I am” dawns on us!

Truly evolved beings attract through their simplicity, humbleness, peaceful attitude, and their inner light shines silently touching everyone and everything they come in proximity with. Because they are not bound to the fake society morale or conditionings, because they are truly free, as no in-bondage person can be that freedom unless they have tasted it, they are mostly misinterpreted and misunderstood , yet they are not trying to prove their point, neither imposing themselves because they understand the perfection of everything in its apparent imperfection.

The higher the vibration level of one person is, more chances that he/she will be attracted to that Highly evolved (maybe self-realized) being because of the innate desire to be free that is embedded in all humans. But the higher that Being radiates, the more the chances of the “less evolved” one to have to face all the inner crap, demons and distortions that they’re having within.

“Normal” people (not realized yet) are similar to the principle of the communicating vessels, continuously exchanging energies with the environment and other beings. So when two people closely interact with each other they are going to be exchanging, and regulating their vibration exactly like communicating vessels do; so if one is more malefic than the other it will lower the vibration of the second one and implicitly the malefic one will be slightly influenced to the better by the other.

The deeper(closer) the connection the more acute is the transfer of energy. This is the reason why sexual intimacy has the potential to be highly detrimental when based on superficial carnal desire, but it can be a very good tool for those who are aware, like-minded and with similar interests and where there’s mutual respect and attraction mostly soul to soul rather than body to body (only), although the superficial bodily attraction might be there too as a confirmation of compatibility on all the planes.

Aware sexual intercourse should be the culmination of the beings compatibility, a merging of their existences on all plans, physical, mental and spiritual. This is the moment when the true soul’s alchemy will activate and become a tool in their spiritual quest towards rediscovery of their true Selves. Nowadays the whole narrative of the Matrix pushes people to engage and crave in depraved sexuality, where little or no true connection is present, hence instead of the sexuality becoming a wonderful tool in self-realization, it becomes an obstacle and a way to engross beings more and more into ignorance.

On the extreme part of the range of vibrations, highly vibrant persons are no longer affected by the low vibration ones, or the influence is insignificant, or immediately observed and consciously discarded. Same with a very malefic one, it’s highly unlikely that it will be affected positively significantly by the higher vibration.

So when a person that is in between, neither too bad nor enlightened meets one of the radiant beings, they will need to face all their inner dirt, traumas, weaknesses and distortions they have, because that pure light emanated by the evolved one will bring all that hidden negativity to the surface. Therefore the real Path within requires high level of courage, because we will need to face and accept (that inside us we have) all this darkness and very old negativity that we carry with us throughout eons.

Chintamani Gem

We are not only living in God, in the Absolute, filling us with it from within and enveloping us and the world from without, but we are continuously exposed to the true liberating knowledge which lays hidden in plain sight, like the sun is always visible in the sky yet we fail to understand its true meaning, nature and existence.

Once we take the hard path to cleaning our being of the unnecessary, Grace makes its appearance and removes certain veils or obstacles just enough to make the journey a bit less than impossible. By cultivating our inner purity, selflessness, patience and humbleness the Knowledge reveals to ourselves and we remain in awe how simple and close to us all was the real information for the whole time. Things that in the past seemed to be gibberish or too abstract for us to even “waste our time” with, are shining bright into our minds and hearts and the true Existence is slowly revealing itself to us.


I am very grateful for all the great people that I have met and for all the amazing scriptures that I got my hands on, it was all made possible by the Grace of the Absolute. There is no mistake anymore. All the “mistakes” and “errors” are but part of the “Plan”, part of the great Revelation of the Almighty. It is so awesome that I have tears in my eyes while writing this and I hope that many of you will reach this point of recognizing the Grace of God in our lives. Many people felt it, wrote poems, prose, and sang their joy, the joy of remembering, the joy of knowing. Through the ocean of writings that exist in this world, there are many gems written by the very Spirit that permeates us all. They are but impossible to find for the unripe soul, even if the scriptures would be in his/her library, they would fail to release their Light (True knowledge) until the time is right and that person proved its worthiness. It is like a story I read about a seeker that found the most valuable and priceless gem in the world and because he didn’t believe himself to be finding that easy such a priceless object although he was looking for it, he threw away his finding and he continued searching for something that he already had in his hands. Eventually he found some bracelet made of shells and colored glass and he was happy to have found that, assuming that that must have been the Gem of gems that he was looking for, yet it was just a trinket.
I will explain this parable, because it is similar to the spiritual seekers, who by Grace may have touched the true Knowledge and / or got to meet the true preceptor but because their mind wants complication, methods and concepts, and because they fail to understand that the true preceptor will not come or look as in their projections and expectations, so they have thrown away their own priceless Diamond and exchange it for many colored pieces of glass and shell shards – fake gurus that have shining attire and mesmerizing talks and shows.

The true seeker, once he finds that gem, puts it inside their heart and mind and hold to that, knowing that it’s by merit and Grace that they were allowed to find that Gem and they will hold it for the rest of their existence very dear to them, knowing that that luminous Gem is their chance to transform into a Gem themselves.

This true Gem, the Chintamani Gem, is getting into one’s life to empower that being (the seeker) into becoming a true effulgence of the Divine Light themselves. The fake ones want the entire shine for their own, disempowering the prey just like spiders catch their prey in their snares and keep them alive to suck their vital energy. Their words may say otherwise yet their actions speak for themselves.

Hope, the biggest trap! 

I am sure that the majority of you reading this article are going to scratch your heads in disbelief. So I will try to explain my perspective. 

When we hope that something is going to happen in a certain way or the outcome of our actions is going to be the one that we want, we pave the way to diving deeper into the illusion and into misery. 

Before taking birth into this life we’ve seen the things that we are supposed to experience and we agreed with them, believing that it will be like a walk in the park. Unfortunately the problem is that when the soul is not being bound to any physical vehicle (body) we can’t realize how much the pain would be felt in the body, how overwhelmed we might become by emotional pain and traumas, and we’re also unaware of how addictive is everything in this experience. Besides being out of the body means a certain higher level of freedom and a clearer vision of the world and the game that we are about to enter. Most of us fail over and over, because of hope doubled by ignorance. We are just unable to accept things the way they are. We are unable to realize that whatever happens is correct for us and there’s a big realization behind any trauma and “bad” or unpleasant event. I know this myself, yet it’s so hard to break free out of this extremely well-built game we’re living in. 

Hope is the very desire to control, to manipulate life events towards a desired outcome. But what if being in this game with almost no awareness about who we truly are, and what is the purpose of us being here is impossible to grasp? What if surrendering to life and its flow is all we can do? It’s scary, because people are afraid, afraid of the unknown, afraid of events that will shake their lives. But if you are ready to go whatever way life comes, with a smile on your face, then you are definitely on the right track.

Hope is emphasized over and over again by mass-media, and the society in general. It is the warden of our invisible walls jail that we’re inhabiting. Hope is our very strong will and imposition onto ourselves. “I hope that I will get that job”, “I hope that my wife will love me forever “… The silly thing is that we are attached to things and people and by hoping, praying for something to happen we are influencing the outcome of life how it was planned before incarnating this time and we are missing the point hundreds and thousands of lives. 

“I hope that I will get that nice job” . Maybe it’s a dead-end for you, maybe it’s some warm unnecessary stop from the evolution. Maybe by concentrating our creative energy towards achieving that goal we’re missing something better. 

“I hope that my wife and I will be forever together”. 

We are just trying to stop the time and it’s just a laughable idea. What if you don’t project any willpower, you are happy with the wife you are having, yet you are not dependent and you accept that nothing lasts forever and you are surrendering to life and the events that you chose to experience. I am not advocating lacking of vision or promiscuity,.. The things that I am talking about are subtle, they’re happening under the gross aspect of life, so we can enjoy life and its beauty, but recommended not to attach to anything due to the continuously changing characteristic of life.

 We are powerful(without knowing it) and this is the downfall in the illusion, because we are trying to manipulate the game to achieve some minor comfort and we forget that our plan was to experience and expand our limited perspective about life. By praying or hoping towards achieving something, we are lost, we wasted another life and it will happen so until we relax and accept the ride (life) as it comes, without hopes or desire to manipulate events or the outcomes. 

Now there’s this coronavirus fear all over. This makes us automatically infected by hope. We hope that we are not going to catch the virus, or if we catch it we hope that we won’t die,.. The illusion is getting stronger and stronger in its grip by hope. Accept the “reality” as it is, but employ your maximum awareness and flow in life with awareness. If so, you will always know what to do in a certain situation, you will know if and what to do, if and what to say. Just accept this ever-changing nature of life and your existential drama will fail to shake you.

 Hope carries with it desire for a better life, better future, preservation of what we have.. Again attachment. By not being able to fully accept what we’re going through and what we are experiencing at the moment, we are blocking the possibility towards extracting the right essence, the right knowledge out of the situation so we are doomed to repeat the process in this life or the next until the lesson is learned and the true knowledge is extracted and imprinted into our beings. 

Give up hope and build inside yourself acceptance towards whatever life brings and once in many thousands of lives we will start realizing our being and the purpose of our existence in here. 

The “Out of the box” realm

We are scared when one exposes the way life functions and doesn’t promise anything, knowing the unpredictability of life, not knowing that maybe that’s our best chance to be on the path of truth and surrender to what life has for us.

We are mostly afraid to step out of the box, to make decisions that may throw us into life, we are lacking the courage to make steps that might take us onto the path of discovering ourselves and the truth about this “reality”. We are very “conservative”. We like to preserve old beliefs which look safer, which are keeping our understanding (the misconception?) of the world together. Because we know that if we choose to step out of the box, there’s a lot of responsibility, a lot of work with one self and not so many people nowadays are even ready to accept that things might be this way.

It’s so easy to go to the old self, the old patterns of behavior.. So easy because it’s something we know, something familiar. It’s the very Stockholm syndrome manifested in our lives, captive in the hands of self-imposed fear and the ego. It’s a decision to fall for laziness and “comfort” since the other choice implies disillusionment; waking up realizing that we know nothing; implies accepting things that we prefer to pretend that are inexistent. That doesn’t mean that stepping outside is only bad, or there’s no comfort. On the contrary, it may become smoother and better with time, because after the negative is failing to deviate us from the path of self-discovery, the positive current is taking over, one of the last trick of the illusion to keep us captive. 

There’s always a risk on this path, the risk of returning to the old self. I still risk going back sometimes to that “safe zone” which is the forgetfulness of the soul. It is a constant struggle, a battle of our Higher Self and the old self, a battle in which the prize is either remembrance of who and what we are, or the sweet forgetfulness. It is exactly like in the first movie of Matrix when the traitor from Neo’s crew chose to betray his team and live in a fantasy world knowing that everything was experiencing was just fake, yet it was so appealing to him and the reality was so cruel so full of responsibility and work. Same with us, we are constantly exposed to the right information yet we are very afraid, we want to stay longer in the sweet and warm pool of oblivion, because we know that outside might be chilling, might be work that we have to do, might be that our entire system of values will be turned upside down and I get it, it’s a very hard perspective to face for those who are not ready.

I have been there. I delayed 20 years my “stepping out of the box” because I wanted to explore the illusion, to dive deep into it, and almost got consumed by it. Probably it wasn’t the time at that point so I don’t go back trying to blame myself that I should have started earlier, how I may be tempted to do. 

I know your doubts and your fears because you are me. I had them. I still have some, yet much less than previously. I am still caught off-guard, but I blocked myself outside of the box, knowing that there was a risk of going back in moments of weakness. So I drew a line under which I am unable to go anymore, I can’t go under a certain level and I am very grateful for the Grace that is with me in form of dear friends and Beings in my life,and in the form of books and information that I come across, that enforces and reinforces the already existing decision.

People and things are coming and going with huge speed in our lives, once “out of the box”, we should realize the futility of clinging or hoping, controlling or pushing a certain agenda onto anyone… We have to respect their choices and wish them all the best.

Be the “out of the box” being and you will be one of the very few who are doing it. By doing this courageous move, you will inspire others, without preaching without teaching, just by automatically spreading this beautiful scent of freedom through your very existence.

Everything in due time

Everything comes in due time! There’s no bigger truth then that. You can try, you can run, you can pay or you can try to bribe, to force something to come to you, yet unless is the right time, that thing will stubbornly refuse you. Indeed you can be prepared, you can have a higher Vision which you need to pursue, but until the right time is there nothing much will happen. That’s why there is nowhere to rush, nothing to be afraid or worried about because whatever it is to be experienced you will definitely experience. And the only thing that you can do is surrender yourself to the flow of life. Life will never take you on the path that you think is going to take you, and if you hope for calm waters and a smooth path, life will give exactly the opposite, and not because it wants to disappoint you but because you are unable to see what’s the best for you. That’s why you sit back, relax and enjoy the ride. It can be really bumpy at points yet don’t worry, the bumpier the road is, the more are the chances of you evolving. And on this path according to my experience, whenever you feel the lowest you should know that the ego is living its last days of being in charge, the ego is not going to die, to be removed nor annihilated but kept at bay. Because the ego feels that its days of ruling over you are coming to an end. And now it’s trying its best to bring all the heavy artillery, all the victimisation and past pains that weren’t transcended because its power is vanishing, because the true self is getting stronger and stronger. So whoever is managing to go over to The Dark Night of the soul which is nothing but a play of ego, whoever is sturdy enough, and dedicated to the highest power and The Guru, having unshaken faith in them and in own higher nature, that being will definitely be awaken. But remember don’t rush anywhere but purify yourself daily through rejecting thoughts and emotions and stay sturdy and humble cultivating spiritual morale and not even the sky will be the limit.

Is world going to end? Part II

When we believe that world is going to be ending soon, we’re adding on top of the fear that we’re already fed with, since early childhood. It is not going to kill us but it’s going to be another promoter for bad decisions in our lives, because there are no worse decisions than those taken in the midst of emotional turmoil and when the fear is at its peak.

I have been there. I believed that the world was living its last days and all kind of mistakes but I learned out of it. I learned not to worry anymore about any potential incoming cataclysmic event.
For some people cataclysmic events happen every single day. They die, so for them the end of the world already happened. People die in such ways that at the end of the day you realize that it really doesn’t matter anymore how one dies. The funny thing is I was close to die while working in an office as an IT assistant. A desktop computer with two sources and 2 graphic cards, weighing close to 10 kilos fell straight with one of the corners on my head from 1,5-2 meters height. Who would have thought that there is such a hazard while having an IT job, right? It seems that my time wasn’t yet due. So be sure that when the time is right death is but inevitable. Be ready at any point to surrender to it. Live like there’s no tomorrow, from the point of view of making peace with everyone and everything and taking each extra day as a blessing, an extension in which you have to cherish the life and count your blessings.

Embrace death consciously and you will evolve, because one of the biggest fears is the fear of death.

Don’t be afraid, sit back and enjoy death if it’s your turn. Because death is the ultimate experience which helps one evolve. The way we receive this last experience already shape the future life.

Ancient civilizations were preparing for death their entire life. Egyptians for instance no matter if they were poor, middle class or royalty, all were preparing themselves for the departure since their early life.
Thracians, my ancestors, were crying when someone was born in their family and they were partying when one was dying. Because they knew the essence of this life and what’s all about.
The Spartans won battles where they were outnumbered at least 10:1 because they weren’t at all afraid of dying.

Once we realize that we’re not the body(only) and we are immortal souls, the whole self improvement will make sense. Just by being ignorant about our soul immortality and divine essence, makes us live in fear and allows us to behave in a selfish, not caring way for the other, because we are not aware that we are cells of the same body and we are One and it’s silly to hurt ourselves (by hurting others).

Although we seem to understand the last parable about being all cells of the same body, the real depth of it however, is very rarely grasped since it takes a free human being, to fully realize that inside their core.

We are all on the spiritual path

 

This is a world in which the wicked has the power, not because it’s more powerful (although it seems like that) but because I believe that this is some sort of mid-level purgatory of the souls and very rarely higher beings interfere with it.

That’s why lose the idea that someone has to save you. The decision must be yours. Grab with you all the courage that you find since it’s an extremely hard path, the path of self-perfection and spiritual evolution, yet remember that you are continuously watched, monitored, and when the desire to evolve is genuine, help is always there. The only savior you are to encounter on this hard path is your Higher Self taking a form of a Guru, Teacher, or a book in this illusion. The Higher Self is the being that you are truly devoid of fake identities, fears, projections and character traits. We are to discover that we are our own master, a Godlike being which is supposed to take full responsibility for everything that happens in our life. We are to accept whatever comes our way, detached and navigating through hardships, we refine and evolve further. There is going to be help on the way, it’s impossible without, but help no matter how it manifests, is but a tool for your further spiritual evolution. Respect and dedication to the tool, (be it a Guru, teacher or self aroused information by Grace) has to be there, but worshiping and projecting own power onto the tool is unnecessary since it may be creating another idol on which you project your desires and expectations and where we may become lazy expecting that being to do the work for us. We are all on our own spiritually individual path, no matter who and whatever does, don’t disrespect nor disregard anyone because they are all helping us to evolve. The student may overcome the teacher sometimes. There are really few high vibration people (who evolved out of the illusion) hidden in this world, and finding one is a great blessing.

We are all on the spiritual path, but for some it’ll take lives to evolve out of this illusionary world, and for others evolution is just around the corner.