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Flowing with life vs controlling it

As long as there hasn’t been any inner work of acknowledgment of the inner programming and unpacking of the hidden undercurrents, be it subconscious or unconscious, how can we truly flow with life? That supposed flow with life will be just going with distortions and social viruses planted by the upbringing and the very system that keeps us in its thralls.

But that superficial “flow with life ” even when we’re not fully aware, is way better than trying to force life into a dynamic of controlling its outcomes, that we assume may be the best road to take. Of course, that doesn’t mean that we are like a leaf in the wind, as we have to have a clear direction. The best is to just blindly trust life and its currents, even when, from the worldly way of seeing things, things look like they are heading “south”.

Trying to exert the utmost control over our lives and circumstances is even more laughable and futile: like a totally unaware Sisyphus, bound to repeat the same fallacy and eternally hoping for a different outcome, with the stubbornness of a bull insisting on hitting a fence, and trying to get on the other side although the door, just couple of meters ahead is wide open.

In order to learn to flow and trust life, we should learn to accept circumstances without trying to make it look better than it is, but we ought to avoid having that cynical approach of: “everything is always bad”, and avoid infusing that belief with the power of our consciousness. By doing so will empower the very thing we try to break away from.

I was many times allowing myself to “flow with life”, unaware of the fact that I am still flowing with past unresolved traumas and unquestioned beliefs that are as far as “flowing with life” as trying to control life’s currents. I would like to introduce my theory that we need someone who can give us a more objective perspective about ourselves, because we may be blindsided by those hidden shadows that we still unknowingly nurture within and by our subjective perception of ourselves.

Therefore, getting a chance to be with or close to someone who is at least as aware as we are is a true blessing. It can be a lover, friend, family member and even a teacher. This blessing we are given by Life itself is a token of unconditional love that the Ultimate Existence silently provides to all its fractals.

There is no being who is not provided with Grace and support from the Ultimate. The problem is our lack of understanding and failure to recognize that EVERYTHING that happens in our lives and given, is a step laid in front of us by our Higher Self, like an invisible wire sent to us, that’s pulling us through and out of the labyrinth of ignorance and false interpretation of life.

So flowing with life is the best approach to have, although without awareness, there will not be that much of a flow, but as I said previously, just a trick of the shadow to express itself unhinged and unnoticed. But even that is a step further and eventually, because the shadow acts in plain sight, we have a chance to notice it and find our way of accepting and transcending it.

It’s a matter of perspective

Each time we complain about our experience, it’s because our expectations are set on “high”. If there’s no expectation or hope neither addiction to a certain outcome, then whatever is given by life is fully received and embraced, and the true lesson of each experience is fully grasped and transcended.

From the perspective of the person who hopes that life should be “good “, each small stumble, each unexpected turn is perceived as very painful and becomes a vicious circle of trying to escape pain and change the outcome and even a intent to manipulate life to flow our way is initiated, and even if with great struggles, we manage to push the outcomes to fit our hopes, we will just postpone and pile up the events that we are so eagerly running away from.

I have been there myself, wondering why life was so difficult and painful. When I started accepting whatever comes my way with the least opposition, Life started flowing like a gentle river, bringing about debris of past rejected elements that I avoided and experiences of all kinds, but although unexpected events still take place, they’re just boulders in the river over which the water flows with ease.

Sometimes it feels like a miraculous way, the manner in which everything unfolds; how if I take time to accept whatever happens; whatever is offered, even if it feels unpleasant, as soon as I accept and embrace that event, it’s like it gets canceled by the very Existence, or one way or another the whole thing gets adjusted, sometimes to an even better situation than previously.

This reminds me of a quote from Tao Te Ching: “Do you have the patience to wait ’till your mud settles and the water is clear?
Can you remain unmoving’ till the right action arises by itself?”

Let’s say, if we are aware that this is a very low-vibration material existence, although not the lowest, and each emotion has to be experienced fully, (as this is the only purpose that we came to fulfill: to have a low experience without losing oneself), then it all start to make sense, and in the worst situations, remembering the nature of this existence, you will find the possibility to relax and even smile.

When we fall into sorrow, guilt, shame, comparison, jealousy, vengeance and other very low feelings, then we feed the very system that we are trying to escape.

As soon as an emotion is ignited, we should feel it deeply, so as not to try to escape the feeling that we came here to have, but we shouldn’t employ any escapist or coping mechanism, or allow thoughts and actions to drag us deeper into the depths of victimization.

Let’s say we are rejected: at first every one of us will have a painful reaction as we are programmed to look for good experiences and run for those who are taking us out of our comfort zone. I feel it, it first comes like a huge overwhelming wave that tries to create an immediate response, trying to drag me under the water, blinded by emotions and reacting in an inappropriate way. But I have learned to stay there with the feeling, accepting it, and trying not to react or think about it, just be with the feeling. And whenever I am aware, and I do not react to it, the whole tempest is showing itself for what it truly is: just a storm in a glass of water.

If we knew we were in hell whilst having this exact experience, we would be dancing and rejoicing every single day, remembering to see the blessings that we have in our lives and how this version of hell is quite OK, especially compared to other people’s experience, as soon as we stop antagonizing it. But if we project some sort of idea of a place of pleasure, hope and joy, we are bound for a rough awakening. So you see, it’s all about the perspective. Depends on the angle from which we see everything, and the expectations or lack thereof.

Don’t you see how our own expectations and projections are binding us even more? Transforming a neutral experience that a godlike being came to have, into a belief of being trapped, doomed, tricked, punished, and eventually bringing us back to the same place, less and less aware of the nature of this paradigm, when in reality nothing can bind us and everything is just a projected experience based on mistaken beliefs and assumptions.

I am not able to do it all the time, as many times I am caught off-guard by the waves of life, acting from past distortions and programming, but each time I take my time and allow life to flow at its own accord, I am so happy I managed to do it. The more we do it, we become free from projections, and the world will fail to look neither good nor bad, but it will just flow like the ocean’s waves: one day roughly, one day calm and joyful, another day it may look like they want to destroy and annihilate and other days they’re still as a lake in a painting.

If you watch the ocean through the window or the TV screen, no storm will scare you, but you will enjoy its dynamism and continuous change and unpredictability. Similarly, if you grasp the nature of this existence, you’ll feel like watching it through a screen, and the tremendous show that it puts into scene will inspire and put you in awe, but it will no longer scare you or catch you off guard.

This is how we are gradually spiritually maturing, slowly growing, enhanced by our trust in life and by the Grace that flows from within us, not separate from the Life that flows equally from within, as everything that we experience outside of us.

How can then be someone to punish or reward us if everything is just us? But because we believe in that predicament, we create a life that will fit our idea of it. Change your perspective and life will feel easier, the power is always in our hands.

Experience it all

One of the tricks through which souls are maneuvered into returning to this experience is the idea of unfinished businesses, things and events that we refused to have, or we were too scared to dare facing.

Attachments are the other trick, and it can be any type of attachment: to an idea, to a lover, to a family member, friend, pet, belonging or all of them together. Another attachment is the religious/ spiritual one that can be used against us.

Ideally, every single day we should accept whatever is laid in front of us, without rejecting or denying it, just fully accepting whatever is given, as we accept a movie plot at the cinema, knowing that we can’t change the direction of the events in the projected movie. But through the experience we have, we have the potential to change things. Unfortunately, we mostly have the power to get more lost rather than grow out of it. Everything is made addictive, so we get hooked onto each experience and crave for more. That’s when the game gets a grip on the player instead of the situation being otherwise.

You came to have this experience, have it fully, embracing each particle of it, while trying not to get captured in its snare. “Be in the world but not of the world”.

Have everything but make sure you don’t crave anything, make sure you make peace with the idea of you potentially leaving this game tomorrow and be ready not to look back, either at family, lover or any other potential trap to bring you back.

Do not get stuck in the movie you just finished, but continue to let go of it, and every experience and be ready for the next one. The capacity to let go of everything, anything and anyone at any point is the key to successfully escaping the trap of being stuck in the game.

There’s no debt you owe to anyone and nobody owes you anything. If you know this, you’ll be safe. Our kindness is used against us when we are leaving, as a manipulation tactic. Guilt and shame and even the sense of duty will be used against us. Beings reminiscing religious figures of our choice will be employed to keep us in the loop.

Promises of evolution, enlightenment and the achievement of perfection will try to trick one into coming back. But you should know that we are already all-knowingly, perfect and enlightened.

There are no stairs to climb, no place to reach, nothing to achieve. You’re just a being that has it all, yet wants to explore lower, and rather limited realms. It’s like a wealthy person having planes, helicopters and other vehicles yet enjoying the thrill of riding an old bike or skateboard and eventually becoming oblivious of his previous belongings. You can always get back to your vehicles and not remain stuck with the skateboard. The trick here is that, in the game we play, we can become forgetful of all those flying vehicles and allow ourselves to identify with the skateboard and get tricked into repeating the experience with the promise of a car, when, in reality, we are not even bound to time and space, hence even planes or helicopters are not really necessary.

If you are Everything that ever was, is and will be, which we all are, how can you owe anything to anyone, or how can anyone be indebted to you?

Even though the sun is hidden for days and weeks by clouds, that doesn’t mean it disappeared. As such, although you’re unaware of the Divine essence within you, that doesn’t mean that its existence is canceled by your unawareness of it.

Playing it safe in life is avoidance of the experience and, although many assume greatness or even sanctity in playing it safe, they are just deluding themselves. They’re deluded by their one-sided perspective. Whereas those who traveled deep within the hellish realms and yet traveled back through the obstacles and opposition, back to wholesomeness, those are the true unrecognized heroes.

So make sure you experience it all, whatever is yours to have, finish everything on your plate, or you might get tricked into return by your own unfulfilled desires and experiences and unfinished businesses and attachments.

Don’t make a big deal out of anything, forget, forgive and love unconditionally, be kind and selflessly giving, live courageously and know that you are already perfect, wise and enlightened. You just forgot! Now remember!

Being who you truly are

Not far away in the past, I used to believe that taking an extra step to show goodness and kindness to people was a very spiritual thing to do.

My perspective changed when I realized the amazing value of being myself fully. Being myself unapologetically will definitely trigger lots of people and make them classify me as selfish or even narcissistic, which at first glance may even seem to be the case. In fact, what changes is that I keep my kindness somewhat hidden, and stop being people’s doormat for the sake of being liked, loved or accepted.

I have the same heart filled with love and kindness, but I don’t look for ways to show that to people anymore, as I am not looking for recognition of those features, and as I am more and more self-sufficient..

I bless when I feel like în silence, so they’ll never know. I see people thriving when I am not explaining myself but letting them get to their right conclusions or even allowing them to go a bit astray, projecting what is not, without me trying to correct anyone, to each according to their vibration at that point in time.

I might explain myself when I feel humility and an honest desire to know, and I am asked in a non-entitled way, as we all deserve to have our questions asked if we know how to do it. But I am done trying to make others understand how great, honest, kind and trustworthy I am. I am fine with people believing whatever they choose about me

If people are throwing a tantrum and are being entitled, I do not have the desire to explain or excuse myself. But I make sure I question myself thoroughly and try to see where my actions and words are coming from, but that doesn’t mean that I will try to bring clarity to anyone against their will or capacity to understand, as I have to limit unnecessary waste of energy when there’s no possibility or will to fathom what’s going on.

We all get to clarity when we dare to question ourselves and our narratives. When we dare to ask ourselves “what if they are right? ” and flip the whole story from different perspectives, especially from the other person’s perspective.

Sometimes we are blinded by the mechanisms of coping that hide under layers of traumatic responses and programming, so I can definitely say that taking whatever whoever says and giving it a chance to be examined in a cool “what if?” way is the best one can do for their own evolution out of their own limitations.

I have pondered many times onto statements by people who accuse me of acting selfish, narcissistic or being unfair. And I realized that at that point they were right, and I wondered why I was doing that. And following the thread, I got to the point where I realized that the narcissist is a child who stopped evolving, stopped maturing and never left the house of their parents (metaphorically speaking). They’re entitled to things and people’s attention and energy, exactly as a child feels, and they’re failing to take full responsibility for anything they do or say, exactly like a child.

Even when they’re touched by love, all they care about is only the fulfillment of their own ideas of “happiness”, forgetting to take the other person into consideration, forgetting to give and serve selflessly, not knowing that they are just taking and taking and by not giving, they’re going to exhaust that person’s energy and good will and will eventually bring about rapture.

So, whenever someone says something to me, I might take time to assess their words, like I would ponder on specialist advice. This made me realize how much we can grow even just by being exposed to people who might misjudge us.

The path to healing is honesty to self and others. But there’s a caveat to this: I used to be overly critical of myself (twisting and fully denying my own perspective), and I can easily see now that any of the extremes are wrong, as in any other situation. So, being fully dismissive of others is extreme and not beneficial, whereas being fully submissive is not the solution either.

The secret is always in the middle path, the path of balance. Balance is the Divine law inherent in everything and anyone. When we search for balance, we’re always on the right track to removing ourselves from the limitations of the existence of the human body.

So being ourselves is a huge step to seeing and acknowledging our shadow and the wounded child within, along with the Eternal Spirit of the Absolute, also is a chance to lose all the unnecessary people in our proximity, just by being aligned with ourselves instead of showing some “kinder” face in order to preserve relationships and things that were never ours to have. Therefore, after the shock of losing so many people, the newly discovered vibration of truth and self-sufficiency is going to start attracting similar or at least higher vibrating beings and situations, like ending high school clears the path to university.

Being fully ourselves when we are deeply wounded and traumatized may have as a direct consequence, the loss of the majority of people in our surroundings, and that can deepen the sense of crisis, but it’s not a mistake at all, because we can get a chance to see how our actions and words come from the desire to possess people and things and from very traumatic events from our early ages or even unresolved past life unsolved traumas and a misunderstanding of life and its purpose.

So a very narcissistic/mentally disturbed person, who doesn’t want to evolve, will be forced to reassess the whole thing/life one last time, by hitting rock bottom! Hitting the bottom is, when everyone leaves, everyone abandons them because of the atrocious behavior, or when life will force a deep traumatic event as a last chance, a last wake-up call. They’ll either realize that the only way is up, and see their flaws and genuine desire to heal, or they’re going to postpone the process for the next existence.

Now I dare say that not many are in that predicament, as I consider a severe mental health issue a karmic punishment or a spiritual jail. Yet undoubtedly, we all have traits coming from unresolved trauma that make us exhibit narcissistic, bipolar, borderline behavior or any other distorted abnormal features. So, while we are not full-fledged narcissists, there might be a chance to heal, as long as there is the acknowledgment of something being wrong with us.

Being ourselves is valuable in any situation, especially in learning to protect our own energy from people that only drain it. Being kind doesn’t mean you should allow spiritual vampires to suck you dry. Spiritual vampires are not necessarily obvious evil people, but most of the time they are family members, our spouses and friends that we may feed with our energy because of our lack of boundaries and because we try to please people. Also, being who we truly are Wil inspire others to accept and embrace themselves fully, which is, in the long term, planting the seeds for a better humanity.

When the silence talks

Throughout the years of my life, I have had experiences that could have easily been spread over several lifetimes, such concentrated lessons in a succession of events that seemed at points to be the very end of the experience in this body. That’s how strongly their pain has been felt.

An external observer would be unable to assess the true vastness and range of experiences, as many of the recent events that touched me were mostly internal battles, inner struggles and processes of transmutation. I am amazed by the fact that I am still here, back again from my inner infernal places, able to write about it all.

I have risen and fallen so many times. I have reached heights of understanding and realizations that I am still surprised I managed to grasp, and at points I was deprived (I forgot) of all that knowledge and wisdom, and even been pushed again to plunge so deep back into the very depths of my shadowy self, to the very abyss that we are all trying to pretend it exists not within our hidden chambers. And yet here I am, all scarred, dusty and almost lost, found again with a true smile on my face and unlimited gratitude to the Grace of the Eternal that manifested through people, events and the entire movements of the gears of Life and its incredible stories and twists.

Such an amazing game of hide and seek we’re playing with ourselves. Such a great example of the living paradox that is a Soul exploring the lower material plane, such a trap, so cunning this construct and so incredibly booby-trapped at every step. Everything yells for our attention and energy, everything is doing its utmost to steal some juice(energy) from us one way or another, to keep us blind, stumbling in mediocrity. It’s indeed a war, but not with any external forces, but with internal self-created demons who are fighting to preserve and defend the status quo, to try and ensure the survival of the old paradigms of control and their self-preservation.

I am living a true miracle, but only now do I recognize it as such. My old self would scoff and roll his eyes in disbelief and hopelessness, as probably the reaction of the majority of people who ever met me. My “miracle” may look like nothing or even like a scary thing for the unadvised. The simplicity of it all is almost impossible to grasp by the overcomplicated reasoning mechanism of the limited mind bound to old concepts. Even I have fallen back to old paradigms so many times, unable to hold onto the realization of the truth.

I am! I truly feel that these 2 words and 3 letters are all encompassing, like the primordial particle out of which everything sprouted out. “I am” is realized in silence.

The silence and its power are often times misunderstood and disregarded. Yet when you dare facing it, embracing it, it’ll talk to you and you will Know! When you embrace the “boredom” of staying in silence with yourself, the whole Universe will reveal its hidden song, the song of Life and Love, the song that reminds us that we are One, that we are enough, and it is in every single moment of Now that we are always wholesome and perfect.

When we embrace what we used to run away from, we will be able to get all the missing parts of the puzzle that we were searching for only in our comfort zone. Such a fallacy, to look for knowledge and wisdom only where we expect it to be, as silly as being on a bridge and losing a precious object in the river, yet deciding to look for it on the bridge to avoid wetting our clothes.

Truth and pieces of it are found in the places that we least expect. One of this “places” is the silence. What’s ignored, and disregarded, has hidden in it some juice that can’t be found elsewhere. Dare to turn each stone in your life upside down with courage and determination, and you will hear the silence that speaks, that sings and that guides.

My deepest gratitude to my Guru and the entire Higher realm that protects and guides us!

Radical self-acceptance

Radical self-acceptance is true self-love. It’s hard, and it doesn’t come easy, as we were told since early childhood that we are not enough, unless we do this or that, look or behave in a certain way.

I train myself in embodying this self-acceptance by allowing myself to say or do stupid things without trying to save face, without defending. I see myself wanting to write a message to someone and, either while writing it or right after, I see it being incomplete, insufficient, silly or outright stupid or just too revealing. Although I am tempted to delete it or edit it I am leaving it there as it is, most of the time, as I am not trying to create a good image of myself anymore. I am more and more allowing people to perceive me as they want, and I sometimes enjoy observing myself and that inner struggle I have in which I force myself not to defend or correct people’s impressions of me.

Of course, I am still work in progress, so I am at points catching myself trying to repair it and I even do it sometimes. But I am heading there.

How can we truly accept someone else in our lives fully when we haven’t yet done that in our cases? How can we accept someone else’s flaws and differences unless we’ve at least started to do that about ourselves.

Radical self-acceptance is a mandatory step on the path to remembering and embracing who we truly are. And self acceptance is not about all the bright features and characteristics, but wholesomely and fully incorporating every single aspect especially the undesirable ones courageously.

I am many times writing something to a girl that I fancy, and after I sent the message I go back and read it again and I see all the things I can improve, I should delete or edit… Most of the time I leave it as it is, offering an off-ramp, a possibility to see this part of mine which can help them run away. Why walking on eggshells? I am what I am, and I will definitely continue to do or say things that are less than perfect. Why would I try to create a fake image about myself when I like people to see me as I am?, so in case they like me, they will like the real me, and not some fancy image that I created, and that I assume would be better than the real me.

This is where we are wrong and hence we keep unnecessary people in our proximity through the fake image we project, enforce, and we keep our true soul-family and potential suitable partners apart because of our fear of not being “perfect” or enough by failure to fully embracing our own expression.

I am enough! For myself at least, therefore in my life, and with my apparent flawed version that I dare to expose to the outside world now a miracle happens: People are reacting different to me, people who used to like me (the mask) are not anymore interested and people who are more genuine and are as unapologetically themselves as I am learning to be are attracted to me. It’s beautiful. Finally, not trying to please anyone, nor playing roles, not trying to save face or force a certain perception onto people, but radical self-acceptance.

If you haven’t tried it, I recommend you to give it a shot. Yes, you’ll lose some unnecessary acquaintances in the process, but you can’t lose what’s yours, so be happy, as a more real life is being shaped and you’re slowly removing unnecessary debris from the old idea of how you ought to be and you start discovering who you truly are.

Once you start loving yourself for who you are, others will be more open to accepting and loving you for that. Isn’t that amazing?

In order to become Something, unbecome everything

We tend to approach our growth and evolution in the same distorted way as an ambitious approach to achieve material wealth and success in the world. It is the very greed-fueled approach that seems to be so “normal”. Unfortunately you can’t use tools used in carpentry in a marble quarry. Therefore an old approach to understanding the depths of the Universe, mysteries and secrets beyond the apparent with our obsolete tools are going to be promoting an imaginary type of evolution which is only happening in our fantasy and ego.

It’s hard to convey in words what I realized within, but let the transmission of my realization reach out to all of you reading and may at some point reach the same realization if you haven’t done so already.

In order to realize things out of the box, we have to be out of the box. Exiting our “righteous” routines and ways to look at the experience are helping us to step out and have a broader understanding of the world and everything. The sailors on a sailboat can blow air into the sail as powerful as they can but the boat will stand unmoved regardless, as in order to exert the influence on that sail one has to be outside of the boat.

The path to “the out of the box” realm is by changing the way we see things, people and events. Whilst we still see those in very dual way, like: those are my friends and these are the enemies, you will still be blowing in your sail while standing on the boat.

Once we start stoicly accepting everything in our lives as ours to have and we stop perceiving people in a antagonistic way, realizing that everyone is a catalyst in our potential unfolding, life will start to look different, and even events and people will stop being so triggering for us.

It took me a lot of time to get here and I am still wondering if I can be able to mantain this level of perception tomorrow, as the Matrix tries to bring us back to its thralls but the heck with tomorrow, as it doesn’t exist.. I am here now and I can read this article tomorrow (if tomorrow comes), and I will remember today’s realization.

To come back to the title, when we stop wanting to become anything, and we start detangling from the bondage of all the ideas we have about ourselves, and everything else, practically unbecoming everything, the reality rushes in, and pompous words like “we are all One” really start to be perceived at their proper depth, as perceiving a level of reality that renders all previous ideas and concepts obsolete.

Everything that used to excite my imagination and look for in the future just stopped being appealing. I can and will still have some of those, but there’s no “need” or longing for any of those, a real level of detachment dawned onto me. And at first is so painful like you wake up and see all the fake, glitter and sparkling stuff falling off everything that we used to appreciate and look forward to getting, now showing its ugly, rusted and even unnecessary side.

If you are ready to abandon the pursuit of all those little things that used to give a meaning to life, then this is how it goes, but if not yet, no worries. I believe that this realization comes only after diving deep in the material plane (illusion) with awareness, when you realize that you are Sisyphus, and trying to push that boulder uphill will never work and you decide to just accept that hilltop without the boulder there. The boulder in this case is all that baggage of ideas and concepts that used to be the background ruler of everything happening in our lives.

When we stop wanting to be recognized as anything, and we allow people to misunderstand and wrongly assume that we are like this or like that, then we’ve walked a long way and our disillusionment is very close. There’s nothing to defend, or prove. Whoever is to get our true essence they will, whoever is not to grasp who and what are we about, they will not, regardless of us trying to convince or prove them otherwise.

When you unbecome all the ideas you had about yourself, then you become “I am”, and that is impossible to explain in words, you don’t need any quality attached to that “I am” as you are Everything and Nothing. That takes you out of the trap of souls: that makes you be in the world, yet not of the world; no longer wanting to save anyone or anything as you’ll start seeing the perfection of the world as it is, in its apparent imperfection.

What we avoid should be embraced

People in their majority, and here I also include myself, are programed to avoid certain feelings, people, and experiences altogether, although in reality, I have noticed that valuable information and lessons are hidden where we least expect and implicitly in what we avoid.

I can give a very mundane example in which my entire life I was trying to keep myself comfortable especially when coming to extreme temperatures, be it cold or hot. I was always shaking uncontrollably when exposed to cold and suffering greatly when exposed to heat.

One day I went to the sauna with my girlfriend at that time and usually I like warm shower even after the sauna, even if the majority may use a cold shower to create resilience both of the body as of character.

My girlfriend went straight into the cold water which was probably no more than couple of degrees, and was just sitting there without whining or shaking. That was the moment when I was in awe with her stoic resilience and realized that I was weak in this particular matter.

Some years after I was talking to a friend online and said that I am not going out because it was very cold and I I would rather stay in the warmth of my home.

She laughed and said that men sometimes can be so weak, and that she prefers pushing her limits to build her character. Again I felt I was doing something wrong. Since that moment I started taking cold showers after the hot one. The first ones were probably less than 5 seconds 😁, but slowly I increased the time until I reached the moment when I can easily take only cold shower in the morning, and also in the pools I started using the cold water pools which are 0 degrees, and I stay there 2 to 3 minutes at a time.

As a beneficial result I see that my resilience to extreme temperatures increased several fold, as to the point that this winter I haven’t been using a hat despite very cold days. But my point is not in emphasizing the physiological benefits but rather to point out my realization of the fact that when we avoid something and try to force into our lives just the pleasant or comfortable, then we force life to push onto us those gathered small inconvenient events that we avoid snowballed into a big “negative” event to restore the balance.

As I stated in previous articles, I feel life as a continuous ebbing and flowing, a continuous change from Yin to Yang and vice-versa into a perpetual movement of the polarities.

So to get to the theory I propose to my readers to observe:

If we don’t embrace the negative aspects and events, which in reality are not only not “negative” at all, but teaching and enhancing our awareness and forcing us to reason, observe and ponder on the experience, then the choice is that we will have life, or consciousness forcing onto us the gathered accumulated negative charge which can be too much for us to bear.

So just by having a cold shower we embrace the discomfort that at first we experience whilst having it, although later the whole negative aspect of it flips into positive. Just by extrapolation, you can realize inside your own life whenever you try to avoid the discomfort and hoping for the opposite, and choose to change the approach.

As such, when we avoid certain type of people or/and experiences that life is pushing onto us over and over again, we fail to examine the reason behind that, as nothing in life just happens, as I don’t believe anymore in that neither in the existence of sheer luck.

So there are several benefits as I have noticed in embracing what we usually tend to reject or run away from. And those benefits are multidimensional. And once we realize that just by embracing and facing what we used to try to escape from, life will become smoother and more balanced.

With gratitude for Anna (the friend I talked about above ) , who unknowingly inspired me to face the harsh weather and implicitly life’s challenges.

We are kept distracted

I just had a moment while on the plane and contemplated how the Matrix/ illusion tries to keep us busy: experiencing and loooking for pleasure and getting entangled in its traps, or keeping us paying attention to the pain and trying to escape it. One way or another, we’re kept busy in a lower level of vibration, which is not easy to break free from.

I had a visual representation of the illusion as being like a clown, trying to maintain one’s attention focused on its mumbo-jumbos, and monkey business, through making one laugh or sad or always in the state of paying attention and investing that energy in the distraction as to always be slaves of our senses and the fictitious story they’re telling us.

Of course, to some extent, we have to find the balance of either going to the extreme of abandoning life as it is since we came to have this experience, neither becoming captured by the theatrics nor taking the dream for fully fledged reality.

The illusion has a powerful grip on the souls because of their voluntary (or maybe not so voluntary) confinement into the physical body, which compared to the limitlessness of the soul is reduced and compressed to something similar to the plane we live in, the world as we know, would compress itself into a tiny particle. Although I feel that on a Reality level, the quantum level, these things are possible, and they’re not limiting or restricting either the potency or the conscious aspect of the “big” element squeezed into a very minute one.

But the world we’re in has a specific programming that forces the particles to behave in a certain way and crystallize in the form of their programming. In reality, whatever we experience is very far from the true Reality, and I get more and more the concept of the universe we experience as being a mental construct and not at all physical as stated in hermetic writings and other scriptures.

We, being in the bodies, are bound to a certain degree to the program running in the background, although our full limitless potential is latent within, waiting for the veil of ignorance to be lifted by the right judgment or the lack of it (disregarding the thinking mechanism – which is one of the guardians of the mental projection) and for us to reinstate ourselves as possible co-creators. In other words, we’re living in someone else’s fantasy world and because we believe in the subtantiality of the world, we empower it with our conscious potency. So the world is truly a collective dream constructed by someone outside of it for fun, and I don’t mean the Ultimate Existence, although everything and everyone is part of That. But I mean that souls have evolved into realizing their true power and potential and enjoy creating different worlds and existences for their entertainment and further expansion.

Just imagine that you allow your mind to fantasize freely, and you see yourself as a king or some other type of powerful being, and you populate that fantasy of yours with beings of your own imagination; there’s no limit to what you can project and create. Your ideas become strokes of a paintbrush on a blank canvas.

This is exactly what we’re facing; we’re just characters in someone’s dream following our designated paths until the dissolution of the physical form, like NPCs (nonplayer characters) in a game that fulfill certain roles yet unaware of their ephemeral existence of being part of the movie.

When we awake we slowly slowly get back to being a more conscious being which starts growing out of the programming and realizes the power of creation that he /she had at their disposal at any point in time. From that moment on, life starts to be more coherent although it doesn’t mean that the ebbing and flowing that are inherent in this creation are going to stop. Not at all, but by employing awareness we have the chance to avoid the tsunami of the emotions which were eternally dragging us back to the box/ jail , now we can make a conscious decision and raise ourselves into a state where we can still feel the existence, yet we can decide how deep we allow ourselves to be touched by it.

Another observation when we pull ourselves out of the movie is that we can perceive people who are still drowning in it, unaware of the programming, like we can see children and their mischievous attitudes, in the right way, even though they may have an idea of being smart and cunning and that nobody figures them out.

When observing a person who is still fully lost in the emotional fantasy, we can easily perceive aspects of their character or points of distortion, much more if we have observed those aspects in ourselves and either transmuted and transformed them or keep them in check.

So there’s no superpower, as we all are super-powerful (omnipotent) in our own creations, but we are limited because we accept someone else’s fantasy as our physical world and we empower and enforce it with our ignorance, and those very laws and dictates that keep us bound to it.

I want to re-emphasise that abandoning the world is just another trap, as it is being fully absorbed ignorantly into it. The secret is always in the ballance between these two, like some wise people in the past used to say: immerse yourself fully into the illusion but with the awareness of its fallacy, and aware of your immense power of altering and changing certain programming.

Be flexible

The higher power doesn’t care about concepts and ideas, spiritual theories, or other human constructs of similar nature. Therefore, we shouldn’t try to defend any theory or understanding we may have reached, as in the end, they’re all incomplete and unsuitable to keep holding to.

That’s why people who are rigid and crystallize themselves around such concepts are unfortunately condemning themselves to stagnation and sorrow, unaware of the continuous movement and evolution of Consciousness. If we hold onto anything we get stuck and start antagonizing the very energy of Everything we strive to realize within.

When one has accepted any concept as immutable and undeniable, they have taken a break from the path of dissolution of what is not us. Therefore realize that any concept and understanding have their own expiry date and are just tools in the eternal evolution of the soul towards uniting with the Primary Source out of which we have all emerged.

Continuously embrace flexibility and observe when the time has arrived to abandon what has become obsolete. Allow yourself to flow with Life’s teaching without opposition and you might be getting into the roller-coaster that shakes and turns one upside down in its purpose of removing every single unnecessary particle and information that it’s not You.

All the bookish/ academic knowledge is a powerful barrier to the one that has acquired it to see deeper into the depths of their Being. But whoever has this huge baggage of true-at-a-very-basic-level information and dares to empty their bucket, which is filled with stale water, and fill it up with the continuous stream coming from within and from without, has almost crossed “the ocean of Samsara “! (illusion)

Even if you know much, know that everything is not applying at higher levels of consciousness and let go of the past information that brought you here, yet has to be abandoned for you to go forward, even though this linear description may be inaccurate.

Similarly with scriptural knowledge, when I started realizing the truth hidden in scriptures, I was so proud that I discovered the truth, but lo and behold, the truth eternally evolves; it’s not a static element on which to hold on. So I learned to feel the knowledge that comes from within, which at points contradicts scriptural knowledge, not because whoever wrote it was corrupt or wrong, but because it passed through several editing and translating processes that corrupted the message. Even if a conjunction is changed in a very important writing transmission, the full understanding may go amiss, and the essence that was intended to be transmitted might be lost, not to say that the lower consciousness of those interfering with the text in their translation, interpretation, and editing is somewhat staining the original message.

Therefore, keep an open mind and always ask yourself “What if the other is right and I might be wrong?! “ This is also a good way for those who are, in one way or another, experiencing any sort of mental issue, to step on the path of healing themselves. Once we allow humility to kick in and empty our bucket, we open ourselves for life to continuously replenish that water with a fresher and better one every day.

Let all fetters of “knowledge “come and go on their own accord and see yourself embarking on the path of quantum disillusionment and Unity.

Is world going to end? Part II

When we believe that world is going to be ending soon, we’re adding on top of the fear that we’re already fed with, since early childhood. It is not going to kill us but it’s going to be another promoter for bad decisions in our lives, because there are no worse decisions than those taken in the midst of emotional turmoil and when the fear is at its peak.

I have been there. I believed that the world was living its last days and all kind of mistakes but I learned out of it. I learned not to worry anymore about any potential incoming cataclysmic event.
For some people cataclysmic events happen every single day. They die, so for them the end of the world already happened. People die in such ways that at the end of the day you realize that it really doesn’t matter anymore how one dies. The funny thing is I was close to die while working in an office as an IT assistant. A desktop computer with two sources and 2 graphic cards, weighing close to 10 kilos fell straight with one of the corners on my head from 1,5-2 meters height. Who would have thought that there is such a hazard while having an IT job, right? It seems that my time wasn’t yet due. So be sure that when the time is right death is but inevitable. Be ready at any point to surrender to it. Live like there’s no tomorrow, from the point of view of making peace with everyone and everything and taking each extra day as a blessing, an extension in which you have to cherish the life and count your blessings.

Embrace death consciously and you will evolve, because one of the biggest fears is the fear of death.

Don’t be afraid, sit back and enjoy death if it’s your turn. Because death is the ultimate experience which helps one evolve. The way we receive this last experience already shape the future life.

Ancient civilizations were preparing for death their entire life. Egyptians for instance no matter if they were poor, middle class or royalty, all were preparing themselves for the departure since their early life.
Thracians, my ancestors, were crying when someone was born in their family and they were partying when one was dying. Because they knew the essence of this life and what’s all about.
The Spartans won battles where they were outnumbered at least 10:1 because they weren’t at all afraid of dying.

Once we realize that we’re not the body(only) and we are immortal souls, the whole self improvement will make sense. Just by being ignorant about our soul immortality and divine essence, makes us live in fear and allows us to behave in a selfish, not caring way for the other, because we are not aware that we are cells of the same body and we are One and it’s silly to hurt ourselves (by hurting others).

Although we seem to understand the last parable about being all cells of the same body, the real depth of it however, is very rarely grasped since it takes a free human being, to fully realize that inside their core.

Is World going to end? Part I

Good question. Yes, at some point it definitely will, since nothing is forever existing in this dimension. Do we need to worry? It depends on the standpoint that were having, if we know that we already had lots of previous incarnations, ending of this world wouldn’t scare us at all, there will always be a different world/dimension to go after this end, so why worrying? If we know that we are not bodies but fully capable spiritual beings, having a lower experience in this realm, can we worry or be sad that this world is ending?

But at least in this life time, the world is not going to end! I promise you, there may be natural cataclysms or wars, whatever but earth as realm and planet is not going to end too soon.

This is just distraction, from our own goals, the most important one , to evolve out of past mistakes and distortions. To become a better version of ourselves, this is the path to “heal the world”, by becoming the change ourselves. Because if the majority of individuals would have this vision in their mind, that they want to evolve, to thrive, then everyone else will do too, because the majority dictates the normality. Unfortunately nowadays, the majority is deeply immersed in lust and perverted idea of sexuality, in desire to control the other, in selfishness, jealousy, comparison, drugs, alcohol, tobacco and what not. So what is the “normality” nowadays? Destruction! Yes so on this path we will self-sabotage our own house(planet) and the very existence of humanity. But planet will outlive us, no worries, the planet will get rid of the cancer(human kind), if the cancer doesn’t go into recession(by decision of individuals to become more aware) and to change already the way they are living, by abiding to the higher morale and to abide to the Ahimsa way(non violence). The planet is a living being, in which we are acting now as parasites, destroying the very host that keeps us alive, by being too greedy and insensitive to the surroundings and to our fellow beings coexisting on this planet.

Let’s take our body as an example. What would you think if your cells from the liver will start attacking the neurons? Sounds silly isn’t it? But even worse: what would you think if the cells from the skin would start attacking one another? Unthinkable isn’t it? Then why we, a superior(we think) specie on this planet are behaving worst than viruses and bacteria. Why we want someone else’s wife, house, car? Can a skin cell be jealous on a neuron that the last one is having a better position? Nonsense. Well now, you must have realized already how silly and selfish our behavior is. How about the superiority, we believe that we’re entitled to hurt “lower” beings just because we consider them inferior and lacking soul. We can use animals for painful jobs, scientific trials, for eating them… But for sure human kind would be united in believing that aliens are malefic if they would come, put us to work for their own benefit only, having us as slaves, or they would discover that our flesh is tasting good, and start growing us for the flesh. What a disgraceful race of aliens…Booooo. Yet we’re doing exactly that ourselves, only we fail to see it clearly because we lack awareness and we live in fear!

So this can be one of the reasons one can become vegetarian(at least), there’s plenty of vegetarian food available and from the point of view of sustainability, the world is able to withstand 10 times the actual population if the population would be correctly using resources and the growing of animals for food would stop. Plus the human being doesn’t resemble a carnivore animal, not even an omnivore one. Both are having claws, big canine teeth to tear the flesh apart and straight intestines, so that the very toxic, poisonous resulting feces from the meat would be expelled very fast so there would be no risk for the body. Human beings are having a very long and twisted intestine, specific to the plant eating animals, because by having a big twisted intestine, extra nutrients are extracted by the intestines while the food matter passes through on the way out.

I got a bit carried away and I am a bit off topic, but this was so I can answer to some people who were asking me why did I become vegan(vegetarian).

So to come back to the main questions and the leitmotiv of this blog, yes the world is going to flush us out(like the body is creating diarrhea to flush out unnecessary substances) if we continue disregarding the natural order of things. Or we are going to do that before the earth does, through stupid wars which are going to make few wealthier but which have a very destructive potential for the humankind.

But some people may misinterpret and try to protest against cruelty towards animal, becoming green activists and so on…but again a trap, which deflects the attention from our being and our response towards stimuli and giving us a new “righteous” bone to chew. Stop it, no need to fight, to protest and so on, be perfect yourself and see after, if there’s a need for you to do that. But you may realize that you can’t save anyone while your not safe yourself. Is like in the planes, they recommend to put your own oxygen mask first before you put the child mask on! So become change yourself, and world will salute you and will change miraculously around you. So you see, dear reader, it’s futile to try to change governments when the cell of the government is made of individuals, the great majority of individuals are below animal, lacking any morale, or care for someone else but their own family or their own person. So by making the decision to change yourself you create a movement that provokes changing of cells(humans) and automatically the governments will have those fresh, healthy cells replacing the old poisonous ones!

To be continued…

About F.E.A.R(False Evidence Apearing Real) Part II

Fear sometimes is deeply hidden in the cellular memory, we may not even be aware of it, but regardless, all our decisions are made having the fear in the background.

Fear is like the surgical instrument that was “forgotten” inside us when the “surgeon” closed us in the past life.
We are sometimes unaware that we are talking nonsense(socially accepted bullshit) to people we don’t necessarily like, because of the fear, fear of not being accepted, liked, of being considered antisocial or weirdos. But we even became unaware of doing that, it became an automatic behavior that we must be aware of. We are staying with the wrong partner because of fear. We are bullying because of the fear of being otherwise bullied ourselves. We are becoming violent with people because of fear that they may leave us, or not do what we want them to do.

You see, my dear reader, fear is the unfortunate driving force which is ruling our life from the shadow, like our own “deep state” who rules us without us even noticing it.
Trying to control, or better said being a control freak comes from a deep sense of fear!

I was once flying for a very long time, and all of a sudden we meet tremendous turbulences. First I was afraid, I felt like shaking, my breath became chaotic, I started moving anxiously checking people around with my eyesight to see how are others taking the extreme event. I have seen people with they’re knees to their mouth, crying, lamenting… That moment I had a revelation: I am going to die! But then I stopped myself and decided to enjoy death fully, to sit back and enjoy my last extreme roller-coaster with grace and a broad smile on the face. And I did, I was so proud of my achievement, I felt that this is exactly the way people should welcome death. Because death is the only certainty that we have in this life. I was in bliss, while others were crying. Besides what’s the point of crying and lamenting? Is it going to change anything? This realization changed my life and patterns of thoughts and behavior along with it. Obviously nobody died, but even the flight attendants were pale and looking shaked because of the severity of the turbulences that we’ve been through.

You see, there’s no real utility for fear after we became adults, actually losing it will create real adults with real decisions which would make this world thrive. Learn to give freedom to people, freedom to do whatever they want, let go of control, look “vulnerable” without being vulnerable and when you’ll realize that life is taking care of you, there’s no need to worry about it, then you will experience blissful surrender, like I had on that plane, surrendering all expectations and projections, letting go of everything, even life.

Throughout my life, each time I surrendered to the unknown, having as a very likely possibility that I was going to loose something, eventually not only that I haven’t lost anything but I gained realizations, essential conclusions which push us further on the path of self-perfection. I also gained the partnership that I was dreaming about at that moment in time, by surrendering to the other’s will, accepting that the answer can be also a negative one.

In order to learn to be a winner, learn how to lose first, with grace, acceptance, understanding, humbleness…this will be a service to yourself and a great tool for your further evolution.

Keep on going on your path, because what’s a winner? A loser who tried one more time!

If you think your life is hard, maybe you are in the elite training mode, and you should remember:

About F.E.A.R(False Evidence Apearing Real) Part I

Fear is the primordial element of the manipulation of the masses. Initially it is just a fundamental “wingman” that supports the individual survival during childhood. Fear of heights protects us from a deadly fall, fear of water keeps us from drowning and so on, but after reaching mental maturity it becomes useless, not just useless but an obstruction on the evolutionary path. Physically, fear creates an influx of hormones like adrenaline, noradrenaline and cortisol, hormones that are awakening the body onto the state of physical and mental alertness, all the cognitive, superior functions are shut down or diminished to a very basic level and the whole energy is concentrated in the blood stream which is pumped to the muscles, so we can be ready to “flight or fight”. Fear transforms normal people into either aggressors or fugitive, both are unfortunately of a lower nature, subhuman.

That’s the secret, how nowadays masses are kept continuously in a subhuman animal instinct governed kind of life, because who gives a damn about self-improvement when the basic needs are not fulfilled? Who can aspire to philosophy, real spirituality or any other superior science which makes human mentally, morally and spiritually evolve out of the “animal” phase, when there’s a constant flow of adrenaline and cortisol? That’s why the majority are immersed even deeper into the shit, because of their reliance to drugs, alcohol, smoking and other bad habits (to make them “calmer”, “courageous”), which not only lowers even more the vibration but creates a vicious circle of illness, addiction and lowering the natural morale, out of which is extremely hard to exit.

Be advised, the path to becoming human again is hard, it takes courage, tremendous amount of work with oneself, it means being conscious of what we’re performing, eating, drinking, who we are intermingling our sexual energy with, how we’re interacting with each other and how nonviolent we are.

It takes a real courageous person to admit to all the stuff that is pure dirt and sickness that is filling our body, mind and emotionally. And there has to be a genuine call coming from inside, a call to wake up, to change something, knowing that we can’t change anyone and anything but ourselves, but by improving ourselves, we create ripples that will also affect the surroundings.

TV keeps us in fear, fear that we are not so beautiful as the other, not as bright, not having enough money, not having that nice car or boat… Not having big tits or huge muscles as the “successful” ppl,… Wake up! You are perfect the way you are, beautiful, Godlike, with the potential of both killing and saving, constructing or destroying. Don’t allow manipulators to tell you how to live, what to wear, how your woman/man has to look like, what car or house you should have. Start thinking on your own, dear reader, and life will unfold miracles in front of you. The TV and its way of keeping us in fear and its example now you can apply to everything that’s given to us, extrapolate it to all the things that the society is feeding us, predigested “truths” and manipulation, like fake history, religion(no matter which of them), any form of mass media, social media, where we become addicted to people liking us…

If you get inspired, it’s not me who does that, but your Higher Self who brought you here so you can read it. If you feel that it’s not your thing, relax and enjoy the life that you have!

How the world self-destructs

I wrote today something on a piece of paper – I like you -and showed it to a beautiful girl who was sitting meters away from me in a cafeteria. I wasn’t trying to get to her, just trying to check her response to the unusual situation. At first she was aloof, not knowing how to react, but then she smiled, widely and a beautiful laugh came up showing a perfect set of teeth. She was way too young, yet her beautiful smile and face made my day, may she be blessed.

Beauty… but you see, one never knows what’s inside such a beautiful face and body. There can be emptiness, there can be pure evil, a victimized soul can be inhabiting that beautiful wrapper, masked under that nice face, there can be just a young soul who is like a leaf in the wind and falls prey to the lower vibrations of this world, or it can be a very good old soul who not only has a lustrous beautiful face, but which will bring a drop of kindness and beauty to this bipolar world. Although good old souls incarnated in these times are not so many. Never fall for a beautiful face only. Make sure you really learn how that beautiful person behaves in certain situations.

I have noticed a trend all over the world, girls tend to be very beautiful and slim for a very short period of time, maybe just 1-5 years after puberty, and then they are loosing it because of using birth control pills and indulging in fast food, drinking alcohol and so on. There’s also an unhealthy trend of over-working out in gym which exhaust the body and takes important energy from different systems of the body and redirects it to creating and healing new muscular tissue.

So I have watched people having pictures on different social media, of course they are posting there the most representative of them, those that they consider to be the most beautiful. They also tend to post from different years, so it’s very easy to see how their body evolved, sometimes from one year to the other in a very destructive way, gaining weight in a very unnatural way and then there can be also losing weight, but already the face looks old and sometimes it looks even more odd to see them thinner since they look kind of awkward, very old and unhealthy. What they fail to understand is that this is the result of mistreating the body continuously, abusing it by drinking, smoking, not sleeping enough, by drug abuse and other overstimulating actions like drinking coffee, energizers and sodas. Unfortunately it’s an alarming trend and the new generation gets infected by sexual promiscuity, drugs and alcohol abuse and very bad food habits in which they mix everything. They eat a lot of unhealthy foods, mostly fast food type, and they become very fat and/or unhealthy.

Nowadays music, TV programs and movies in a more or less hidden propaganda style, promote this unhealthy life style which is detrimental for the future of a country, and the world because if the majority of the young population is unhealthy, fat and ill, obviously together with that coming depression and mental imbalance, so again the quality of everything that this young population is performing will be extremely low, slowly-slowly taking it to the downfall of this civilization.

We are all on the spiritual path

This is a world in which the wicked has the power, not because it’s more powerful (although it seems like that) but because I believe that this is some sort of mid-level purgatory of the souls and very rarely higher beings interfere with it.

That’s why lose the idea that someone has to save you. The decision must be yours. Grab with you all the courage that you find since it’s an extremely hard path, the path of self-perfection and spiritual evolution, yet remember that you are continuously watched, monitored, and when the desire to evolve is genuine, help is always there. The only savior you are to encounter on this hard path is your Higher Self taking a form of a Guru, Teacher, or a book in this illusion. The Higher Self is the being that you are truly devoid of fake identities, fears, projections and character traits. We are to discover that we are our own master, a Godlike being which is supposed to take full responsibility for everything that happens in our life. We are to accept whatever comes our way, detached and navigating through hardships, we refine and evolve further. There is going to be help on the way, it’s impossible without, but help no matter how it manifests, is but a tool for your further spiritual evolution. Respect and dedication to the tool, (be it a Guru, teacher or self aroused information by Grace) has to be there, but worshiping and projecting own power onto the tool is unnecessary since it may be creating another idol on which you project your desires and expectations and where we may become lazy expecting that being to do the work for us. We are all on our own spiritually individual path, no matter who and whatever does, don’t disrespect nor disregard anyone because they are all helping us to evolve. The student may overcome the teacher sometimes. There are really few high vibration people (who evolved out of the illusion) hidden in this world, and finding one is a great blessing.

We are all on the spiritual path, but for some it’ll take lives to evolve out of this illusionary world, and for others evolution is just around the corner.

The Journey Begins

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